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INHABITERS – Kingsley Okpii

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“Can you smell them?” Nguru asked his daughter, Anya, as they both crouched in the belly of the Ishike forest.

“Don’t make a sound. Just do as I do,” He crawled on his belly, moving surreptitiously in the undergrowth, and Anya followed closely behind. Soundlessly, they crept up on a young man, no more than thirteen years old, as he took a bath in the stream a few yards ahead of them. Nguru signalled halt with a clenched fist, and they stopped moving. He gave a knife carved from stone to Anya, “Hold his image in your mind as you cut,” he said.

Anya took the knife in hand, and peering intently at the unsuspecting bathing boy, she drew blood with its sharp edge, tracing a diagonal line across her palm, then she clenched her fist, as if trying to prevent her blood from spilling onto the earth. She recited an incantation under her breath, and as a drop of blood escaped her grip and touched the floor, the boy dropped into the stream, motionless, lifeless.

“Quick, let’s collect him before his people come searching for him,” Nguru said, and together they collected the young man’s body from the stream.

*

Back in the village, women and children cheered as Nguru and Anya returned, pulling the boy’s body in a wooden cart behind them. Shouts of praise filled the earthen streets, and the village was ripe for a celebration. Boys, no older than the deceased, relieved Nguru and Anya of the cart, dragging it to the village square where everyone was gathering.

“Two moons ago, Nguru informed me that your blood juju had awoken, and today you present us with your first kill. You are indeed the daughter of Nguru, descendant of the strongest hunters in all of Aro,” The dibia, chief priest of the high god, Chukwu, said. Anya stood in the village square, encircled by the denizens of Aro, her first kill on the earth next to her feet, a young man whom for all the world looked to be asleep, his brown skin an unbroken sheet covering him from head to toe.

The chief priest circled the dead man three times, inspecting his body with discerning eyes. “You,” he pointed at two young men in the crowd, “turn the body over,” he commanded, and they hurriedly flipped the dead body onto its abdomen, and the dibia continued his inspection. “You killed a great one, my child,” he said to Anya. He pointed to a cluster of birthmarks on the dead boy’s right heel, and then to another cluster on his left heel, “you felled a twelfth generation Inhabiter on your first hunt,” he said. And then he repeated for all of the crowd to hear, “Anya, daughter of Nguru has felled a twelfth generation Inhabiter.” The crowd erupted with praises for Anya.

“You have the blessings of twelve mothers,” the dibia blessed Anya. He pressed his thumb into the earth and traced the Nsibiri symbol of hunter on Anya’s forehead, and so dubbed her a hunter of Aro. He then raised both his hands in a gesture to calm the ecstatic crowd.

“It is good we remember why we do what we do, why our traditions and customs exist, for it is with the past that the future is forged,” the dibia said. “Mazi Onwuka, eldest of the ndi ichie, will remind us of our history. Let the young among us know that we are not barbarians who kill for sport. Let them know that although we celebrate the death of the Inhabiters, we also mourn the loss of our children, for it was our mothers who bore them.”

Mazi Onwuka, a wizened man with hair the colour of chalk, walked to the middle of the gathering, one slow step at a time, supported by his oaken walking stick which towered over his bent frame. He became the cynosure of the gathering as all voices fell silent, even the birds stopped singing in anticipation of his speech.

Umu Aro, ka wo!” Mazi Onwuka greeted the crowd, and they responded with a guttural hum in unison. Then, as if infused with unseen strength, Mazi Onwuka straightened his curved back and began to narrate the history of Aro.

“In the beginning, we were prosperous in all that we did. We had the blessings of our father, Chukwu, and our mother, Ani. Our women birthed strong sons and daughters. The first of us lived for hundreds of years without the faintest sign of ageing, and we continued so until our women began to birth children who died soon after delivery, only to be reborn again and again. These children who sped through the cycle of life and death as if in haste to complete a marathon, are who we call the Inhabiters, because they are evil spirits who inhabit the wombs of our women. In those early days, it was common for a woman to give birth to the same child seven times.

“Then the Inhabiters started to survive into early teenage years, and at the same time our people started to die young, such that it became a feat to live up to a hundred years, where before you were considered young at two hundred. With the Inhabiters came sickness and ageing, and this led to the Cleansing which saw umu Aro slaughter every last one of the inhabiters, who were easy to identify by their unique birthmarks which numbered as many as the number of times each Inhabiter had been reborn. Sadly, the Cleansing did nothing to reverse the changes that had occurred to umu Aro, and nine moons later, four-hundred inhabiters were reborn to the women of Aro, costing the lives of half the mothers during childbirth.

“Women lived in fear of catching the Inhabiters disease, a nine-moon long gestation leading to the birth of a sickly child who died in childhood, only to then be reborn again. This fear persisted for years until Nwagha, the first man in whom blood juju was awoken, saved us. Nwagha used his juju to sever the link between an Inhabiter and the cycle of life and death, preventing the Inhabiter from being reborn. Blood juju continued to awaken in Nwagha’s descendants, who carry out the sacred duty of ridding Aro of the Inhabiters.

“Today, we celebrate the latest descendant of Nwagha, Anya, daughter of Nguru, who has joined the ranks of the great hunters of Aro,” Mazi Onwuka ended, returning to his feeble self, his back regaining its curvature as he walked, supported by his staff, back to his seat within the crowd.

  “This is our history,” the chief priest said, and the crowd chorused, “this is our history.” Drumbeats erupted and the air was again charged with the feeling of festivity. Gourds of palm wine passed between hands, food was shared among the villagers who celebrated until the moon was high up the sky before retiring to their homes.

*

The hunters of Aro gathered under darkness of early morning in the village square, hours before what was planned to be a re-enactment of the Cleansing, only this time, with their blood juju they would ensure the Inhabiters were never reborn. Dike, the leader of the pack, stood encircled by other hunters as they made plans to raid the Ishike forest, where Inhabiters were cast away to live out their short lives.

“In pairs we will flank their huts, remaining unseen in the bushes. Anya, you will pair up with your father, Nguru—” Dike laid out the strategy. “Today we wrest our fate from the Inhabiters once and for all. Today we avenge our mothers!” Dike said, and the hunters cheered. “We attack at first light,” he added. Most had bags, which held knives and varied other charms, slung across their chest. Anya was one of two women who were hunters, the other was Nneka, a middle-aged woman who a decade ago had birthed an Inhabiter. Nneka, whose blood juju had not awoken at the time, did not have the courage to end her child’s life, instead, under the cover of darkness, she had stolen to Ishike forest to hand over the child to the Inhabiters that called the forest home.

At first light, the hunters surrounded the Inhabiters as they lay asleep in their huts. An Inhabiter, a young girl, no more than seven years old, exited a hut, and as soon as she was within the sights of the hunters, she dropped to the floor, lifeless. Dike had taken the first kill, his prerogative as leader of the hunt. The hunters killed any Inhabiter that had awoken from their night sleep and had the misfortune of stepping out of their huts. Soon, cries rent the morning air, as other Inhabiters discovered the bodies of their fallen.

Anya had been unable to make a kill since the siege began. As soon as she picked out an Inhabiter to attack, she soon found that he was already dead, slain by one of the other hunters. Then she heard a scream from the bushes. Nguru heard it too, and they turned to look. As they turned, a young man appeared from the bush behind them and plunged a dagger into Nguru’s back, driving it into his heart. Nguru let out a scream, writhed on the floor like an earthworm that had made contact with salt, and then he was still, lifeless. Anya jumped to her feet and lunged at the boy with her dagger, but he easily sidestepped and she missed. She made another attempt at stabbing the boy but was restrained by two other boys who appeared from the bushes.

*

On her knees, with hands restrained behind her, Anya took in the sight of her dead comrades, bodies piled in a heap, each with a dagger jutting from its back. She saw her father, his face contorted in agony, the last feeling he experienced before his death.

“We have waited for this day for a long time,” a young girl said to Anya. “I am Ada, chief of the Inhabiters, as you call us.” Ada regarded Anya as if searching for something not apparent to the naked eye. “Tie her to the udala tree, we will have words in the evening. Let us bury our dead.”

As Ada walked away, Anya saw her birthmarks, too many to count, on her heels. It explained the command Ada had in her voice; she was at least a hundred generations old.

With hands tied behind the udala tree, Ada observed the Inhabiters as they went about burying their dead. She noted how the Inhabiters, none older than early teenage years, had an air of maturity around them that could not be found among children of Aro. They talked and worked like adults, their eyes were not the eyes of children, but of elders who had seen more than their mouths could say. Most of the Inhabiters were at least seven generations old, having lived and died at least seven times, and then there was Ada, the chief, who was at least a hundred generations old, if her birthmarks were to be believed.

Nighttime soon came, and a bonfire was lit in the centre of the settlement, the fuel for the fire was some firewood and the bodies of the slain hunters. The air filled with the smell of burning flesh. Anya recoiled from the pungent smell as it permeated her nostrils and filled her lungs.

“You don’t like the smell?” Ada appeared from the other side of the fire. “Umu Aro have killed us for many years for the crime of simply existing, surely you do not expect us to honour them with a burial. Burials are sacred things reserved for the worthy. Are you worthy, Anya?”

Anya recoiled at the sound of her name. “How do you know my name?” She asked.

“There is a lot I know. Tell me, when you slew Ikefuna with your blood juju did you feel him quicken in your womb? I can hear his faint heartbeat as we speak, clamouring to join us, his people. In eight moons perhaps.”

“Why did you spare my life?” Anya asked, uninterested in Anya’s seemingly meaningless rambling.

“Soon child, soon,” Ada said.

“Let us celebrate this victory. Today, we cleansed the land of those who will see us dead in our sleep. Today, we mark the beginning of a new dawn for the Ngui,” Ada said in a raised voice to the inhabiters who were now gathered around the bonfire, and they cheered.

“For the benefit of our guest,” Ada gestured to Anya, “I will recount the history of woe that has been our lot since the beginning.” The bonfire cast an ethereal shadow of Ada that seemed to dance as she paced about telling the story of the Inhabiters.

“It is partly true as they tell it in Aro, a long time ago, women died from birthing the Ngui, as we call ourselves. Then came the sorcerer, Nwagha, who obtained the power to break the Ngui’s link to the cycle of life and death, and allow them live full lives. However, instead of breaking this link, Nwagha killed the Ngui and shut them out from the cycle of life and death completely. And so, what should have been a good thing turned into a massacre, as Nwagha and his descendants, the hunters, dedicated their lives to killing us—”

“You lie!” Anya shouted. “Why would Nwagha kill the Ngui if he could save them and the people of Aro?”

“It is because Nwagha’s mother died birthing a Ngui, as did his wife,” Ada answered. “He hated the Ngui and swore to put an end to us. He used dark juju to bind his blood to the chi of the land, and this gave him dominion over the Ngui. In exchange for this power, he gave up half of his life, and that is why till this day hunters never live past thirty years.”

“All lies! How would you know any of this?” Anya spat on the floor. “Lies!”

“I know because I was there, and every Ngui knows because we have memories from our past lives.”

Anya did not believe Ada’s account, but she knew the Inhabiters had the ability to retain the memories from their past lives, and so it was possible that Ada was telling the truth.

“Why did you not approach the hunters with this information? Why did you allow us to go on killing the Ngui? You are also to be blamed for the death of your people,” Ada said.

“You think we did not try? We tried several times, but your elders would hear no words that came out of our mouths. We were killed on sight. But all that is in the past now. Like I said, today marks a new beginning for us.”

“Why didn’t you kill me?” Anya asked.

“Because you remain unsullied by the blood of the Ngui,” Ada replied.

“That is not true. I took the life of one of your own about a moon ago.”

Ada laughed and her laughter spread through the crowd.

“His name was Ikefuna, and you did not take his life. As he bathed in the stream that day, he sensed you and your father lurking in the bushes. And just before you could use your blood juju on him, he took his own life with the aid of a poison held in his mouth. You see, Ikefuna was one among us who had the ability to choose his mother, and that day, as you rejoiced that you had made your first kill, Ikefuna took refuge in your womb. You know I do not lie. I am sure your monthly flow is late in coming this month,” Ada said.

“No! No! No!?” Anya cried, struggling against her restraints.

“I will teach you to use your power the right way, for the good of all of Aro. This is why you have been spared. This is why you are here. In eight moons, when Ikefuna is born, your training will be complete. Untie her, and let the feast begin,” Ada commanded.

*

The Ishike forest was brightly lit by fires from the Ngui’s celebration. Anya had been untied and had a plate of roast meat and a cup of palm wine set before her which she had not touched, too broken to eat as she was. Some Ngui danced around the large bonfire to a wonderful melody sung by the night birds of the forest. Suddenly, two dancing Ngui fell to the floor, a pool of blood collecting where arrows had punctured their chests, and then three more fell. The song of the night birds was replaced by the whirring of flying arrows and screams of injured Ngui. The celebration broke into a frenzy, as the Ngui scurried to escape with their lives.

Anya was stunned by the abrupt change in atmosphere, and as Ngui ran past her from every direction she caught sight of Ada, two younger Ngui in hand, making their way into a nearby bush. Soon, the clearing, where moments ago the Ngui danced, was emptied of all except Anya.

“Anya, is that you?” A voice called from just beyond the Ngui’s huts. Anya turned to the voice which she recognised as the chief priest’s.

“Yes, it is I,” Anya responded.

The dibia appeared from the bush together with a group of young men.

“How?” Anya asked

“I feared the Inhabiters may have bested our hunters when you did not return by noon, so, I called upon the young men of Aro, and we set out to find you people. What happened my child?” the priest asked.

Anya narrated her capture and the deaths of the hunters, but she left out Ada’s story about the Ngui and the child growing inside of her. The young men wailed at the sight of the burnt corpses, and they swore they would chase the Inhabiters to the end of Ishike forest until every last one was dead. The priest asked that they stayed their anger and return to their village.

*

Aro was thrown into moons of sadness and grieving following the news of the deaths of their hunters, but their resolve to wipe out the Inhabiters also intensified. The dibia and his priests set about screening all children for signs of the awakening of blood juju, in an effort to rebuild their army of hunters.

