He paddled his boat through the thousand fingers of the Broken Nose.
Hundreds of islands of steel and glass skeletons, sprinkled among clusters of huts around sickly baobabs, perched to the very edge of their islets basking in the never-ending glow of the Caliphate’s protective dome. There was no east, no north and no south, no sky in either direction but west, where the layers of high-altitude dust filtered the stars and moon through ochre-brown vortexes. Spidery overpasses still connected some of the broken buildings hundreds of meters over the canals. Glass windows scintillated in the distance, reflecting the dome against each other on thousand-foot collapsing minarets, green flakes peeling from the holy towers into the sky.
The Nose was runny with the Caliphate’s waste, it bubbled and burst like so many sneezes through its waterways. Swirls of bloody mucus poured into the ocean from a thousand nostrils. They’d called Dakar the Nose of Africa until, like every good wrestler, it got punched in the face too hard.
“Frost! Got that good Frost! Dafa Nekh! Dafa Nice!” Lamine pitched at the humid blindness of Lebu huts with low straw roofs brushing the water around him.
Funny what the future brings. For a few centuries it’s all skyscrapers and orbital season rings, but in the end it’s a hole the size of a pinhead in the magnetic field, the ground evaporating, and rowboats looking into the future’s lights and tasting its shit.
“Frost! Got that good Frost!”
“Wow kaï, fi!” a tumorous voice answered his calls.
There was a small fire inside a caved-out old building on an island ahead, and a stick figure waved him over, shadows behind him outlined against the dome. Lamine knew that trick. He wouldn’t step on that island.
He oared within safe distance and pushed a plank to the connecting bank. No one would swim the streams, especially at night with larger predators drawn to the dome, but fiends didn’t have much to lose. They were already melting inside from the radiation filtering in while the atmosphere was slowly sucked out, and shooting all that Frost. The gritty air was manageable when you could afford fresh water, if not…Frost. They would drown in the thick ooze for a blast of it.
The fiend lurched across the plank, his black skin patched with reddish blots from using. He tossed broken electronics on the boat. The circuitry alone was worth more than the little Frost Lamine had. He threw him a chemical inhaler; he caught it and drew a deep breath, exhaling a frosty cloud while the gas crystallized his insides until the next night.
Four wet fingers grabbed Lamine’s ankle and tugged.
“Kat sa ndeye!” he screamed falling back.
A little of the ooze made it into his nose. He didn’t even have any Frost left.
***
Lamine came to, coughing muck out of his lungs. He was lying on the sand dressed in nothing but a red, white and black loincloth next to a fire in the shadow of a white baobab. Splashed in red and black, like the spirit that haunted Dakar’s coast, in a circle of huts shadowed by an old shopping mall.
“Thinking of Leuk Daour, huh?” a raspy voiced asked him.
The faces of the seven men surrounding him glowed a vibrant red. Their lips and hair were gone. Their rough clothes falling equally over emaciated frames.
One of their voices sounded in his mind. It sounded female.
“We pulled you into the muck, little saïsaï.”
“Your loss.” Lamine answered. “I’m fresh out of Frost. Wallahi, if my lips fell off I would stop doing that shit too.”
Seven laughs rang in his mind to lipless grins.
“Haha! We know.” The voice went on. “That’s why we saved you. Frost kills most people but transforms others. You’re not an addict; you’re a pusher, that’s why we need you. We need a clean but mischievous soul to channel Leuk Daour.”
Lamine knew the stories, meeting Leuk was bad luck, but channeling him?
“Don’t worry. The Rab won’t hold you very long.” The voice said soothingly.
“Leuk Da…What the hell for?!”
Mirth glinted in their eyes and the voice answered him.
“We’re going under the dome.”
***
A young boy drummed under the tree. Lamine’s strange saviors each picked up the same song in turns, dancing around the fire like women in a trance, their torsos low, clapping and swinging their hands behind their backs with small steps.