Anya had still not spoken of Ada’s revelation, and when asked, she explained that she was simply lucky to not have been killed by the Inhabiters. As the only remaining hunter in Aro, it fell to her to protect Aro from the inhabiters, especially the women as the number of Inhabiter births swelled; a consequence of the attack by men of Aro. She attended every inhabiter birth, all too willing to give the newborn babes a gift of death even as they lay connected to their mothers via their umbilical cord, and with every inhabiter Anya severed from the cycle of life and death she felt the child growing in her kick, as if expressing its disapproval of her actions. It would be several moons before she would meet this thing inside of her that dared rebel against her.

*

Hours before the cockcrow, on a windless harmattan night, nine moons after Anya had encountered Ikefuna, the Inhabiter whom she had thought she slew; she was thrust into the throes of childbirth. In the moons prior, when her belly had begun to grow, rumours as to the father of the child had spread across Aro. Some held that Agada, one of the younger hunters who was slain on that fateful night, was the father of her child, as he was closer to her age, and Nguru, Anya’s father was his mentor who had shown him the ways of a hunter and so, was partial to him. Still, others believed the father was a young man from a distant village, a thought they had no proof or reason to hold. The entire village speculated, but none, not even the dibia dared ask Anya who the father was.

As the pangs grew stronger and more frequent, Anya set out of the village in the dead of night without alerting any of the birthing women of Aro as to her state in fear that Ada’s words may come through and she births an inhabiter in full view of the midwives, and be forced to take his life as she had done to others before him. She wanted some time with this child she had carried for nine moons, this child that was the beginning of her life as a hunter. She chewed on the leaves of a weed she had picked days before, and this numbed her pain as she made for Ishike forest half hoping to find the inhabiters returned to their homes. Her plan was simple: if she delivered a child bearing the mark of an inhabiter, she would leave him with the inhabiters of the forest until she made up her mind about taking its life.

On getting to the forest, the inhabiters had not returned, and all she found were their deserted huts, most of which had been burnt to the ground by the people of Aro.

 She was gripped by a particularly violent pang and fell to the ground.

Anya laboured for two days, untended, in the Ishike forest. By the end of the second day, she birthed a child, a boy with caramel brown skin, unblemished, save for the birthmarks numbering ten and three on his heels. When Anya saw the marks, she knew she had birthed Ikefuna. She held him close to her bosom to quieten his cries.

A pool of blood grew around her and she felt her life ebb with its widening diameter. With what was the remainder of her life force she touched her thumb into the pool of her own blood and marked her child with the Nsibiri symbol for life. Remembering what Ada had said about how the power of a hunter should be used, she looked into her child’s eyes and severed its link to the cycle of life and death. Just then, as she felt the invisible bond break, she saw the birthmarks on his heel fade away, and it was the last thing she ever saw.

END

Kingsley Okpii
Kingsley Okpii lives in Leicester city, United Kingdom where he works as a doctor in the NHS. Between busy shifts, he writes Afrocentric speculative fiction. My short stories have been published on Omenana and The Kalahari Review, and Apex Magazine.

Warrior Mine – Masimba Musodza

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Masimba Musodza
Masimba Musodza was born in Zimbabwe, but has lived most of his adult life in the United Kingdom. He is the author of two novels and a novella in ChiShona, his native language, and a collection of short stories in English. His short fiction has appeared in anthologies and periodicals around the world. He also writes for stage and screen. RECENT PUBLICATIONS: What Bastet Saw, Undead Press (online), 2021; Imba YaSekuru Browne ("Cousin Browne's House"), Mosi-oa-Tunya Literary Review, Zimbabwe, 2021, The Reader of Faces, Breathe Science Fiction Anthology, India, 2020; The Rapture of Pastor Agregate Makunike, Chitungwiza Musha Mukuru: An Anthology From Zimbabwe's Biggest Ghetto, Zimbabwe, 2020

      In a cold, damp cellar, under a large Victorian house in a small village near the Teesdale town of Barnard Castle, Dominic Mufuka stared down at the still form on the bed and marvelled at what can be accomplished with stolen things. He glanced appreciatively around the cellar, recalling how they had appropriated equipment from hospitals, and made new devices from scratch.

     They had worked diligently, and secretly. By day, and by night, they were Zimbabwean immigrants fleeing the political and consequent economic crisis that had engulfed the once African post-colonial showcase, doing menial jobs, living on the fringe of British society and planning to set up their own care hospital. Away from appearances, Dominic Mufuka was an obscure biotech theorist with papers that expounded on the possibility of the reanimation of dead organic matter. To his left stood Chandapihwa “Chanda” Musami (Mrs Dominic Mafuka for three years now), a victim of the glass ceiling at a few tech companies, who had privately pursued research in the transmission, storage and retrieval of data between organic matter and computer chips. To his right, Nolwandle “Nolly” Sibanda, a specialist, end-of-life care nurse. To her right, her boyfriend, Pikirayi “Banjo” Kambanje, whose previous life in the purchasing and supply department of a large Zimbabwean company had imparted the skills with which they had procured medical equipment from various institutions around the UK.

     A website and a large sign outside the house announced (quite truthfully) that a private hospital specialising in palliative care was to be set up here soon. Thus, the comings and goings of the Order of the Black Spear in this little village in the Teesdale Valley, attracted no further attention beyond casual curiosity.

     The young man who lay on the bed had the body of the Zulu king Tshaka as portrayed by Henry Cele. Necrosis had claimed some of his skin, but, if all went according to plan soon, fresh skin would replace it. His name, poetically enough, was Tichakunda Kapfumo; We-shall-conquer Little-spear. He had come from Zimbabwe as an infant with his parents. Last week, he had been stabbed in a public park in Peckham. Nothing to see here, just another victim of the knife culture among Black youth in London.

     Mufuka stared at the interface at the side of the bed, and allowed his feelings to come to the surface for a moment. This was the culmination of their work, their forays into branches of sciences that mankind had once been fascinated with, then abandoned because of ethical considerations. Dr Emmanuel Frankenstein, whose story framed such ethical considerations for posterity, might have understood their sense of triumph at this moment. “It was on a dreary night of November, that I beheld the accomplishment of my toils. With an anxiety that almost amounted to agony, I collected the instruments of life around me, that I might infuse a spark of being into the lifeless thing that lay at my feet,” Mufuka quoted.

     “Well, I am thinking of that American spiritualist, John Murray Spear, and his New Motive Power,” said Chanda.

     “And I am thinking of the priests of hundreds of African religions, and arcane apothecaries who know the herbal concoctions that can suspend life, those that can resurrect it, and those that can bend it to one’s will,” said Nolly.

     “On the shoulders of giants we stand,” said Banjo, taking her hand.

     Mufuka stretched a trembling hand towards the interface, and his index finger touched the icon labelled ACTIVATE. For nearly a minute, nothing happened. Then, motion agitated Tichakunda’s limbs. The eyelids quivered for a moment, then, he was staring up, his gaze keen. His breathing was mild. Apart from these actions, he was completely motionless.

“The organic equivalent of a computer reboot,” said Mufuka. “How long will it take?” It had taken days with all the animals they had experimented on.

Nolly checked her tablet. “The projection has narrowed it down to under twenty-four hours now. But that can change as more data on his vitals comes in.” The medical profession would go nuts if they learned about the programme she created, which interacted with different organs and taught the relevant parts of the brain to work them again.

“But he is alive in every sense of the word!” said Mufuka, his voice barely above a whisper. “We have achieved that much. We halted necrosis and decomposition, and reanimated organic material that had been dead!”

Jubilantly, they trooped out of the lab. The “rebooting”, as Mufuka called it, would take a while. How long that would actually be had proven impossible to predict, but Chanda was convinced it would be days before Tichakunda would even become aware that his eyes were open, or his brain receptive to their signals.

The party was in what was to be the hospital’s main office, one of the few rooms the decorators had completed. It probably should have ended with the couples pairing up and taking the party to a more intimate level, but everyone was too boozed to do more than grope their loved one as they swayed to the Ethiopian jazz all four of them could not get enough of.

The next thing Mufuka recalled was Banjo’s bearded face filling his vision. “Ticha’s gone, Dom!”

Like a seasoned warrior, Mufuka banished all sleep and the ravages of last night’s revelry with a sharp effort of will. Silently, quickly, he followed Banjo to the hidden lab in the cellar, where Chanda and Nolly stood helplessly over the now-vacant bed.

“I came to check on him as soon as I woke up,” said Chanda. “I have no idea when he got up, but he did!” She held up her tablet. “It would appear that my programme for retraining his brain will not be needed!”

“Of course it will, Chanda,” said Mufuka.

“But this disappearance shows that he is fully aware,” said Banjo. “If I woke up in a lab, I would get the hell out of there, too!”

“But we don’t know the extent of his awareness!” said Mufuka.

“We know what he is capable of,” said Chanda. “The projections….”

“You project, darling,” said Mufuka, heading towards the door. “Banjo and I are going to drive around and see if we can find him!”

Banjo grabbed several phials of the purpose-designed tranquiliser, and followed him. They drove around the country lanes for three hours and met nearly thirty people, but no one could say they had seen the young man whose picture they showed from their mobile phones. It was when a couple of hikers stared long and hard at the van that it occurred to Mufuka that it would be imprudent to have so many people recall that four strangers in a van were looking for a person no one had seen in the area before. If Tichakunda was found, and his unique abilities were apparent, someone would remember who else had looked for him.

Dejected, the four sat in the lab. The other three looked to Mufuka for ideas on the next move, he was the person most able to think on his feet. The others used the scientific method, and there was a lot of data to go through before they could imagine a solution.

“We need to get out of here,” said Mufuka.

“The house in Wales…” Banjo began.

“Out of Britain,” said Mufuka. “Do you not see what kind of a storm is coming when Takunda is found?”

“But the project, Dom,” said Nolly.

“We can continue the project somewhere else,” said Mufuka. “It is just as well that we never got to explain to Takunda why we resurrected him. That part of our secret is safe. Let’s get packing.” He rose. “Protocol 5, everyone.” 

Protocol 5 was, essentially, breaking camp and removing all traces of it. By early evening, all of the questionable equipment was boxed, ready for shipping under the auspices of a charity that supported hospitals in Zimbabwe. Banjo would travel with it, of course. The computers were taken apart and incinerated.

As the remaining three, Mufuka, Chanda and Nolly sat in the lounge, they could focus on the fact that they had lost their creation. Mufuka could see parallels with Dr Frankenstein, whose own monster had fled soon after being animated.

“Frankenstein’s creature did not run away, Dom,” Chanda reminded him. “He ran away from it first, remember. He was horrified at what he had made. Tichakunda ran away from us.”

“But he will have the same disorientation,” said Nolly. “Like Frankenstein’s creature, there will be no one to tell him who he is, what he is, and, most importantly, why.”

“We must look to the future of the project,” said Chanda. “We now know that we can reanimate a human. That is how far we have gone, technologically, and it is a giant leap.”

“And we lost our first subject!” said Mufuka. “Not only did we lose him, but we know nothing about Tichakunda at all. What his thoughts and feelings are, or, even if he has any.”

“We have his profile,” said Chanda. “And we have all the projections of how he could behave after resurrection.”

“They were based on the assumption that he would only begin to act after we had instructed him on his new purpose,” said Mufuka. “His escape changes everything.”

“I can come up with new projections,” said Chanda. “But I will need all my data.”

Shutting down the project had been the right thing to do, still, Mufuka reflected. All they could do now was hope for the best, hope that, despite the spiralling of events, time was still on their-

Nolly’s yell snapped him out of his musing. She had the remote on the TV, skipping back to about a minute, raising the volume. LONDON STABBING the headline screamed. “Police have stated that while they are taking eye-witness accounts and CCTV footage seriously, they are not in a position to comment on reports that the attacker demonstrated superhuman strength…” The inset expanded to show a young Black Londoner, the sort you saw in the area south of the Thames, who appeared to be highly distressed. “He was like Predator, fam! My man march in here and just started frowing mans against walls, walahi!” The image snapped back to the presenter, who was trying to keep a straight, professional face. “Police would also like to apologise unreservedly for issuing earlier a picture of the young man they believed to have single-handedly carried out the attack, who bears a striking resemblance to another young man who died last week in a similar episode of gang-related violence. In a statement, police said they deeply regret any distress the image would have caused to the family of Tich Kapfumo as they still mourn….”

“He’s in London!” said Mufuka.

“But, how did he get there so soon?” said Nolly. “Flagged a lift, or ran all the way?”

“Whichever, it shows that he knows what he is doing!” said Mufuka. “He is not a zombie.”

“But what about this attack?” said Chanda.

“It’s not as random as it looks,” said Mufuka. “Black youth killing Black youth has become common enough in London for the police to simply go through the motions of investigating. But we know something they don’t; Tichakunda Mapfumo is no longer an ordinary Black youth.”

“Do you think he is going after the gang that killed him?” said Chanda.

“I think if you sat down and did one of your projections, you would come to that conclusion,” said Mufuka, rising. “Come on, we must get to London at once!”

“You know where you can find him?” said Nolly.

“I have a few places in mind,” said Mufuka.

They took turns at the wheel of Chanda’s Vauxhall Astra, pulling up outside a house in Peckham at fifteen past ten. The Mapfumo family home. In the living room, the curtains were drawn, but the light peeped through the edges.

Entering a stranger’s home was easy if both the occupants and visitors were Zimbabweans. After they had exchanged formal greetings and offered their condolences to a visibly apprehensive Mr and Mrs Mapfumo, Mufuka made the introductions. “We apologise for coming this late, but that is how long it has taken us to travel from the North-East of England from the time we heard about this tragedy. Tich was a friend of my son back in Zimbabwe, they were at infant school together. You may not remember me, of course.”

The Mapfumos leaned closer at the trio, as if to get a better look. Their unease remained, however.

“The face seems familiar, sir,” said Mapfumo, politely. “I am grateful that you thought people you last saw so long ago, and so far away, were important enough to cross the country to be with at this time.”

“So far from our country, each other is all we have, you know,” said Nolly.

“The way God works….” said Mrs Mapfumo, shaking her head as if in awe of the way God works. “We bring these children to what we think is a better life for them…”

They all made sympathetic noises and intoned platitudes about the will of God. Mufuka could not shake off the notion that the Mapfumos were hiding something. Even as Mrs Mapfumo moved to rise, to see what she could do in the kitchen, their body language said they wanted their guests gone immediately.

“We shall not take too much of your time, dear parents,” said Mufuka. “If we set off now, we should be back before three.”

“As if there is any need to leave right away!” Mrs Mapfumo protested. But the relief on their faces was apparent. They stole glances at the door.

“You know, we were expecting four people from the North-East,” said Mapfumo. “Two men and two women. That can’t be you people, can it?”

“He’s here, isn’t he?” said Nolly.

“Tichakunda!” Mrs Mapfumo cried, her gaze on the door. “Come out, son!”

The door swung open slowly, and there was a mephitic waft of chemicals before Tichakunda strode in and stood in the middle of the room like a prize fighter before the match. He wore the sneakers, sagging jeans and hoodie of a typical southwest London teenager. But, there was something about his bearing, his mien, that evoked an understanding of life as it ought not to be. Maybe it was the discolouration on his face, the patches of dead skin. Mufuka wondered what else on him had failed to resurrect.

He bore down on the trio. “So, you followed me home.”

“Tichakunda, you died last week,” said Mufuka, rising to confront him. “We brought you back.” He was aware of Mrs Mapfumo crying softly in the background behind her son. “We are here to take you back to your new home. It must have been frightening when you woke up, but all will be explained.”

“Why did you bring me back?” Tichakunda asked.

Mufuka noticed then how Tichakunda’s eyes looked to a point to his right. He wondered how well he could see, if he relied on other senses besides sight.

“We want to build an army of warriors to fight for Africa’s cause,” said Nolly, rising to slowly circle Takunda. “Warriors that can take on every rebel group, every professional soldier working for every despotic regime. Warriors that would make that long-held dream of Pan Africanism a reality by being invincible to every force that challenges it.”

“Takunda, if you return with us, we could….”

Nolly’s voice trailed off as he brushed past her and made his exit. There was a stunned silence for a moment, then Mufuka led the pursuit. Outside the main entrance to the house, he looked this way and that and turned back to face his companions. “He’s gone!”

“Can we catch him if we get the car?” said Chanda.

But they all knew the answer to that.

“Do you think he understood what I told him?” Nolly wondered.

“Of course he did,” said Mufuka. “But he has places to go, people to see. That is why he came back to London. The fighting on these streets, that is his war. Africa and its problems mean little to him.”

“But we made him into this!” said Chanda, vehemently.

“Did I request thee, Maker, from my clay to mould me man? Did I solicit thee From darkness to promote me,” said Mufuka. “Those were the words of Frankenstein’s creature to him, quoting the words of the first man to his Creator. Takunda never asked us to bring him back any more than he asked his parents to bring him out of Africa.”

A cool breeze blew about them, carrying Mrs Mapfumo’s gentle weeping for her son into the night.

                             END

Masimba Musodza was born in Zimbabwe, but has lived most of his adult life in the United Kingdom. He is the author of two novels and a novella in ChiShona, his native language, and a collection of short stories in English. His short fiction has appeared in anthologies and periodicals around the world. He also writes for stage and screen.
RECENT PUBLICATIONS: What Bastet Saw, Undead Press (online), 2021; Imba YaSekuru Browne (“Cousin Browne’s House”), Mosi-oa-Tunya Literary Review, Zimbabwe, 2021,  
The Reader of Faces, Breathe Science Fiction Anthology, India, 2020; The Rapture of Pastor Agregate Makunike, Chitungwiza Musha Mukuru: An Anthology From Zimbabwe’s Biggest Ghetto, Zimbabwe, 2020

AUX PORTES DE LANVIL – Michael Roch

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Michael Roch

La mer était chargée de cadavres et, ce matin, elle leur crachait au visage. Elle éclaboussait son écume jaunie chaque fois qu’un corps mort, gonflé par le sel et le soleil, heurtait la cuve à bord de laquelle le jeune Joge-O et le Docteur Ignace survivaient, depuis la tempête. L’embarcation filait droit, poussée par les vents sans trop d’hésitation, et emmenait les deux rescapés vers la liberté, vers Lanvil. Penché par-dessus bord, Joge-O vomissait ses dernières tripes.

 « On approche, » fit savoir le Docteur Ignace au énième bruit mou d’un torse qui se déforme contre la cuve ouverte, « Lanvil approche. » Ils en croisaient depuis quelques jours, des écœurés, des sans-vies, des camouflés par la houle, mais, depuis l’aurore, c’est tout l’horizon qui semblait avoir tourné de l’œil et qui vomissait le surplus des Enfers. L’océan, comme un poumon cancéreux, ne respirait plus.

Ça le prenait de plus en plus, au docteur, de fixer le large avec hâte et envie. Il parlait souvent à mi-voix, lorsque les jours passés à étouffer s’adoucissaient et avant que la nuit tombe. En réalité, il priait silencieusement Lanvil d’apparaitre enfin, et de se dévoiler vague après vague.

Aux yeux de Joge-O, le docteur conservait cet optimisme aveugle. Il ne cherchait pas vraiment le point fantomatique de l’île dans le lointain, mais il auscultait la voilure et l’ombrage qu’elle donnait à leurs corps meurtris, comme s’il était le garant de leur solidité précaire.

Mais rien ne perçait le faux plat marin, ni devant, ni autour, ni au-delà. Le large paraissait vide depuis toujours, même si les holocartes et nanoboussoles indiquaient la présence du continent, là, derrière les dernières vagues. On dit, yé krik, que les portes de Lanvil sont des crocs dressés contre le reste du monde. On dit, yé krak, que le monde entier pourrait s’y fracasser, il n’y entrerait pas, dans Lanvil, s’il ne s’en montre pas digne, s’il ne sait pas se faire humble. On dit, yé mistikrik, qu’ils sont nombreux, les indignes et les orgueilleux, les rejetés de Lanvil, et Joge-O pensait, jusqu’à ce jour, que ce n’était qu’une légende. Yé mistikrak.

Il eut encore un haut-le-cœur et essuya d’une main tremblante la bile blanche qui lui coulait du nez. Ses genoux glissèrent sur le sang qui serpentait au fond de l’embarcation.

— Nous n’entrerons pas, fit-il enfin.

— Seulement si tu nous fais dessaler.

La cuve gîta dangereusement vers les cadavres qui flottaient tout autour d’eux. Les morts bavassaient d’un clapot bruyant. Ils bavassaient tellement qu’ils en étourdissaient Joge-O, Joge-O malade, Joge-O tanguant, Joge-O dérivant, chavirant presque de son corps à moitié nu, et de son ventre vidé de douleur.

Un étau de nausée se referma sur lui ; ce n’était pas le soleil qui l’empêchait de respirer, ni les embruns acides, mais la vision horrible de ces visages délavés, et pourtant si familiers, qui se pressaient les uns contre les autres et s’embrassaient dans une danse lente et gauche. Il en avait peur. Ils tournaient sur eux-mêmes et hurlaient sous les vagues le sort funeste que Joge-O supposait et qu’il ne pouvait plus taire.

— Nous n’y arriverons pas, répéta Joge-O.

Il était épouvanté par leurs saccades, par leurs sursauts, mais quelque part près de son cœur, sa frayeur tenait plus de la douleur. Une douleur qu’on lui avait mise là, entre la cinquième côte et le poumon gauche. Une douleur qui le reliait à ces cadavres, une peine antique, partagée, démultipliée par le nombre de corps flottés. Une brûlure interne aussi étendue que l’horizon, que même les paroles du Docteur Ignace n’auraient pu apaiser.

— On dit qu’il y a un gardien devant Lanvil, chuchota ce dernier, c’est lui qui décide qui entre et qui reste à la mer. C’est lui qu’il faut guetter.

Art by Sunny Efemena

— Il ne te laissera pas entrer.

Le Docteur Ignace grimaça, la vieille bâche s’était violemment dégrafée. Elle claqua dans le vent comme une voile déchirée et fit sauter la cuve vers l’avant. Le cylindre de verre qui leur servait de radeau écrasa un corps dans le creux de la vague. La cuve était vide, vide des canaux ombilicaux et des masques à oxygène, vide de son fluide vital et de ses greffons génonutritifs, vide de ses courroies de sécurités, de ses cordons d’alimentation, de ses pertes et de ses fuites vers la mort, vide de ses premiers occupants. Le caisson pouvait contenir jusqu’à cinq corps. Ils n’étaient plus que deux à s’accrocher aux flots comme l’espoir à la vie.

Le Docteur pensait à Lanvil, à elle seule, l’île coincée au fond de son esprit comme une plaie à vif, une cicatrice qu’il gardait béante depuis que le rivage de l’autre monde lui était apparu en songe. Il ne pensait pas à ce qu’elle lui avait coûté, à ce qu’il avait dû payer pour l’approcher, à tout ce qu’il avait perdu, en vérité : ses techniciens et l’équipage, l’équipage qui tenait le navire, le navire qui abritait le laboratoire, le laboratoire qui collectait les données, les données qui repeupleraient l’Humanité.

De l’autre côté du globe, au départ de l’Océan, il ne restait qu’un désert de bombes, des poussières de villes et des routes abandonnées. Il n’y avait plus d’Humanité, que des animaux apeurés se terrant dans des bunkers surpeuplés desquels ne sortaient que des informations immatérielles, sécurisées dans des enveloppes mécaniques. Dans le silence des nuits ultra-marines, le Docteur Ignace pleurait la fin de l’Occident, démoli par un immonde repli sur lui-même. Aux questions pourquoi, et comment, il se persuadait que les réponses et la salvation viendraient de l’antipode. Il lui fallait Lanvil. Il lui fallait ce qui lui échappait encore.

Le Docteur Ignace avait gardé la barbarie ordonnée de ses idées impérialistes, l’obsession pour l’épandage de valeurs objectives, expérimentées, contrôlées, théorisées, de valeurs humaines qui siéraient à la Terre entière, si elle daignait les écouter, si elle daignait se laisser coloniser. L’Humanité, pensait-il, l’Humanité périrait dans le froid, la vérole et la torpeur, ou alors vaincrait-elle, elle fracasserait les portes de Lanvil, enrichie des routes tracées par les explorateurs modernes. Car il en était un, d’explorateur, même dans l’état auquel il était réduit.

Il voyait en Lanvil le bout du chemin, le dernier espace libre, la continuité vierge de toute impureté, loin de toute déchéance, où il serait possible de reconstruire l’Homme et repartir de zéro, réparer les erreurs, bâtir un nouveau monde.

— Je lui parlerai de la vie, à ce gardien, et du bonheur des jours qui s’écoulent, de la lenteur épuisante de la rosée qui s’évapore, au petit matin, entre les herbes vertes des Alpilles. Je lui dirai que ce monde-là est beau et que la joie de vivre sous ces latitudes le touchera autant qu’elle m’a émue, s’il nous ouvre ses portes.

Mais Joge-O ne l’écoutait pas. Il regardait avec un sentiment étrange – une nostalgie ou une mélancolie qu’il éprouvait pour la première fois – la vague empoisonnée qui déferlait et heurtait le rebord de la cuve. Il aurait bien voulu leur tendre la main, aux morts sous les eaux, les cueillir, les attraper un par un, les sauver de ce bouillon salin, mais le Docteur le lui avait interdit, au tout début, lorsqu’il avait pris place dans le caisson déjà plein de corps : « ne touchez pas à ce qu’il y a au-dehors, vous devez rester purs. » Joge-O ne comprenait plus le sens de cette phrase.

— Tu sais qu’ils me ressemblent ?

— Qui donc ?

Joge-O s’attachait aux visages aplatis par la couverture de l’océan, dont les cheveux défrisaient lentement dans la poisse des chairs décomposées et dont le nez évasé avait été becté par un poisson de surface, les oreilles aussi. Les lèvres, elles, avaient fondu.

— Ils me ressemblent tous.

— Ça ne va pas mieux, hein.

Malgré sa ruine, le Docteur se souciait de son fils aîné, comme il aimait l’appeler, avant. Il avait toujours ce regard bienveillant par instant, qui s’effaçait parfois rattrapé par la réalité. Mais il l’aimait d’amour, sa progéniture, d’un amour vrai, paternel et condescendant. Il l’appelait son fils pour lui donner le caractère d’un individu, et il lui avait fait la promesse, lorsqu’ils arriveraient à Lanvil, de le libérer de tout fer, de tout lien. Il devait d’abord achever son éducation ; il aurait voulu le prendre dans ses bras, mais la situation lui échappait.

— Tu es unique, Joge-O.

— C’est un mensonge, rétorqua-t-il.

Joge-O le dévisagea de ses yeux noirs, d’un noir si puissant que le Docteur Ignace détourna son visage, gêné par la candeur artificielle qui se reflétait à leur surface. La voix du scientifique se teinta d’une peur inconfortable qu’il tenait cachée au fond de sa gorge sombre et fragile.

— Je veux dire : je t’ai créé unique. À Lanvil, ils seront des milliers à conter ton histoire, notre arrivée. On poussera des Yé krik ! On répondra Yé krak ! C’est comme ça que se transmettent les légendes, là-bas, de l’autre côté. La nuit, au pied de gigantesques feux, celui qui raconte réveille la cour d’un grand cri : Yé mistikrik ! Et si la cour ne dort pas, elle reprend : Yé mistikrak ! Tu verras. Je t’apprendrai, comme toujours. Je suis là pour ça.

— Tu ne m’as rien appris !

Joge-O se jeta sur lui. Il écartela de toutes ses forces les courroies qui ligotaient le scientifique. Elles cisaillaient son corps depuis plusieurs nuits. Sous la violence du geste, elles décharnèrent son torse et malmenèrent d’autant plus l’esquif.

Joge-O rattacha la voile. Il la coinça dans les câbles qui garrottaient le Docteur. Il serra sa poigne de rage, une rage meurtrière qui aurait tué le Docteur bien plus tôt qu’il n’aurait fallu. Plusieurs secondes, il haït son créateur, autoproclamé père et maître du bateau. Il le haït pour son savoir, parce qu’il tenait des rênes intangibles, parce qu’il les gardait acquises, comme un instrument de contrôle sur le corps de Joge-O. Le fils aurait voulu achever son marionnettiste, mais ce dernier était le seul à pouvoir le mener hors du dégout des flots, hors du cercueil qui leur servait de radeau. Sous la pression du vent d’Est contre la voile de fortune, la cuve fendit l’écume sirupeuse et retrouva son cap. Le Docteur Ignace suffoquait.