With every new singer Lamine’s vision blurred. He knew himself, but he felt something else. Another’s strength. Another’s eyes.
He saw fishermen on a boat, looking at a slave ship disappearing into mist, teenagers by a boom box smoking reefer on a beach, lights tearing the sky towards the first moon base, he saw them all die, touched by the other who was also him, and his feet picked up the dance, his voice the song, and they swung their hands in claps, fading as the drum quickened. His eyes grew wider, the world thinner, and they vanished.
***
Fields of giant barley, wheat and maize spread ahead to the horizon under a blue sky, sprinkled with clouds of artificial condensation. Augmented humans buzzed around the plants like bees, diaphanous wings radiating artificial sunlight over growths twenty times their size.
Massive cubes sprinkled the plants, casting dark shadows over the jungle of produce, while spinning disks with spikes sliced through the fields, collecting cereal and heading back towards a wall of shining light.
Lamine’s enhanced eyes narrowed on the distance. Blue-green towers reflected the nature surrounding them, intersected by pods full of citizens in white robes. Zeppelins flew over the city, flipping verses and sounding the call to prayer, and bridges of white marble flowed into arteries between the buildings.
“Where are we?” Lamine asked, his companions looking peacefully ahead.
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Deka pressed the mute button on her ear-buds and was grateful for the silence that followed.
As the glass Cylinder pulled away, green tree-houses waved her by, their solar roof panels blinking like tiny jewels in the early light. In one of those tree-houses, Okolie was sleeping. A few hours would awaken him to her absence, and the fact that it was over. Something heavy and sad was stuck at the back of her throat. She pushed it away.
In a few months, he would settle back to the life he’d had, before everything. Deciphering ancient nsibidi manuscripts at the university. Saturday afternoon parties where he served udara smoothies he made himself (and mixed with spoonfuls of kai-kai) in the downstairs kitchen. The students that appeared in the house so unexpectedly that they had to be stalking him.
In a few months, everything would be back to normal. And he would be grateful she did it like this. Clean.
***
When Deka opened her eyes, she was underwater.
The Cylinder was taking the route through the Niger to avoid being held up by traffic on the bridge above. She pressed her palm against the glass and felt its automated warmth in response. At this rate, they would be in Onitsha sooner than she expected.
She stretched, almost hitting a bald woman in a too-large ankara dress standing in the aisle.
“Ndo. Sorry,” Deka murmured, staring out at the water. A school of large, rainbow-colored fish was swimming towards her. The largest one stopped beside her, seemed to consider her a moment, and swam away.
Being on the Cylinder (the ‘Big Cyl’, if you lived in Lagos long enough) gave Deka a sensation like flying in a dream. The entire thing was made of glass so clear that when they travelled overland she could see ants, lizards, and even a mouse, once, scurrying about their business beneath her feet.
“Njideka, stop,” Okolie would say, laughing in that way that made her say he could swallow the world. “You walk like you’re scared of squashing the ants, but they aren’t really there.”
She knew they weren’t there, of course. It was just that the Cylinder was so large, then, and so new. There had been nothing like it in Onitsha. And nothing like the many other things that had made her dizzy as an Onitsha girl working in Lagos for the first time.
“It’s what I get for ignoring common sense and marrying a big city prof,” she had said once, teasing.
“You forgot the perks,” he had whispered, hand pressed against her thigh.
***
“Orimiri.”
“What?” The woman was still standing there. Smiling a stupid smile in that dress.
“We call the river Orimiri.”
“Oh, OK,” Deka said, turning away again. She hoped the woman would get the message and leave her alone.
“Can I sit?” The woman asked and she was seated before a loud ‘NO’ could form on Deka’s lips. From the corner of her eye, Deka watched the woman settle in, bunching her dress between her knees like a blanket. She smelt like warm oranges.
“So, what did you do in Lagos?”
Deka would have said loved a job, a husband, a child. Lost everything. But instead she said:
“Nothing.”
And then she didn’t say nothing.
***
Later, she would tell Okolie that it was the woman who brought her back to him.
She told the woman about meeting Okolie at someone’s thanksgiving in church and knowing, just knowing. About the days and months that flew by so quickly, she forgot to breathe. Waking up next to him in the tree-house one night, being so scared at her own happiness she couldn’t go back to sleep. Then: the joy of carrying some of him inside her, their little girl, and wanting to burst with the joy of it.
She had decided she would continue to work at her job with the rare book restoration center at the Ikeja Bindery until it got so she couldn’t. Okolie had been the one to take a leave from work, pushing aside months of research on an important project to prepare for the baby.
“I am going to be a father,” he had said. “Whatever ancient secrets our ancestors left behind can wait.” By the time they discovered anything was wrong, it was too late.
Drepanocytosis. Your baby died.
***
“The music is the worst,” the woman was saying. She held her pink ear-buds in front her in exaggerated disgust, like an exotic insect. Deka laughed.
She thought of asking the woman’s name but decided it would be awkward this late into the conversation.
“Some of the new stuff isn’t so bad…” she countered.
The woman threw her head back and laughed; a warm, thick sound.
“Biko, electro-pop hasn’t been relevant since the 2010s. I’m sure their so-called ‘experts’ are just bad-quality radio randomizers.”
Deka laughed at that. The music was horrible. Imagine all that ‘specially crafted by experts’ rubbish for robot radios. Ha.
“Since the radio-robot music is so bad, what are my options as a faithful patron of the Big Cyl?”
“Honestly?” A pause. The woman was staring strangely at her now, bald head glowing with the soft blue-green of the river. She had stopped laughing.
“I think you should go back home. You wouldn’t be trying so hard to throw away something you’ve already lost.”
***
Later, curled up next to him in the tree-house, Deka would tell Okolie that it was a bald woman in an ill-fitting dress on the Cylinder that brought her back to him.
The sun crested the sky-scraping towers on the east side of Accra, casting long shadows before Jamal as he roamed through the silver streets of Ghana’s capital. The Woman was ahead of him by many paces, her long flowing garment sweeping with each stiff stride she took. Unmanned BMW HT-16s roamed in the suspended orbits high above his head. Nuclear-powered bikes spewed white smoke that disappeared into the ground, their HighMen riders looking about with perpetual smiles.
As he went past a couple of young HighBoys playing keep-ups by the roadside, Jamal sensed a wave of hostile energy in the air. He didn’t turn early enough though and he collapsed under the weight of a pursuer he hadn’t noticed. His soft skin burnt from the chemicals that gave the street its glistening touch as he craned his neck to see the man who was pinning him down.
“Tickets, sir,” the voice said in a mocking singsong tone that Jamal recognised.
He showed the RogueMan a middle finger and was rewarded by the finger twisted till it touched the back of his hand. Bracing himself against the street, Jamal pushed upward and threw his attacker into the air. He ignited his shoes and flew after him, catching him in the throat before he could blow on the whistle that would have left him frozen. He followed up with a swivel and rammed his knee into his face, snapping his neck in the process. Then he let the Man float into the blue void that opened above him to be carried away for further repairs.
“I’ll…I’ll find you, HalfMan,” the RougeMan promised as the waves covered him and carried him into another dimension.
Jamal touched down to save his fuel, his mind replaying the man’s words with incredulity. For a while, he didn’t know whether to be sad or angry. He raised his right arm and flexed his fingers, feeling the last breath of life in the sweat that dripped from him. The virus had already converted half of his body into stainless metal, and his eye focused on the electricity-charged veins beneath the layers. Soon, he too would be complete in his devolution. HighMen, they called themselves, but as Jamal looked at his own reflection on his gilded arm, he knew better.
He folded his fingers and made a fist, a defiant fist that cracked in rhythm to his crashing jaws. A glow of amber fire formed around it, pulsing with the rage that burnt within him. You will not have me. You will not turn me!