— Je t’ai donné toutes les clés…

— Pas toi. Ce sont mes frères qui m’ont appris à voir, à écouter, à ressentir…

— Et qui leur a enseigné tout ça ?

Joge-O considéra avec dégoût la jambe arrachée du Docteur Ignace, puis la lame dont il s’était servi pour la découper, et qu’il avait jetées à fond de cuve, le corps secoué par les premiers haut-le-cœur. Le moignon, comme le tranchant, suintait encore de nanobêtes sérosanguines qui s’écroulaient sur elles-mêmes au fur et à mesure qu’elles se reproduisaient et débordaient de leur propre organisme. Elles envahissaient la périphérie de leur espace vital et empoissaient d’une existence fausse chaque recoin inanimé de l’embarcation.

Les nanobêtes courraient le long de l’armature de verre, elles aussi avides d’endroits immaculés de leur souillure. Elles pullulaient de manière intelligente, construisant des ponts et des architectures éphémères. Elles s’assemblaient en un magma grouillant, et pourtant ordonné, jusqu’à ce que, d’une trop forte concentration, rayonne un éclat vif et irisé, lequel se répandait toujours plus, comme une huile connectée, emplie d’informations, de caractères et de valeurs.

La cuve se remplissait de ce sang aux couleurs insolites tandis que Joge-O compressait de son propre poids le corps du docteur. Il garda longtemps son œil vengeur et colérique fiché dans celui de son créateur qui, plein d’incompréhension, crucifié à la proue, sanglé par les câbles de nutrition du vieux caisson, souffrait de maintenir la voile plein Ouest, droit vers les connecteurs que ses puces géosensorielles traçaient comme un aimant, droit vers Lanvil et la délivrance.

Les yeux du Docteur Ignace se révulsèrent sous la douleur, mais il ne cria pas. Il gémit d’une plainte longue et sourde que reprirent en cœur les cadavres qui grognaient sous les vagues. Le vent s’intensifia, lui déroba son souffle, et Joge-O, qu’aucune émotion ne traversait plus, ne le réanima qu’après lui avoir détaché la main droite. Le Docteur pleurait.

— Tu parviendras à me manger tout entier…

— Je sais.

— Je t’ai tout donné, Joge-O, la vie, la conscience d’être-là, la vision de l’à-venir, la valeur de l’expérience. Chaque morceau qui te constitue a été modelé, compacté, connecté dans la matrice de ce caisson, grâce à moi, mes idées, mes recherches, mes projets. Et tu me manges ? Tu manges la main qui t’a nourri tant de jours ?

— Je ne voulais pas manger les autres.

Joge-O croqua dans la chair. Il arracha les ongles à coups de dents, décrocha les cartilages, répandant sous sa langue et derrière ses gencives, jusqu’au bord de sa glotte, la chaleur pervertie qui courrait dans le membre du docteur.

Il y avait là des souvenirs tactiles, des touchers particuliers, des gestes et des manières. Il y avait des directions, des tremblements, il y avait des odeurs et des formes, des souvenirs d’environnements, des objets en négatif. La main et ses connecteurs étaient teintés du passé du Docteur Ignace, toute l’histoire d’une vie active, et Joge-O s’en saturait autant qu’il s’en répugnait.

Il s’était dressé contre la main qui l’avait nourri, non pas pour la détruire, mais pour s’en nourrir d’autant plus, avaler son muscle, décrypter ses nerfs, assimiler leurs données. Il n’aimait pas ce goût. Il avait détesté celui de ses frères. Il n’aimait pas non plus se voir dans le regard cynique du docteur qui, stupéfait, oscillait entre incompréhension, rire moqueur et insultes.

Son fils était un sauvage, un cannibale, quand bien même il apprenait le monde. Quand bien même il apprenait vite, Joge-O. Quand bien même il lui permettrait d’entrer dans Lanvil, lui, le fils neuf, l’enfant créé de toutes pièces à l’image du nouveau monde. Son fils était un traitre, un Judas, un Brutus qui le dévorait sans honte, qui lui pompait son humanité pour s’en servir contre lui.

Joge-O recracha un métacarpe avec mépris. L’os tinta contre le verre de la cuve.

— Tu m’as forcé. Tu m’as forcé à manger Joge-I et Joge-β. Puis Joge-Δ, et Joge-θ.

— C’était pour que nous puissions passer les portes, tous les deux. Tu es un cadeau, Joge-O. Un cadeau que je fais au monde pour qu’il puisse enfin se réconcilier. Tu es l’unique sésame du futur d’une Humanité apaisée.

— Je ne suis pas unique. Regarde celui-là, qui flotte entre deux eaux, les dents rongées et le nez vide. Il a le même visage que moi. Tu sais que ce qu’il me dit ? Tu sais ce qu’ils hurlent, tous ?

De colère, Joge-O lui écharpa la joue. Il en arracha la chair et la becta avec, pour tout verdict, de lentes et insensibles déglutitions.

L’Océan se gonfla et s’ouvrit en deux, aussi large que la gueule d’un monstre marin aux couronnes de dents avariées. Les morts s’envolèrent, portés par la gronde des flots, et retombèrent aux alentours dans des gerbes de mousse. Des dizaines de mains émaciées agrippèrent la cuve de clonage. Plusieurs cadavres en gravirent les parois, s’affalèrent entre Joge-O et le docteur et les haranguèrent avec hargne, les langues pendantes à travers les joues creuses, les bras balancés à tout va dans un cahot de muscles rincés et blanchis.

Pourtant, ils ne parlaient qu’à Joge-O, qui se jeta à fond de cale. Ils ne hurlaient que pour lui, pendant que le docteur crevait, tétanisé de douleur dans les soubresauts du caisson, étranger à l’illusion qui berçait Joge-O. Ils étaient pourtant penchés sur lui, comme les mille visages de la mort, les doigts décharnés recourbés comme des faux, les mâchoires béantes et baveuses, les orbites vides et accusatrices. Le docteur ne les voyait pas, Joge-O perdait la tête.

Les cadavres mugissaient, invectivaient, gloussaient et se fendaient de questions. « Es-tu pur, Joge-O, es-tu humble ? Es-tu des nôtres, d’où viens-tu ? D’où viens-tu, comme ça, Joge-O ? Quelle famille, quel côté ? Quel sang inonde tes veines ? »

Ils croulèrent sur eux-mêmes, se brisèrent comme des vagues, rampèrent contre le corps de Joge-O qui fuyait comme une bête coincée dans sa tanière. « Ton nez n’est pas droit, ni plat. Ta peau n’est pas ferme, ni calleuse. Tes cheveux sont un chaos, un volcan. Il y a de la colère en toi, comprimée dans un trou béant d’ignorance. » Leurs voix redoublèrent d’animosité. Ils meuglèrent de jugement et d’âpreté, de mauvaise langue et de vomissures, rancuniers et défaits. Joge-O fondit en larmes illuminées de terreur.

L’un d’entre eux, plus froid que les autres, se colla dans son cou, embrassant son oreille, inondant ses maigres vêtements. C’était une femme, mais son visage était identique à celui de Joge-O. Cette vision le glaça. Un instant, dans leurs yeux vitrifiés par le soleil, entre leurs lèvres asséchées par le sel, entre leurs doigts étirés par l’émotion, dansèrent le même espoir, la même passion, la même envie : se reconnaître enfin et s’aimer encore, pour leurs traits, leurs couleurs et leurs gestes que l’océan dissimulait au reste du monde.

« Ton sang est humble, susurra-t-elle. Je vois sa nuance, celle que tu caches au fond de toi. Tout ce que tu émanes est bien plus douloureux que ce que nous transportons. Toi, le vivant, tu es sans terre, sans ancre, sans entraves. Tu es digne de toi-même, tu n’es pas comme nous. À l’arrivée, tu choisiras… »

Elle eut l’air triste – sans doute elle l’était vraiment – surtout au creux de ses joues, sous les paupières, derrière la mâchoire, là où la mélancolie affaisse les rides et les idéaux. Cela le glaça d’effroi. Joge-O la repoussa vivement. Elle retomba à l’eau comme une sirène de bois d’ébène ou de bois flotté, une oubliée des plages et des mangroves que Joge-O ne connaissait pas encore. Avec elle, glissa le reste des corps. Ils basculèrent en fleurs dans les remous, calmant les vagues et les passions, reprenant leur lente danse sous-marine.

Des heures durant, les morts chantèrent encore. Joge-O écouta leur litanie, ingéra leur fièvre, puis les ignora. Il retourna au Docteur Ignace. Il s’acharna à coups de dents sur son corps, à grands coups de lame entre ses membres, à contrecoups de salves d’informations, de tutoriels arythmiques, de percées névralgiques qui le pétrifiaient chaque fois que ses synapses arrivaient à saturation.

Il persistait pourtant et se remémorait la morte qui avait manqué de l’emporter par-dessus bord. Il se souvenait de l’angoisse qui s’était emparée de lui lorsqu’il avait plongé les yeux dans son regard vide de larmes, l’angoisse d’être rejeté à tout jamais. Il ne voulait pas de ça.

Il lui fallait remplir ses neurones vierges d’émotions, connecter ses axones aveugles de sensations, ravaler le monde ancien, tuer le père et se forger lui-même. Il lui fallait, à Joge-O, toute la ténacité de son esprit, l’endurance et l’obstination, pour croquer dans les interdits de son créateur, les ôter un à un et les reconstruire, alors que le docteur n’en finissait pas de mourir. Il lui fallut vaincre, et dépasser les sécurités de sa propre constitution pour voir, au final, sur le visage du Docteur Ignace, l’once d’une reconnaissance qu’il n’estimait plus. Joge-O se pencha sur lui. Le soleil était bas. Le ciel rougissait d’apaisement.

— Je sais les couleurs nauséeuses des nuages de poussière que tu draines derrière toi. Il n’y a rien dans ton cœur. Il n’y a rien d’autre qu’une peine immense, celle de ne pas te suffire, et l’immonde ignorance de la valeur de l’autre. Je ne suis pas là pour toi. Je ne suis pas ton sésame. J’existe pour moi-même, j’existe seulement pour moi.

La lèvre du docteur tremblait, blanche d’épuisement. Il luttait pour vivre encore, une journée de plus. Il crut voir un oiseau voler loin au-dessus des eaux, mais l’image se déroba dans le coin de sa vision.

— Est-ce lui ? demanda-t-il. Est-ce le gardien ?

Le clone ne répondit pas. Il lava son visage dans le sang qui roulait en vaguelettes au fond de la cuve. Il regarda les nuages qui approchaient dans le lointain et pensa à ses frères. Le regret de s’en être nourri s’était estompé. Le Docteur Ignace le trouva soudainement beau, droit et fier – entier. Il sourit.

— Tu existes, Joge-O…

— Je veux être plus que ça. Quand je te regarde, je m’aperçois que nous ne pouvons nous compléter l’un l’autre. Je veux rêver mes propres idéaux et bâtir ma réalité. J’ai déjà vu mille étoiles, depuis mon premier jour. Et je verrai sûrement mille autres merveilles. Mais tu ne m’apprendras rien de plus, car je vivrai à ta place.

Yé krik. Le Docteur Ignace mourut dans les vagues froides de l’océan, sans voir Lanvil ni son gardien, vidé de son cyborganisme, répudié par la vie.

Yé krak !

On dit que les portes de Lanvil sont des crocs dressés contre le reste du monde, quatre tours recrachées des fonds marins. On dit qu’elles sont frappées par le soleil levant, creusées par les assauts de l’écume acide, émaillées par la brume du désert que l’on sait au-delà des flots. On dit que tous les éléments pourraient se briser contre elles dans l’espoir de les réduire en poussière, ils n’y parviendraient pas. Est-ce que la cour dort ?

Non, la cour ne dort pas !

On dit qu’au-delà des portes de Lanvil s’étend le pays de nos désirs, aux couleurs de ce que l’on tient secret, au fond de nous. On dit que celui qui passe les portes atteint la félicité, la liberté, le bonheur éternel. Ce qu’on ne dit jamais, et Joge-O le sut dès lors qu’il les vît, les portes, c’est que leur territoire n’a pas de gardien, car nous sommes nos propres gardiens. Les morts le lui avaient dit. On dit que Joge-O arriva par une nuit comme celle-ci, dans une coquille de verre portée par quatre trépassés, quatre frères, qui flottaient sur les lames de l’Atlantique. On dit qu’il entra dans Lanvil. Yé mistikrik !

Yé mistikrak !

Michael Roch is a science fiction writer and scriptwriter born in 1987 in France. He is also the creator and director of the literature channel, La Brigade du Livre, on Youtube. He is part of the video creation label Pandora. Since 2015, he has conducted several creative writing workshops on the theme of Afrofuturism – a literary movement developing afrocentred counter-dystopias – in prison and university environment. His latest novel, The Yellow Book, at the crossroads of Lovecraftian influences and the Astroblackness movement, is published by MU Editions (2019). He now lives in Martinique (East Caribbean).

NOIRE MATIÈRE -Rachid Ouadah

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Le professeur Nairb Neerg prit une grande expiration puis contempla le parterre d’invités devant lui. Iels étaient venus de toute la galaxie. Certains avaient déplié l’espace, d’autres, notamment ceux qui ne pouvaient supporter les conditions atmosphériques d’Erret, étaient représentés par de simples hologrammes. Il pouvait percevoir les oscillations de tous. Il se surprit à penser qu’il aurait voulu être vieux à nouveau. Car les grandes découvertes se faisaient à un âge précoce. Alors que la jeunesse, après une cohorte de souffrances débilitantes, conduisait inévitablement à la mort. Combien de temps lui restait-il à vivre ? Encore un peu, peut-être pas assez pour résoudre l’énigme, mais juste ce qu’il fallait pour poser un jalon. Qu’importe son égo puisqu’il n’était lui-même qu’un maillon dans une chaîne qu’il espérait infinie. Il avait construit sur le travail de ses prédécesseurs. Et les suivants iront plus loin encore dans la quête de la vérité scientifique, se disait-il.

Il recracha son surplus de liquide cérébrospinal dans un verre qu’il déposa au plafond. Son amertume lui fit le plus grand bien.

« Et maintenant, je vais répondre à vos questions » lança-t-il à l’assemblée.