The blaring call of a HighBird jarred him from his reverie and he returned to the object of his chase. The delay had caused him to fall behind but he still saw the figure ahead of him through his HighVision.
He only managed a few steps before the world froze to the hollering sirens of the HighPolice. HT16s filled the streets above with flashing lights as a black void settled over the whole of Accra with a vortex from another dimension. The wind was cold on his soft face. He tried to move, tried to take a step toward the Woman, but could not. He was trapped with the High and Low races of men and animals in this still dimension. His Heart of Steel was frantic in his breast, the coppery taste of fear and anger thick on his tongue. All he could do was watch with disbelieving eyes as dread settled into his belly.
He watched with pain as the HighOfficers surrounded the Woman with only one intention in their own little HighMinds. Her eyes darted from one danger to the other but he saw no panic in them. She raised her hands over her black hair and spoke hard words that sailed over Jamal’s head. It was an odd language, a chiming tone that was muffled by wafting smoke before her face.
A HighMan stretched a whip that latched onto the Woman’s robe. With a twist, her garment tore from her shoulders and fell in a heap about her feet.
Then she roared into the void, and it seemed the sky would fall.
Her coppery skin dissolved into a shapeless form, and Jamal felt a strange power surge through him. His body shook as the life was pulled from him, and he felt himself turn into what he had been trying to cure.
The first crash pulled his mind away from his pain, and he turned to see the HighPolice vehicle crumple into a ball of metal. Power seeped from each vehicle, every HighRace of man and beast, to feed the woman’s pulsing energy. The towering homes came down like sand castles in a previous world, their life-sustaining centres bursting into green flames that floated into the realm surrounding the Woman.
Beside her, an albino girl smiled as she rose on unseen wings, and Jamal realised that he had not understood a thing. He had known nothing, even in his time with Football Incorporated, even with all the HighKnowing he’d been fed with. She was the one, the saviour his band of HalfRaces had spent years tracking to undo this devolution. Her hair burnt in the sun like woven strands of gold-threads, spots sparkling in contrasting light points on her gilded face. She floated among the chaos of disappearing HighRaces, the power enshrouding her till she was a little gem in the midst of all the flying rubble.
Jamal smiled wryly as the pain crawled up his legs and turned him into the HighRace he had fought to destroy. He flexed his shoulder and heaved himself but the power gripped to him with its glue. Soon, he gave up and allowed himself to see the good in this; death would come soon and spare him this burden, spare him the pain of inhumanness, the shame of thoughtlessness, the unloving heart of a rational HighMind. And he grinned till he felt the passion no more.
The kente-clad performers sang aloud, mixing lyrics of Akan traditional folk music with electronically-generated sounds coming from small speakers embedded in the pendants of their bulky faux gold chains. The group parted and a young man in the centre did several back flips on the spot in time with the beat and their clapping. Their procession moved forward after a few minutes, giving way for an all-female dancing group dressed as wives of the Asantehene.
“So you’re here.”
Aniekan turned at the familiar voice. The grinning face of his friend, Joshua, showed none of the discomfort evident on the sweaty faces of the other onlookers. Aniekan could only imagine how scorching the midday sun was. He had seen someone being resuscitated for heat stroke.
“Yeah,” he replied. “I took a break from studying.”
“Weird, me too.”
“You’re also writing exams?”
“Nah,” Joshua said, turning to look at the dancers gyrating a few feet away. “I’m over all that school madness. I have an interview with some firm in India. I’ve been brushing up on my answers all morning. Hey, check that out!”
The object of interest was a large fire-breathing robot masquerade, controlled by fittingly-dressed ‘native doctors’. Aniekan selected the camera icon, set his viewfinder for a good shot and clicked the button.
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He hissed at the words flashing across his field of vision. Joshua looked at him.
“What happened?’
“Can’t take a bloody picture.”
Joshua chuckled. “You’ve still not upgraded?”
“You’re laughing, and you’ve been wearing the same clothes for almost a year.”
“Only jobless people bother with changing clothes. Besides, if I really wanted to, I know a guy who can crack the system and upload a shuffle wardrobe for free.”