Nombreux furent les appendices — de toutes formes — à se lever. Cela lui sembla merveilleux.

Il désigna du doigt un Tacloc, la progéniture au stade larvaire encore collée à son cou translucide.

« Merci pour cette conférence professeur, c’était vraiment très intéressant. Cette “noire matière” comme vous l’appelez, se trouve-t-elle dans un endroit précis de l’univers ou bien est-elle répartie aléatoirement ? »

« Elle est partout dans l’univers observable. Sa répartition répond à une logique que nous ne comprenons pas encore. Pendant que nous parlons, il y a des particules de cette matière qui nous traversent. Ou bien c’est nous qui la traversons, c’est une question de point de vue. Et on ne peut pas interagir avec elles. Heureusement d’ailleurs, sinon elles ne feraient qu’un sarlach de votre busik. »

Des rires tous plus différents les uns des autres composèrent une joyeuse cacophonie. Il aimait injecter de l’humour dans ces rencontres parfois trop sérieuses. Cela facilitait la transmission des connaissances, que l’auditoire fût amateur comme aujourd’hui, ou chevronné.

Une autre créature signala sa volonté de prendre la parole en émettant une lumière bleutée.

« Professeur Neerg, puisqu’on ne peut pas interagir avec cette matière, comment savez-vous qu’elle existe ? »

« Par les effets qu’elle produit. Avec mes collègues de la communauté scientifique, nous avons découvert que cinq pour cent de l’univers observable est fait de cette matière inconnue. Comment ? Très simplement, si j’ose dire. Par le calcul. Les galaxies devraient s’éloigner plus vite les unes des autres, et pourtant il y a quelque chose qui lutte en sens inverse, qui les retient. Cette force qui nous était inconnue, nous lui avons donné un nom : gravité. Et elle est produite par la noire matière. »

            Cette rumeur qui parcourut la salle, c’était la soif d’apprendre. Comme lui, ils voulaient savoir. Il désigna un autre invité.

« Si on ne connaît pas la composition de cette matière, et si elle n’interagit pas avec nous, comment pouvez-vous dire qu’elle est noire ? »

« C’est une très bonne question. Nous aurions pu l’appeler Anael ou Aihpos, n’importe quel nom ferait l’affaire puisque nous ne savons encore rien de sa nature. Par consensus, nous avons choisi “noire”. Mais dans le réel, elle n’émet pas de rayonnement visible. Ni nos yeux, ni nos instruments ne peuvent la voir. Dans plusieurs cultures de la galaxie, le noir symbolise l’espoir. Et de l’espoir, on en a toujours besoin. »

            « Comment être sûr que vos “recherches” ne dérangent pas le Seigneur des Mondes en sa demeure ? »

            Beaucoup furent stupéfaits d’entendre cette combinaison de mots dans une même phrase, aujourd’hui, et en ce lieu. Nairb Neerg sentit des hésitations dans les cliquetis du questionnant, un jeune Ténébrion qui, de par le rythme de la phrase et sa mélopée, indiquait qu’il était originaire de l’hémisphère sud de sa planète. Soit l’un des derniers endroits de la galaxie où l’on entretenait encore la croyance en une entité créatrice. L’ouverture de Tenebrae au reste de la galaxie n’avait pas éteint ces superstitions, elle les avait même renforcées. Comme si les ténébrions avaient peur de la cognition, et de tout ce qui se trouvait au-delà de leur dogme. L’immensité du plein intersidéral devait les terrifier. Le professeur prit tout cela en compte avant de formuler une réponse.

            « J’aimerais croire en cette idée, le Seigneur des Mondes, je vous l’assure. Mais je suis un scientifique. Je nourris ma réflexion avec des faits observables et mesurables, avec des expériences reproductibles. Si le Seigneur des Mondes existait, je serais le premier à aller vers lui. Apportez-moi une preuve concrète et je vous suivrai dans votre raisonnement. Je veux croire qu’il y a quelque chose après la mort, et peut-être même quelque chose avant la vie. Mais regardez la réalité. Malgré notre science qui s’est enrichie comme jamais depuis l’ère galactique, il subsiste des maladies que nous ne savons pas guérir, des catastrophes que nous n’avons pas su éviter, comme la destruction de Relpek et ses trois milliards d’habitants, il y a mille cycles de cela. Si le Seigneur des Mondes existait, il serait tout-puissant et bon. Mais alors pourquoi n’intervient-il pas ? Pourquoi est-ce qu’il ne descend pas nous sauver ? Est-ce que cela veut dire qu’il n’est pas tout puissant ? Ou qu’il n’est pas bon ? »

L’assistance se mit à applaudir et à s’agiter. D’un geste il demanda le calme. Il n’aimait pas être applaudi, par pudeur. Et surtout, cela pouvait offenser le Ténébrion.

« Nous approchons de la fin de notre entrevue. Aussi frustrant que cela puisse paraître, je vais prendre les trois dernières questions. A vous… »

« Professeur Neerg » demanda un Grouli, « est-ce que ces cinq pour cent ne seraient pas la matière d’un monde-miroir, un anti-monde si vous préférez. Par exemple, vous avez parlé de cette force que vous appelez “gravité”. Ça veut dire que les objets s’attirent mutuellement, n’est-ce pas, au lieu de se repousser comme dans notre univers. Peut-être que le temps aussi s’y écoule à l’envers. Ce serait un monde où les lois de la physique seraient différentes, non ? »

« L’hypothèse est séduisante mais à l’heure actuelle, nous n’avons aucune donnée qui va dans ce sens. De plus, si la noire matière était un “monde-miroir” ou un univers-miroir comme vous dites, elle existerait en quantité au moins équivalente au reste de la matière normale. Et ce n’est pas le cas. Je tiens à le préciser : la noire matière n’est pas un autre univers, elle fait partie de l’univers. De plus, la force de gravité qui attire les particules de noire matière les unes vers les autres ne peut mener que vers un effondrement. Donc elles ne peuvent pas former des structures stables pouvant abriter la vie telle que nous la connaissons. Mais si l’on compare la somme d’informations accumulées, nous ne savons rien de… »

« Alors vous voulez remplacer le Seigneur des Mondes par votre ignorance ?! »

accusa le Ténébrion. 

Art by Sunny Efemena

Aussi brusquement qu’il avait pris la parole, il s’éleva au-dessus de l’assemblée en désignant Nairb Neerg de sa troisième mandibule, et il hurla : « Blasphémateur ! ».

            Comme s’il était préparé à ce qui allait se passer, l’esprit du professeur produisit une analyse froide de la situation à la vitesse la plus rapide que lui permettait sa biologie. Il perçut toute une gamme d’émotions dans les paroles du Ténébrion. De la colère, de la frustration, de la peur, et de la haine, beaucoup de haine.

Mais il ne savait pas qu’il allait mourir. 

            Le projectile, une corne de kératine pure expulsée de l’exosquelette du Ténébrion, le frappa en plein cœur, à gauche. Le choc le projeta en avant. Sous le coup de la panique, le public devint foule, et la foule devint désordre. Ceux qui pouvaient courir s’enfuirent vers l’unique sortie, ceux qui pouvaient voler se dispersèrent dans les airs. Il ne restait plus que les hologrammes comme témoins, trop fascinés pour disparaître comme les autres. Car personne n’avait assisté à un acte d’une telle violence depuis des cycles et des cycles.

Et par conséquent, personne ne savait comment réagir.

Enfin, l’assistant du professeur accourut. Mais il était trop tard. Le corps de Nairb Neerg commençait à flotter, et du liquide vital pénétrait dans sa blessure. La douleur était atroce. Une peur existentielle s’empara de lui, la peur de la mort. Et puis soudain, il n’eut plus mal. Le regret de ne pas avoir pu percer le secret de la noire matière de son vivant se fit moindre, puis disparut à son tour. Il ne restait plus qu’un sentiment étrange de plénitude. Le temps semblait s’être dilaté, comme s’il approchait de la vitesse des ténèbres. Il vit le monde autour de lui trembler, devenir flou et enfin disparaître vers une couleur qui n’avait rien à voir avec l’espoir. Il s’entendit formuler une dernière pensée :

« Ce n’est donc que cela… ».

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« C’est ça madame Feynman, vous êtes très courageuse. Poussez encore, respirez,

poussez, respirez… »

La Docteure Al Kubaysi avait elle aussi besoin de respirer dans cette chaleur étouffante. Elle n’était pas vraiment à sa place. La sage-femme dont elle avait pris la relève était retenue à un poste-frontière. En plus, la maternité fonctionnait en sous-effectif. « Ils préfèrent mettre de l’argent dans la guerre » se dit-elle. Ce matin, elle était à la fois gynécologue, obstétricienne, et pédiatre pour l’occasion.

Un bout de son hidjab commençait à tomber et n’allait pas tarder à gêner ses mouvements. Elle fit un signe de la tête à son assistante : « Mademoiselle Rubin, s’il vous plaît… ». La jeune interne essuya la sueur du front de la docteure et lui remit son voile en place.

L’enfant montrait enfin sa tête, et ça n’avait pris que trois heures de travail. Au même moment, une explosion retentit. Une roquette venait de tomber à proximité. Presque immédiatement après, le vrombissement d’un missile se fit entendre. Peut-être que la roquette avait tué des innocents. Peut-être que le missile allait frapper une école. Mais la docteure ne voulait pas penser à la mort pendant qu’elle aidait à donner la vie. La future mère s’était montrée d’un calme peu commun. Alors que le futur père s’était liquéfié à l’idée d’assister à la naissance de son premier enfant. Elle ne criait pas, elle respirait et poussait au rythme que lui dictaient la docteure et la nature.

C’est alors que le reste du corps du bébé glissa hors d’elle presque sans effort. Elle prononça une prière en hébreu. La docteure put se saisir du petit humain gluant de vernix. La mère avait spécifié ne pas vouloir connaître le sexe de l’enfant avant la naissance, il était temps de le lui dévoiler.

« Félicitations madame, c’est un beau garçon ! » fit la Docteure Al Kubaysi. Elle coupa le cordon ombilical et posa le clamp. Et avant que son cri primal ne fasse trembler les instruments et les murs de la salle imperceptiblement, avant de s’annoncer à ce monde, le nouveau-né prit une grande inspiration.

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Rachid Ouadah:
Né en 1974 à Alger, j’ai vécu les premières années de ma vie en Algérie. Ni francophone ni arabophone, je suis venu en France à l’âge de 6 ans. J’ai dû m’adapter rapidement pour m’insérer dans le système éducatif français. Les lectures de l’imaginaire ont été une bouée de sauvetage, notamment La Grande Anthologie de La Science Fiction de Jacques Goimard et Demètre Ioakimidis. Le cinéma de genre a achevé ensuite de faire de moi un inconditionnel de la science-fiction et du fantastique. Aujourd’hui je travaille comme journaliste indépendant. J’anime notamment le site motionXmedia.

Issue 19 editorial

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Mazi Nwonwu
Mazi Nwonwu is the pen name of Chiagozie Fred Nwonwu, a Lagos-based journalist and writer. While journalism and its demands take up much of his time, when he can, Mazi Nwonwu writes speculative fiction, which he believes is a vehicle through which he can transport Africa’s diverse culture to the future. He is the co-founder of Omenana, an African-centrist speculative fiction magazine is a Senior Broadcast Journalist with BBC Igbo service. His work has appeared in Lagos 2060 (Nigeria’s first science fiction anthology), AfroSF (first PAN-African Science Fiction Anthology), Sentinel Nigeria, Saraba Magazine, ‘It Wasn’t Exactly Love’, an anthology on sex and sexuality publish by Farafina in 2015.

Omenana speculative fiction magazine issue 19 is live!

The words above may seem common enough for anyone who has not followed Omenana magazine’s journey since we launched in 2014.

It was a dream that became a reality and we are very happy to still be able to announce another edition of what has become a staple in Africa’s speculative fiction landscape.

We are also happy because publishing our third edition for 2021 in October means we can still publish a fourth for the year. Doing so allows us to reach an all-time high of four editions a year.

We are indeed clapping for ourselves and taking bows in recognition of this self-praise.

Don’t blame us, we are only reacting like the lizard in Igbo mythology that affirms the wondrous achievement of landing on all fours after jumping down from a great height.

Believe us, we have a lot to be proud about, chief of which is the fact that we are still here, offering opportunities to African writers of the speculative to showcase their work to a hopefully eager world.

This edition, like all the others before it, features great writing from writers from across the African continent and beyond. We have a handful of established names and several new names that we want you to pay close attention to because, like many of the new voices Omenana has introduced in the past, you will be seeing more of them.

We had planned for the 18th edition of Omenana magazine to be the last that will be offered free, but after much consideration, we have decided that reaching the African lover of speculative without any restriction is more important than monetary considerations. As such, this edition remains free to access, enjoy and share.

However, since we dearly want to continue renumerating our incredibly committed team and return to paying writers, you can support us via our Patreon page and allow us to do bigger things in 2021.

Also, this is the second edition in which we are offering French-language stories as part of our partnership with Omenana author Mame Diene. We had published French-language stories in the past, but this partnership has Mame sourcing for and editing these stories so that French-speaking speculative fiction writers can become a part of the Omenana conversation. We are hoping that this grows into a separate French-language magazine in the near future.

The stories in this edition are diverse, as is to be expected from a continent as diverse as Africa, and we do hope you enjoy them as much as we did selecting and editing them.

See you in December.

Mazi Nwonwu

Mazi Nwonwu
Mazi Nwonwu is the pen name of Chiagozie Fred Nwonwu, a Lagos-based journalist and writer. While journalism and its demands take up much of his time, when he can, Mazi Nwonwu writes speculative fiction, which he believes is a vehicle through which he can transport Africa’s diverse culture to the future. He is the co-founder of Omenana, an African-centrist speculative fiction magazine is a Senior Broadcast Journalist with BBC Igbo service. His work has appeared in Lagos 2060 (Nigeria’s first science fiction anthology), AfroSF (first PAN-African Science Fiction Anthology), Sentinel Nigeria, Saraba Magazine, ‘It Wasn’t Exactly Love’, an anthology on sex and sexuality publish by Farafina in 2015.

Omenana Speculative Fiction Magazine: Issue 18

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Omenana issue 18
Omenana issue 18 Cover art by Sunny Efemena. Cover Design by Godson ChukwuEmeka Okeiyi
Omenana issue 18
Omenana issue 18 Cover art by Sunny Efemena. Cover Design by Godson ChukwuEmeka Okeiyi
Editorial: It’s only just the beginning

Le pacte du fleuve – Moustapha Mbacké Diop

The Diviner – VH Ncube

Eating Kaolin – Dare Segun Falowo

Upgraded Versions of a Masquerade – Solomon Uhiara

Arriving from Always – Nerine Dorman

THE JINI – Wangari Wamae

Shandy – Gabrielle Emem Harry

SELF-DESTRUCT – Stephen Embleton

Germination – Tiah Beautement

The Third Option – Jen Thorpe

Machine Learning – Ayodele Arigbabu

Omenana is a tri-monthly magazine that is open to submission from speculative fiction writers from across Africa and the African Diaspora.

Omenana magazine issue 18 is produced by Mazi Nwonwu, Edited by Iquo DianaAbasi and Mame Diene (who sourced and produced the French Story in this edition).

You can support us by downloading our anthology here.

Editorial for Omenana 18

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Mame Diene

It’s only just the beginning…

A few years ago Alain Ducharme, Editing Director of La République du Centaure (a speculative fiction review based in Quebec) reached out to me by way of the African Speculative Fiction Society. He was interested in publishing francophone African speculative fiction authors and pay them up to 100 CAN$ per story.

We were both excited at the opportunity; I drafted a quick submissions call and circulated it on various African literary pages and Twitter.

The return was disappointing. Very few submissions and very few of them on a level with international standards in speculative writing.

I had high hopes for the call, as I was actively looking to identify francophone authors of the speculative, bring them into the ASFS fold and try to boost the signal, draw publishers’ interest etc.

It was wrongfully assumed, until recently, that Africans neither read nor write speculative fiction, until anthologies like AfroSF and magazines such as Omenana proved otherwise. It is much the same with Francophone authors, they exist but lack a scene to develop their skills and get their stories out in the world.

I flirted with the idea of launching a francophone magazine, and picked up a conversation with French-Caribbean author Ketty Steward and started kicking ideas around. Ketty had just edited issue 46 of Galaxies Magazine, a French speculative fiction magazine that was releasing an Africa special.

Why did we find so few francophone speculative fiction authors? Was it a matter of format? Were francophone African authors more novel than short story-oriented? Is it simply because there are so few platforms in the francophone space where the few paying reviews are in Canada?

I walked into a supermarket in Dakar one afternoon, looking for my daily fix of saucisson (easily available anywhere in Dakar), and saw a book called La Mystérieuse Disparition du Talibé by an author called Hamidou Bah, sitting on a shelf by the cash register.

Turns out Hamidou managed the store, wrote speculative novels published by Harmattan and while marketing his books online also used the supermarket to reach readers. By way of pork, I had finally uncovered an author, and a good one at that.

The African francophone scene lacked a platform the likes of Omenana. As such most authors turn towards more traditional, long form publishing, but there too it is limited as a couple of publishing houses appear to monopolize the African market. Authors carry the huge lift of self-promotion, touring a restricted literary scene with very few cons, and relying mostly on word of mouth for their art to reach readers.

Along with my wife, Woppa, we resuscitated the idea of launching a magazine, reached out to Mazi to understand how Omenana worked and got busy pulling things together. Meanwhile, we got pregnant and had to postpone grandiose plans of literary revolution, and thus suggested Mazi that we start by publishing francophone authors through Omenana, and draw talent in, starting with three stories.

I reached out to Alain and Ketty, and to my friends Youssef and Anne Rachedi who work in film in Algeria, put a team together to review the slush and select stories.

Instead of a slush, we got barely a trickle. The issues that Alain ran in two years ago resurfaced at the call. We received very few submissions. While many were very well written, and offered very interesting and culturally unique ideas, they were not ready for publication yet.

We were also pressed for time, with only a couple of weeks for substantive edits, otherwise a couple of more authors may have made the cut. Nevertheless, we surfaced three stories, by a sub-Saharan author, a North African author and a third from the Caribbean. All men. We received depressingly few submissions from women, despite Ketty’s early efforts to reach out to as many women as possible when the call broke.

Of the three we decided to hold one for a later edition. It is nuts, if I may so myself. So crazy in fact that we want to see more than the taste the story offers. We lost the second to simultaneous submissions, and will publish only one of the three tales: Le Pacte du Fleuve in this issue of Omenana.

The road is still long in other words but full of talent just waiting to be read. The writers are out there, and we will double our efforts to get at you if you don’t get at us first.

Meanwhile, enjoy the issue…

Mame Bougouma Diene


Ce n’est encore que le début…

Il y a quelques années, Alain Ducharme, Directeur Littéraire de La République du Centaure (une revue de fiction spéculative Québécoise) m’a contacté par voie de l’African Speculative Fiction Society. Il souhaitait publier des auteurs de fiction spéculative Africains francophones.

Nous étions enthousiastes en vue des possibilités; j’ai rédigé un appel à soumissions rapidement, et l’ai fait circuler sur diverses pages littéraires africaines et Twitter.

Le retour était décevant. Très peu de soumissions et très peu à un niveau comparable aux standards internationaux de l’écriture spéculative.

J’avais beaucoup d’espoir pour l’appel. Je cherchais activement à identifier des auteurs francophones du spéculatif, les rattacher à l’ASFS, faire leur promotion, attirer les éditeurs etc.

Il est imaginé à tort, que les Africains ne lisent ni n’écrivent de fiction spéculative, jusqu’à ce que des anthologies telles que AfroSF et des magazines tels que Omenana prouvent le contraire. Il en est de même pour les auteurs francophones, ils existent mais manquent d’une scène pour développer leur talent et faire circuler leurs histoires.

J’ai flirté avec l’idée de lancer un magazine francophone, et lancé la discussion avec l’auteure franco-caribéenne Ketty Steward. Ketty venait d’éditer le numéro 46 de Galaxies Magazine, un magazine de fiction spéculative français qui publiait un numéro spécial Afrique.

Pourquoi trouvions-nous si peu d’auteurs spéculatifs francophone? Etait-ce une question de format ? Les auteurs francophones étaient-ils plus attirés par le roman que la nouvelle ? Etait-ce tout simplement dû au nombre limitée de plateformes dans l’espace francophone où les quelques revues rémunérant les auteurs se trouvent au Canada ?

Je suis rentré dans un supermarché à Dakar un après midi, en quête de ma dose quotidienne de saucisson (que l’on trouve partout à Dakar), quand j’ai vu un livre appelé La Mystérieuse Disparition du Talibé par un auteur nommé Hamidou Bah sur une étagère derrière la caisse.

Il s’avère qu’Hamidou était le gérant du supermarché, écrivait des romans spéculatifs publiés par Harmattan et tandis qu’il marquetait ses livres en ligne, utilisait aussi sa boutique pour atteindre les lecteurs. En quête de porc j’avais enfin trouvé un auteur, et un de qualité en plus.

La scène spéculative francophone africaine manque de plateformes telles que Omenana. De fait la plupart des auteurs se tourneraient vers la forme longue plus traditionnelle, mais là également, de manière limitée, le marché africain semble être monopolisé par une poignée de maisons d’éditions. La lourde tâche revient aux auteurs de s’auto-promouvoir, sur une scène littéraire restreinte avec peu de salons, et dépendant surtout du bouche à oreille pour faire vivre leur art.

Avec ma femme, Woppa, nous avons ressuscité l’idée de lancer un magazine, avons approché Mazi afin de comprendre comment Omenana fonctionnait et commencer à joindre les deux bouts. Entre temps nous sommes tombés enceinte, avons dû mettre de côté nos plans grandiloquents de révolution littéraire, et donc suggérer à Mazi de commencer à publier des auteurs francophones dans Omenana, attirer du talent, commençant avec trois histoires.

J’ai approché Alain et Ketty ainsi que mes amis Youssef et Anne Rachedi qui travaillent dans le cinéma en Algérie, et mis en place une équipe pour revoir le flux de soumissions et choisir les histoires.

En lieu d’un flux, les histoires ont ruisselé. Les problèmes qu’Alain avait rencontré deux ans auparavant ont refait surface. Nous n’avons reçu que très peu de soumissions. Tandis que plusieurs étaient très bien écrites et présentaient des idées intéressantes et uniques culturellement, elles n’étaient toutefois pas prêtes à être publiées.

Nous n’avions aussi que peu de temps, avec seulement deux semaines pour faire des révisions substantives, sinon plus d’auteurs auraient certainement été retenus. Nous avons, cependant, retenu trois histoires, d’un auteur d’Afrique subsaharienne, un auteur nord-africain, et un troisième des caraïbes. Tous des hommes. Nous avons reçu atrocement peu de soumissions féminines, ce malgré les efforts de Ketty pour atteindre autant de femmes que possible au moment de l’appel.

Nous avons décidé de garder une des trois histoires pour un prochain numéro. C’est une histoire absolument dingue. Tellement dingue en fait que nous voulons voir un peu plus que l’avant-gout que la nouvelle nous offre. Nous avons perdu la deuxième histoire dû à une soumission simultanée, et ne publierons qu’une des trois histoires : Le Pacte du Fleuve, dans ce numéro d’Omenana.

La route est encore longue mais il y’a du talent qui n’attend que d’être lut. Les auteurs sont là, et nous allons redoubler d’effort pour vous trouver si vous ne nous trouvez pas d’abord.

En attendant, on espère que le numéro vous plaira…

Mame Bougouma Diene

The Third Option – Jen Thorpe

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Jen Thorpe
Jen Thorpe is a writer from South Africa. She has published two novels, most recently The Fall (2020), a speculative fiction take on the South African #FeesMustFall protests. It was longlisted for the Sunday Times CNA Fiction Prize in 2021. She also edits feminist essay collections, most recently Living While Feminist: Our Bodies, Our Truths (2020). Jen's writing has been published in Brittle Paper, Saraba Magazine, Itch, Poetry Potion, Jalada, Litro and is forthcoming in Fresh.Ink. Find out more via https://jen-thorpe.com

I met myself in the Mega City a week ago. It had never happened to me before, though I’d heard whispers of rumours that it had happened to friends of friends, people I hardly knew. I thought I had been more careful.

I was about to eat noodles and soup in a Chinese restaurant on Z street. My waitress – the one who’d taken the order from me – had changed shifts and I was looking at my phone, scrolling through the surgeries I’d need to do that afternoon, when the new one arrived with my food. I looked up as the bowl was put down, and my words left me.

Though it was inappropriate, she sat down opposite me. She must have been twenty or so years my junior, but the anti-ageing pills and technologies we have access to in the city made it hard to tell. It was like a mirror had just slid into the seat. For a moment we just looked at each other, examining our faces with the intensity and disinterest that you apply when you brush your teeth at night. I could see that the birthmark on my neck was there, but the scratch above my eyebrow from the bottle that fell off the fire escape and clipped me on the head last year was not. Of course, it couldn’t have been there, but it was impossible not to check. Were my ears that large? We both reached up to touch our left lobe at the same time. So, they were.

Her hands were like mine too. Long fingers. So strange to look at them out on the table like that, un-gloved, touching everything. Nail polish cerulean, a tattoo on the wrist. Louche and reckless.

‘Who are you?’ her voice sounded like mine, but the accent and rhythm was different. That’s how they spoke in the village. Slower. No rush. A lack of elocution.

I could have asked her the same question, but I didn’t, because, of course, I had some inkling of what had happened, an understanding of how this was happening, and it was one that I had no interest in sharing with her.

The woman claimed her name was Kethiwe. She’d run away from her family in the village and had come here to the Mega City to seek a new life. It was a story I’d heard hundreds of times before in the hospital from crack addicts, single moms, and injured workers. All of them gloveless. All of them so unaware of the full extent of what had been done to them. All of them thinking that by changing something, doing something different, working harder, they could alter their outcomes.

They didn’t understand that the urge to come here was pre-programmed, just like we needed it to be. How could they? Poor things.

I watched her mouth move, wondering if I too slanted my lips to the left. She had a chipped tooth, stains on some from smoking. She hadn’t been taking care of herself. Soon, she’d look older than me, with that type of behaviour. Words and complaints were gushing out of her like a torrent. She was drawing attention.

I held up a gloved hand in a stop sign.

‘Please. We can’t talk here. Finish your shift and I’ll wait for you outside. Get up now and carry on as if this never happened.’

I ate my noodle bowl, left my money on the table, and walked across the street to sit in the park where I could see the entrance to the restaurant. I called the hospital, cancelling the surgeries I’d scheduled. They would be fine without me for one afternoon.

As I sat, legs stretched out on the wooden bench, half an eye on the exit of the restaurant and half on the park, I thought about her story.

They all believed they came to find a better life. This was partly reinforced by the fact that none of them ever went home again. Evidence of success, some might say. Success of the system rather than any one of them.

The reality was that this meant one of two things. Either they found themselves and confronting this was too much for them, so they kept it a secret. Or they lived the life we’d designed for them and were too ashamed to admit that they were struggling, so said nothing, not wanting those they’d left behind to smirk and snigger at their failed dreams. A system designed for their servitude surely couldn’t breed enthusiasm or joy in the other village people if they knew the truth.

Or, I suppose, there was a third option. They didn’t make it.

While thinking, this bench that I’d sat in many times before after similar noodle lunches took on new interest. I imagined what it would be like to take off my gloves and run my fingers along its grainy wood, what a splinter might feel like, how the soil at my feet would crumble and stick to my hands. How wrinkles might feel, what I’d look like if I stopped taking the pills and going for my annual facial rejuvenation. What it might be like to visit the village, to have a chance at a different life. Foolish thoughts. The types that get you into trouble.

Look what happens when you’re curious, I said to myself. This. You’ve made a real mess of things.

There could be hundreds of me all over this city right now and it was my own fault. Or there could just be her. But this was unlikely. I would need to decide what to do, about her and all of them should I ever meet them. I would need to decide quickly. Uncertainty about the lesser versions of yourself never served anyone.

Time passed slowly, day dawdling into evening. Eventually, she exited the restaurant looking up and down the street, her face – my face – stricken with shock. I whistled and waved, and she looked over at me, beginning to cross the road without checking for traffic, jolting at the scooters that hooted and screeched at her. She made it across. I had the grace not to feel disappointed.