“Careful. You know everything we say ends up on their servers.”
“You’re always so paranoid.”
There was a shrill beeping sound from Joshua.
“Alarm,” he said. “Time difference in India means I’ll be up around 2am for the interview. See you later?”
“Sure. Good luck, by the way.”
Joshua smiled and his face froze, then his entire body flickered and went off. Hovering in the space where his head had occupied was a round drone with a central camera which rose over the audience, evading obstacles as it flew into a large blue booth. The booth was marked with a globally-recognised symbol consisting of an eye where the iris and pupil were replaced with a small letter ‘a’. He heard a chuckle and looked down to see a small boy poking a finger through his chest, causing his image to waver.
“Stop doing that.”
The boy giggled mischievously and skipped away. Aniekan sighed and reached for the eye icon located at the top right corner of his visual feed which produced a drop-down menu. He’d wasted enough time here anyway.
The scene of the street-side festivities dimmed into dark blue and the words “Signing Out” slowly blinked. He felt for his nightstand and dropped his navigation console before reaching under his chin to unstrap the virtual reality headset. As if on cue, there was a bang on the door. He pushed a unlock button on the wall and his older brother, Emmanuel, barged in, his eyes sweeping the room in search of something.
“What?” Aniekan muttered with irritation.
“I’ve been knocking for almost five minutes. I need to borrow your VR, mine is having some sort of error.”
“Well done,” Aniekan said snidely. “You’ve finally spoiled it with those useless beta plug-ins.”
“And you were online when you have exams tomorrow,” Emmanuel retorted, grabbing the helmet-shaped device and ejecting his brother’s identity chip. “Where were you anyway?”
“Chale Wote Street Festival.”
“Lame. Premier League is on. And I need to log in before all the ports are used up.”
“I hope you guys lose.”
“Up yours.”
The door closed with a bang. Aniekan snickered as he moved to his study table and waved his hand over the PC sensor, turning on the holographic screen. He swept the reader windows of his books aside and selected the eye-shaped icon which opened a dark blue window with a title sequence.
Astral: Now, You’re There.
The words faded away.
Welcome Back, Aniekan.
He fingered through the tabs and checked his Uptime balance. He sighed. He barely had enough for any visits outside the sub-Saharan countries – that is, the few which had Astral hotspots. The service was still new to Nigeria, after all. He authenticated the transfer of extra credits from his bank account. A progress bar came up and he began to wonder how he’d become so invested in this virtual existence.
Astral had started in Japan as a therapeutic program to help the hikikomori, or shut-ins, but it had rapidly spiralled into some sort of travel/networking/laziness device, inadvertently causing what it had set out to cure. People around the world now used Astral for virtually everything – from tours in other countries, to attending events from the comfort of their bedrooms. He’d even read that new headsets which could transmit sensations like smell, taste and touch directly to the user’s brain were being developed to make things more immersive. He’d logged into their service barely a month ago, and though his social life – whatever was left of it – had suffered, at least he could say he’d seen the Western Wall in Jerusalem, the Coliseum in Rome, the Tomb of King Tut, and several live matches at Camp Nou.
The words “Upgrade to Premium” glowed white on the sidebar once the transfer was complete and he’d bought sufficient credits. His reached for it and stopped short. Social media apps were already eating up most of his time. If he did this, he knew it would be equivalent to signing off all contact with the outside world. He considered his pros and cons for a moment…
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A few days ago, while reading Joe Benitez’s ‘Lady Mechanika’ I was hit by an acute sense of displacement. In a scene set in the Sahara Desert, Mr Benitez had women dressed in the clothing of the desert nomads speaking Yoruba. Nothing in Mr Benitez’s story suggests that the Yoruba speakers are not native to their desert setting, yet they are speaking a language that originates nearly four thousand miles to the south. To understand the displacement I felt, imagine if you were reading a story set in Alaska, but instead of the natives speaking a form of Inuit, they are speaking a bastardised version of Maya, or some other South American indigenous language. Given the setting, a more northern language like Hausa or Berber would have been a safer bet, and had anyone involved in the creation of that story bothered to do any form of rudimentary research, they would have known this.