‘Sit down.’

‘I don’t want to sit down. I want to know what the hell is going on.’

‘Sit.’

She did. They always do. Bred for obedience, for compliance. I didn’t delay my explanation. It would have been cruel to prolong her suffering. Out with it. That’s the easiest way.

‘I work in a hospital. At this hospital and many others around the world, we don’t only heal people. We make them. When necessary.’

Her eyes searched mine for reason, for sense. I knew this must be a lot to take in and she probably wouldn’t have had the education I’d had, so I tried to keep it simple. I spoke slowly.

‘Sometimes, Kethiwe, the world just needs replaceable people. People who are like the connective tissue of a city – just beneath the surface. People to clean and tend children and sweep streets and pick up garbage … you understand?

‘Of course, nobody wants to be these people by choice. So, we solved that. We replace them by design. It’s easier if we control it.’

Her eyes grew wide. I looked down again at her hands and continued, wishing she’d at least painted over the chips in the polish.

‘We use a machine called 5f – five fingers. We use the pieces of you that you all, carelessly I must say, leave behind all over the place.’

I picked up her palm and held it close to her own face.

‘These fingerprints of yours – oily marks with traces of cells. That’s all we need now to make someone. It’s really quite advanced the way we designed the system. No excess, no waste.’

She pulled her hand away, and curled it into a fist like a fern unfolding in reverse.

‘Now, don’t feel angry. It isn’t as bad as it seems. Everyone here is happy, thriving even. They don’t have to do the things they don’t want to do, and we can all live peacefully. You get to perform a task that you are ideal for performing. We identify future gaps … I mean, when we need more of a certain kind of person in society – waitresses say – we make more. Nobody has to do anything they don’t anymore.’

While I gave her a moment for this to all sink in, my mind wandered back to the moment I suspected my mistake had happened. It was so many years ago now. I’d thought I was safe.

A baby was brought into the hospital, still young enough that the umbilical cord had not fallen off. He was alone, gloveless. Abandoned on a street corner. We see it happening all the time. People can’t control their desires but suddenly think they know what they want from their futures. Or they have the mistaken impression that they can redefine the way that life is going for them. All that hassle for a single moment of pleasure. Distasteful. It helps if you stay angry about how they behave. Reduces the urge for sympathy.

I’d seen hundreds like him before, but even I had to admit that he was beautiful. His eyes were still a little glassy, you know … searching for someone who would be there for him, for connection. Arms wriggling out for touch. Making groaning gurgling noises. Long black lashes.

He should have been taken straight to the lab to be put down and macerated for cells. That’s what we are supposed to do. Not sentimentalise. If he wasn’t wanted now, he wouldn’t be wanted in the future. That was the reasoning. No room for unnecessary. No room for extras.

But then he wrapped his little fingers around my gloved ones, and something happened. A moment of weakness. On the way to the lab I pulled over into a storage closet, took off my gloves, and held him. Felt the warmth of his soft skin on mine. Cradled him. I wanted to see what it might be like, you know. Like with the soil beneath the bench. I just wanted to try something different. To feel things.

Then the moment passed, and I took him to the lab and didn’t feel that sad about it, to be honest. He wasn’t really a person, not for long anyway. And he’d be put to good use, for all of us.

I must have left some of myself on him. My prints mixed in with his. Cells I didn’t think would matter. That’s the only way this made any sense. And now, I’d have to explain myself to the higher ups. Come forward and confess, be fired for my incompetence, and likely never be able to work again. My friends, colleagues, would shun me out of protocol though I knew many of them had probably taken the same risks. Or … the third option.

Kethiwe was still silent, mulling it over probably. I looked up at the trees of the park, heard the bird song. An Olive Thrush greeting the evening. She reached over to me and held my hand. I let her, safe beneath the gloves.

‘I met a man once at a bus stop’ she said, measuring her fingers against mine. ‘The bus that I took to come here. He walked up to me while I was waiting. He’d cut off his fingers with a machete. Said he didn’t want any part of this world. Warned me against it.

‘It didn’t make sense to me. He just seemed … mad. I mean, what type of person chops off their own fingers?’

A smart one, I thought. One who wouldn’t find themselves in the situation I was now in. Astute in a macabre sort of way. He’d never meet himself eating his usual lunch of noodles and soup and have to plot his own death.

Kethiwe let go of my fingers as if she could read my mind. ‘So, what now? What does this mean?’

‘Mean?’ It meant nothing, and it was a bit embarrassing that she couldn’t see that. This was a problem to be solved. One of three possible options. But still, she persisted, as though we could solve it together.

‘Don’t you see, you could be me, if the circumstances shifted slightly.’

I resented her tone. Felt something like anger, but suppressed it. ‘I could never be you, Kethiwe. That’s the point – there should never have even been you in the first place. It was a mistake, an accident. That’s all.’

‘But, it’s too late now. We’ll have to work something out.’

There was no we. I had my life in order. No extras. No excess. No waste. There was no room in my schedule for this type of unpredictability. I didn’t like the way she assumed that just because we looked the same there would be some common purpose. That we were alike in some way, and only circumstances made us different.

You could say that she brought it on herself.

‘Take a walk with me. I’ll show you where I live.’

‘Okay.’ She was uncertain. Her curiosity changing to concern.

I sweetened my tone. ‘There is a beautiful view from the bridge on the way. The water below roars and sends mist up into the air, scattering like glitter.’

They always love nature talk, the village people. I’d learnt from my hospital shifts that it made them feel at home. Pastoral pleasantries were part of my daily work. It felt underhanded, but I knew there was little point in letting that worry me. Not where we were heading.

She followed me up the street towards the cliff with the high bridge. It was odd to think of her taking in these surroundings with new eyes. For me this was a walk home I’d done on hundreds of days. So much of it was now unnoticed, taken for granted.

We walked over to the centre where I pointed out the fact that you could almost see the valley from here, and just beyond it the village that she was from. My pointed finger in my glove looked so safe, so perfect.

‘If you look down,’ I said, ‘you’ll see that the river actually flows in that direction. Towards the valley. So, they might connect at some point. Parts of this place feeding parts of that place. Connected.’

‘Like us’ she said, her voice soft, as she stood on tiptoes and looked over the railing. It wasn’t much of a push, just a gentle one.

Later, when I walked over the second half of the bridge alone, I made an effort to take in the view. To imagine what it looked like for that brief moment, through our eyes.

Jen Thorpe
Jen Thorpe is a writer from South Africa. She has published two novels, most recently The Fall (2020), a speculative fiction take on the South African #FeesMustFall protests. It was longlisted for the Sunday Times CNA Fiction Prize in 2021. She also edits feminist essay collections, most recently Living While Feminist: Our Bodies, Our Truths (2020). Jen’s writing has been published in Brittle Paper, Saraba Magazine, Itch, Poetry Potion, Jalada, Litro and is forthcoming in Fresh.Ink. Find out more via https://jen-thorpe.com

Germination – Tiah Beautement

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Tiah Marie Beautement
Tiah Marie Beautement is the award-winning author of two novels, including This Day (2014, Modjaji), and numerous short stories. She also teaches writing and freelances for a variety of publications, including the Sunday Times and FunDza Literacy Trust. She lives on the South African Garden Route with her family, two dogs, a cat, and a small flock of chickens. Diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome and fibromyalgia, she is outspoken about living life with chronic conditions and disability. To stay as mentally and physically healthy as possible, she belly dances, horse rides, and zips along as a pillion on motorcycles.

My womb bled, leaving a weeping trail down my legs. Fatigue clung to my bones, clouding my head. In this numb, fogged brained state, I could not decide how I should feel about the latest expulsion of blood and bone. The years of my life taught me many lessons. But despite all that I had experienced, I’d yet to conclude which pain I preferred: to lose the seed of life before it could breathe, or hearing my offspring call me “mama” before the young soul faded away, never to be held again. Back into the stardust my children went, which we all sprang forth from, once upon a time, thanks to an event now known as The Big Bang.

Because living means dying a little each day. We feed each other with each other. Cells slough off the body during everyday moments: from a kiss to the cheek, along the sweat trickling from armpits, to departing on an exhaled breath. Pieces of every living creature float in the air alongside the remains of the dead. This collection of particles from the present and the past are drawn into our lungs, settling into the dust, clumping together in the soil, as we try to grow anew, all over again, wanting, craving, needing, to survive.

There were days when it felt as if all I did was nourish those that surround me, as other bodies took, took, took with their need, need, need. Somehow, I kept going, giving, giving, giving, feeling selfish each time I took a moment to myself, to reclaim myself.

And now my very self was bleeding once again, an expulsion of the dead.

I should have known this would occur the moment I realized I was late. Yet the years of my existence had caused me to wonder. Perhaps this was it, the change, I’d thought. Instead it was a seed, from a man I had met who claimed to be from Bolivia but was actually born in Belarus.

The story goes that one day, bored of his landlocked life, he followed the roads until he reached the Baltic Sea. There, he stepped into the water, allowing the currents to sweep him away, until he was spat out onto African soil. In his confusion, he claimed to be from a different land, until the sea gradually returned his memories with the rising tides. He’d remained on the southern shores of the mother continent, finding work on fishing vessels, taking from the water that had given him new life. And new life was planted inside me, again, and again, and again.

            Not a single one of these children managed to live long enough to take a single step.

*

My body had borne witness to forty-five summers. Over the years, I had picked myself up and tried to carry on, regardless of whether the seed flourished into a life with ten fingers and toes, or died in its watery home, lower half still curled like the tail of a seahorse. This time, however, I found myself studying the earth beneath my feet, gradually becoming stained by my blood. It was a rich soil, fed routinely daily with the compost from my kitchen, and the excrement of my chickens, in addition to the remains from those I had loved and lost.

In those moments, as my body bled, I opened myself to the exhaustion of the daily demands of carrying on under the weight of never-ending sorrows. A sense of bleak acceptance filtered through my lungs, entering the capillaries, where it worked its way through my tissues and finally settled into the marrow of my bones.

In reply, the ground sprouted teeth and fingers, and began tugging, dragging my being towards the place where I once planted sweet potatoes, beetroot, kale, and mealies. It was a land hungering to feed, to flourish, a land eager to accept the gift of myself. Its dark musky teeth and fingers extended, taking hold of my tired flesh, and drew me deeper and deeper, until I dwelt amongst the roots where it was warm, dark, and comforting. In this constricted lightness of being, my body began to spread, interacting with the remains of the blood and bones I’d made and lost.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

What was lost is reborn, anew.

*

The first shoot came forth from my battered womb. An aloe ferox that lifted its rosette face towards the sunlight, exposing its sharp spines like tiny milk teeth. In winter it would bloom fiery red candles, beacons that lured the sunbirds, weavers, starlings, and baboons.

How great this plant helped me when I, in my young womanhood, found myself in the company of an entrepreneur who appeared to spend far more than he ever made. The gel from the thick green leaves was an antiseptic to my cuts, it soothed my bruises, and its bitter juice, mixed into the perfect recipe, could leave the man evacuating his bowels all night long, granting me a brief reprieve. I had spread its cream onto my growing belly, rubbing it in the places where my skin stretched so taut, it left blackish-blue claw marks, as if I’d tangled with a lion. Before we buried our first, I rubbed each tiny limb down with aloe, all the way to the miniscule fingers and toes, before swaddling the child one final time.

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My hair was the next to sprout. In great abundance, each twist radiated outwards from my scalp, growing forth until together they created a forest of cannabis and varieties of wild dagga. From my mother I had learned the ways of the various strands and species – from the beautiful orange blossoms of the Klip Dagga to the roots of the cannabis­ – how one could ease a fever, another dampened a headache, and which aided in treating a snakebite, dysentery, or malaria. When my mother found the lump, we boiled entire plants down, until all that remained was a thick, sticky, black tar that left shadows of green on anything it touched.

Over the next six months the lump gradually reduced, until one day, even a modern medical scan could not find a trace of it. Five contented years followed, until the morning she found herself suffering from an unusual bout of indigestion. As we prepared the normal remedies, she felt a squeezing along her spine, reaching up and up, until it gripped her jaw. An ambulance was called, but the men would not listen to my pleas to rush her to the hospital. Instead, they gave my mother antacids and aspirin, while admonishing us for wasting their time. As they climbed back into their mechanical box, she collapsed, dead from a heart attack.

            Insulted by her ordinary death, her spirit threw off the stardust that contained her form, rising higher and higher as it transformed, until the sky was filled with fireflies. They flickered and danced throughout the night, in a magnificent display of beauty and tenacity. By morning, all that remained of her body was water, which began to pool and sink as the sun rose. It pushed the soil to the sides, drilling deeper and deeper until it joined the hidden spring that dwelled below our garden. The new well she created was as pure and sweet as her voice, which she had lifted into song while she worked each and every day.

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            Sour figs sprouted from my breasts. Yellow and pink blooms that opened in the morning, and shut tight at night, resting before the sun returned. Its juices were mostly used to treat mouth, throat, and fungal infections. But it also helped soothe the skin, from sunburns to bee stings to insect bites.

Before I met the Bolivian from Belarus, who emerged from the Indian Ocean, I had been living with a woman who carried the scent of mango on her skin. Her hair was softer than the silver-green leaves of Impheho, which was now emerging from my right hand, like a bed for those who wandered without fixed homes. The mango-scented woman and I lived as lovers for three years, a reprieve to my bruised womb. Until the day her skirt caught fire while making a batch of umqombothi. She ran around screaming, like a hen who’d been liberated from her head. I had to tackle my love, rolling us over and over, until we ended up beside the pot of traditional beer, still bubbling away as if nothing was amiss. Perhaps my love would have survived the trauma had she been wearing cotton, but her clothes were of synthetic fibers, and had melted to her flesh. The traditional remedies could not combat such damage, and I had to take her to the hospital. She soon caught an infection, and her spirit left this world on the wings of a harrier.  

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Devil’s claw proceeded to pull itself from my left hand, turning my fingers into large tuberous roots. The plant’s anti-inflammatory properties made it particularly useful, and my mother administered it to many. But no matter how I processed it – from powders, to tinctures, to teas – it could not ease the pains that dwelt in my heart. The first loss left a hole, and with each consecutive death, the hole in my heart expanded. By the time the soil took me, a trunk of a pepper-bark tree could have easily slid through my gaping chest. Yet, even here, in the ground, away from the noise and pressures of everyday life, my wounded organ continued to beat on, bringing nourishment to both the human flesh and the vegetation that now made up my body.

I felt the spirits of my lost seeds amongst the ashes of the soil around me. They whispered and giggled, like mischievous toddlers, as they packed seeds around my throat. Soon a pelargonium was shooting up, up, up until it reached a meter high. The pinkish blossoms, splashed with purple, reminded me of butterfly wings.

Pelargonium flowers are a common remedy for sore throat. Yet, one year my mother placed the beautiful flowers in a circle on my birthday cake. It was the first year I’d needed to wear a bra. I remember it clearly, as Uncle was there.

“Yes, Uncle,” I’d say, to whatever he asked.

This is how we were raised.

“Yes, Uncle,” if he wanted coffee. “Yes, Uncle,” if he needed another beer. “Yes, Uncle,” if he wanted the TV remote. “Yes, Uncle,” if he wanted me to remove my shirt. My skirt. My underwear. Then, “Yes, Uncle,” when he said not to tell.

That birthday, we ate the cake my mother made after dinner was done. Coated in pale yellow icing, composed of rich cream and lemon. A blossom, bright and cheery, sat on each piece. As I swallowed the flower, my throat opened, and the stories spilled out. Each word fell into Uncle’s windpipe, like bricks being laid across a brackish well. By the time my tales were done, Uncle had choked. Weeks later, after the burial, my mother emptied her bowels onto his grave.

*

Time wore on, and more plants sprouted from my being: a pineapple lily from a knee, rooibos from an elbow, damask rose from one cheek, cape rose geranium from the other, wild garlic from my groin, African ginger from my ears, buchu from one calf, and false buchu from the other.

The last to spring forth was the African potato, streaming out from my toes. Its yellow flowers had often brought hope to those with TB, HIV, cancer, and infertility. But hope does not always heal. I once had hope. Many, many, times. In each instance, the hope would rise like the sun, only to collapse like a dying star, due to the weight of its iron core, leaving the burning orb with no means to support its own mass.

            Gravity became too much for my burdened bones. Down here, in the soil, my entire self was accepted, with non-judgmental support. As my body continued to release blood and tears, the earth absorbed my disappointments, my pain, my history, and, like stardust, transformed it all into life. In this new state of vegetative being, I was left with a feeling of immense relief.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

What was lost is reborn, anew.

End

Tiah Marie Beautement
Tiah Marie Beautement is the award-winning author of two novels, including This Day (2014, Modjaji), and numerous short stories. She also teaches writing and freelances for a variety of publications, including the Sunday Times and FunDza Literacy Trust. She lives on the South African Garden Route with her family, two dogs, a cat, and a small flock of chickens. Diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome and fibromyalgia, she is outspoken about living life with chronic conditions and disability. To stay as mentally and physically healthy as possible, she belly dances, horse rides, and zips along as a pillion on motorcycles.

Self-Destruct – Stephen Embleton

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Stephen Embleton
Stephen was born and lives in KwaZulu-Natal, South Africa. His background is Graphic Design, Creative Direction and Film. His first short story was published in 2015 in the ‘Imagine Africa 500’ speculative fiction anthology. More short fiction followed in the “Beneath This Skin” 2016 Edition of Aké Review, “The Short Story is Dead, Long Live the Short Story! Vol.2”, the debut edition of Enkare Review 2017, The Bloody Parchment, AfroSFv3, and The Kalahari Review. He is a charter member of the African Speculative Fiction Society and its Nommo Awards initiative. He was featured in Part 11 of the 100 African Writers of SFF on Strange Horizons. His debut speculative fiction novel, Soul Searching, was published in 2020.

Summer had come and gone, and the extreme chill of winter had skipped right past autumn. Zen stood at his balcony window looking out at the grey city skyline.

He had used his last government voucher of the month two minutes ago to place a grocery order. He would have to apply to the local food bank to replenish some of the basics. If they had any left. But that was a task for later. Right now, he would wait to see what the day held for him, if anything.

Drone-delivered meant he hadn’t gone out or seen anyone for the past few months when stricter lockdown measures were implemented around the wider metro area. He didn’t mind though. It was better indoors away from the unbearable cold in the city since the seas encroached and brought the extremes. He didn’t have a sea view, even from this tower block on the top of the Ridge, but he knew the stadium arches would be peaking out of the rough Durban waters below the rising sun. Divers willing to risk the riptides and erratic currents coming from Mozambique had made sure the structure, submerged five years ago when the levels had risen by twenty meters, had remained untouched by demolition crews. A new reef, they had said.

But, like all outdoor movement, diving was prohibited during lockdown. Everything was prohibited if it meant going outside your home or living quarters. Home. Cell.

Two major viruses had made cities rally to get their people indoors, safe but with at least most able to work remotely and survive. Health issues had strained hospitals. Psychological issues had quadrupled. People had died from malnutrition, psychosis, and the viruses.

A strain of parvovirus B19 had triggered a deadly aplastic anaemia pandemic in the youth, with the first signs of red and purple spots, bruising and bleeding mostly ignored by the majority of governments of Oceania. The lack of blood bank supplies, let alone matching bone marrow transplants, made it near impossible to stem the red wave of infections.

Zen felt alone, not just because of the isolation but because of the contacts missing. People missing. From his life. It was difficult to imagine anything before this. Who was it he had been in contact with that he felt the loss now? His parents? His sister? He had been absent to those who should have been dear to him. He hadn’t really seen them when they were alive. Really seen them.

Did dead people see him?

Here Zen was: a survivor. But, for how much longer? And for how much longer could he, or anyone else, stand it?

He turned to look at the flat filtration unit moulded into the ceiling in the middle of the apartment, and then checked the air controller on his mobile app. A few paces into the room and he was standing under the gentle hum of the device imagining the fresh air circulating around him. The apartment block’s central purification, air-conditioning, ventilation – whatever you thought it was – had been upgraded along with the rest of the city. Roughshod work by whoever it was who got the cheap-ass tender. Thankfully, the metro grid powered the system because his pay-as-you-go electricity had been off since before May, with winter right on its heels. But at least his solar chargers lined up on the windowsill kept his devices powered, otherwise there would be no connectivity with the outside world and no possibility of being able to work. If work ever came.

How many “Free Power” online petitions had he signed in the past and still it wasn’t accessible to the masses? Wind turbines and wave farms lined the Indian Ocean horizon as far as the eye could see but surely getting a light on in the city was an expense not a luxury.

Mounting tensions festering in private chats had spilled out into the mainstream. Threats of protest actions seemed more than couch-jockeying and anonymous vitriol. He hoped it was. He needed it to be. Being out on the streets, screaming at the heavens, despite any apparent viruses was what was needed to vent and be seen. His skin warmed and tingled. It was the boiling rage and frustration. A nagging thought rose to the surface – or was it the virus?

His phone beeped. Delivery.

He didn’t need to find or put on his mask. Day-to-day, in the confines of his apartment like now, it was always around his neck, or, firmly in place around his nose and mouth. The mask was a part of him, like his underwear. Okay, maybe not his underwear, which he hadn’t worn for the past six months. For what? For whom?

He walked back to the balcony and slid open the glass door as the drone took off, over the hazy city, and back to its depot. The fresh smell of drone-sprayed alcohol on the outer cover of recyclable paper meant he was clear to handle the package.

He picked up the wrapped box, glanced around for any signs of human activity on the protruding balconies of his floor. Nothing.

Zen stepped back inside and closed the door; the sound of the air pressure resetting hissed in his ears as he mentally prepared himself to unbox his limited items.

He tripped over the dead, roving vacuum unit on the floor, and through the small, gloomy single bedroom cum lounge. The entire apartment, one rectangular space, consisted of a shower, toilet, and basin, behind a drywall to his right; while the kitchen at the far end, near the front door which remained unopened for the past months, made up the remaining three-square metre area.

He couldn’t remember when he last folded his bed up let alone changed the sheets. He walked past the only couch and scraped the metal kitchen chair away from the foldout table and sat down to check his mobile.

He snapped a photo of the box and typed. “Can’t take this much longer,” he posted on his social media.

No one really responded to, saw, or liked, any of his posts but he did them anyway. “Visibility” was the word. Visibility?

This past year was a lesson in invisibility on steroids. Like most of the citizens in his neighbourhood he usually tried to be as invisible as possible in public, but on social media it was all about being visible. Relevant.

Stay irrelevant IRL, but relevant online? Okay.

No work. No income. No socialising. He hadn’t called a mate in weeks. Okay, maybe months. Everyone was online rather. Posting, commenting, chatting, bitching, and complaining.

Zen tore at the box wrapper.

***

The afternoon sun was low, and the heat fading fast. It was like the windows and the walls barely had time to absorb anything of comfort.

His phone on the arm of the couch bleeped. He set aside his tablet and picked it up.

A like on his post. Buhle. Hadn’t heard from her in a while.

All his connections seemed to be coping with the isolation, no hassles with work, and relationships all tip-fucking-top. But here was Zenzele unable to cope in lockdown. He usually thrived on working all hours, getting shit done to deadline, work through the night and sleep in the day if need be. Catch friends later or the next weekend or the next pub-crawl. Take it day by day. Live in the moment.

Live in the moment!

Bleep. “You’ll get through this! Hang in there, mnganam!” Three thumbs-up emojis.

Whatever, Alex. The fuck do you know?

His phone vibrated: low battery.

Bleep. “There’s been riots in Wentworth the past week that haven’t been reported in the media.” A comment posted by a @FreeMzansi.

He hadn’t heard about that.  Not that he checked too much of the dodgy news on a regular basis. And he didn’t know any @FreeMzansis or any friends by that handle, but Zen had posted publicly. He checked their profile. A couple of photos of Durban, the ruins down the old Berea Road in black and white. Hashtagged Release Us. Reposts about human rights.

Then, another comment from @FreeMzansi appeared: “The virus is petering out and citizens are demanding to be released from lockdown.”

Zen hit reply. “Really?”

The response came quickly. “Yeah, Zenzele. Mainstream media’s not covering it. But it’s happening. It’s nearly over if it wasn’t already.”

“Cool,” he typed back.

“Time to get out there and get our country back to work.”

Zen looked up through the balcony windows, imagining being outside, freely walking the streets. Walking. Running.

Hell yes, please. He gave @FreeMzansi’s comment a thumbs up.

Sucked into the app, he scrolled through his timeline. The same old shit. People complaining about their rights being taken away. Conspiracy theories about the origins. Vaccine developments or lack thereof. Vaccine conspiracies.

“Do you know anyone who has actually died from going outside?” asked @FreeMzansi.

An odd question but Zen gave it a thought and then wrote, “One of my friend’s relatives.”

“So, no one you know directly?”

That’s pretty close to home. As close to home as you’d want.

“No,” Zen typed back. “But still…”

“It’s all bullshit.”

***

Laughter filtered around the apartment block. Vibrations through the concrete framework meant it was music thrumming somehow. Some thrived on the confines. They used their tech to connect and commune and entertain. He couldn’t face it. It was all bullshit.

Had they even felt loss? Or was this some warped way of dealing with it? Blocking it out with the noises of distraction?

Zen had spent the last few hours into the evening deep-diving on blogs and chat sites. His head was spinning. Connectivity on this scale gave everyone an opinion they thought was worth sharing. His eyes were dry and hot from too much staring, unblinking, at his tablet and mobile screens.

The noise from the other apartments was grating his nerves. Too many people in a small space. Another remote party. Is that what we are? A social species socialising separately?

Migrants had moved south, away from the stifling heat of the equatorial zones, and seemed to thrive in this city. The humidity of the summers was now unbearable, like a thick, heavy blanket you could never get away from. And that was indoors. You were lucky if you could afford the extra cost for stronger A/C cooling because blasting it harder simply disturbed the epidermis layers of dust in the apartment. And you knew it was only your own filth catching the morning sun because the air filtration system kept all the dust, viruses, and pollution particles out.

He tossed his tablet on the seat next to him and checked his mobile feed. A couple more likes. Emojis. Where was the communication?

He stared at a high-five emoji. The open palm symbol. A hand. A digital hand high-fiving in remote space. High-five me instead. Shake me. Rattle me. Slap me awake.

Touch me.

He checked his job sites. Nothing. No new posts or prospects. Nothing in his in-box other than the usual spam and daily astrology.

What the hell is the point?

He swiped through his timeline. Nothing of real interest. No one he knew was infected. No one he knew directly had died in the last twenty-four hours.

Bleep.

“We are organising a group to gather at the old Saint Augustine’s Hospital site,” wrote @FreeMzansi.

“For?” asked Zen.

“Unity. Showing the government we aren’t falling for their bullshit anymore.”

Zen stood and paced the small room. That was a bit nuts. Who the hell would go outside and risk infection?

“Nah. I’m good,” he wrote back.

“And what’s the worst that can happen?” came the response.

“People die,” Zen snorted as he typed.

“Is that the worst that can happen?”

What the hell? He dropped his mobile on the couch and stood at the balcony window. The lights of the city looked warm and inviting. People were out there. His people were out there.

His rapid breathing frosted his view. With his forefinger he drew a circle in the moisture, followed by two dots and a crescent underneath them. What is the worst that can happen?

I live another day. Like this.

Zen grabbed his jacket and scarf from under his bed, checked for his gloves in the front pocket and headed to the front door. It took some effort, but he scraped the door open, its hinges squealing their protests, stepped outside and closed the door behind him.

The apartment was quiet.

The mobile on the couch bleeped.

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Stephen Embleton
Stephen was born and lives in KwaZulu-Natal, South Africa. His background is Graphic Design, Creative Direction and Film. His first short story was published in 2015 in the ‘Imagine Africa 500’ speculative fiction anthology. More short fiction followed in the “Beneath This Skin” 2016 Edition of Aké Review, “The Short Story is Dead, Long Live the Short Story! Vol.2”, the debut edition of Enkare Review 2017, The Bloody Parchment, AfroSFv3, and The Kalahari Review. He is a charter member of the African Speculative Fiction Society and its Nommo Awards initiative. He was featured in Part 11 of the 100 African Writers of SFF on Strange Horizons. His debut speculative fiction novel, Soul Searching, was published in 2020.