Joe Benitez’s gaffe is lightweight compared to the treatment Africa has received in speculative fiction as a whole. Recall what always happened in the TV series “Heroes” when a character needed to visit Africa? The vision of the whole continent, 56 countries, over a thousand languages and cultures as diverse and colourful as can be, was usually reduced to a shrubland somewhere in the middle of the Kalahari Desert. And the token African character appeared to have no home and passes his time creating “prophetic” art on rock faces. In all, the world of speculative fiction has largely failed to accurately portray the continent of Africa and, just like Hollywood, it seems to see no need to try.
This is why Africans need to tell their own stories, as this is the best way to own the narrative about Africa and to capture the changing face of the continent. And in this edition we are happy to showcase African stories that remind us of the tales our mothers told us. These stories revive aspects of our culture and belief systems that we thought lost, showing us how they still feature prominently in our urban lore.
Mayowa Koleosho mines the rich vein of Yoruba mythology for his beautifully told tale of two brothers whose relationship is transformed forever in “Ara and Monamona”. Adanze Asante’s “The Journey” is also a classic tale of transformation; a throwback to those days when people possessed the ability to change from man to animal and back. Pemi Aguda takes this ability to the cityscape of modern Lagos and masterfully retells it. Suyi Davies pushes the theme in a Lagos of the future even more immersed in the digital landscape than we are now in “Breaking The Habit”, and in “Maki” by Edwin Okolo, transformation travels in its own lane and goes beyond possibilities of the human. And if we ask the question of what is left behind after the change? “Horror in the Bush” by Mandisi Nkomo has the answer, and what an answer it is!
We are grateful for the opportunity to provide a home for these stories because until recently it was hard getting any form of genre fiction published in the few litmags available. Though elements of the speculative were heavy in many books being published here, no one wanted to class their “serious fiction” as “genre”. Nigeria, for example, is a country where literary fiction wields a tight-fisted supremacy over all other forms of literature. But the opportunities offered by Omenana, and other Afrocentric genre magazines using the digital landscape, are gradually transforming a literary society that once sneered at genre fiction.
In all, this promises to be a hallmark edition. It is our fourth edition and final regular edition for the year. We will produce a special flash fiction edition that will berth by November 2015. The project is in partnership with the Goethe Institut for a display at the African Future_Lagos exhibit which will take place from 28th October – 1st November 2015, in Lagos. This edition will also mark the first time we will be able pay our contributors – something we hope to continue in the future.
Hey, almost forgot that we will be at the Ake Arts and Books Festival in Abeokuta, Ogun State, Nigeria, from the 17th to the 21st of November 2015. Check out more info about the festival here. I will be talking about speculative fiction and all things writing. I will also be moderating a panel discussion called, “Africa Magic: The Rise of Speculative Fiction”, at the festival. Since we will be talking about elements of the genre in African literature and what differences are emerging in speculative fiction between Africa and the rest of the world, among other things, I expect it willbe an opportunity to further the cause of speculative fiction in the continent.
It’s been a wild ride and we thank you all for discovering us and spreading the word.
Running through the thorny blonde grass, the lone hyena stops to scan the plains of the Serengeti for food and water. After travelling for more than three sunsets, she’s hungry and searching for carrion, but it’s scarce this dry season. A starling alights upon her path as she relishes the strong breeze rippling through her fur, she spots a droughty pond filled with muddy water. Her stomach wrenches tight as she drinks, for the water only incites her hunger pangs.
Through a curtain of heat, a pack of female hyenas lope toward her. Orange dust billows from their paws as they approach. Her fur stands on end, her ears twitch, and at that moment she forgets her hunger. She realizes that she should have stayed on course, but her desire for sustenance had urged her to take a different route.
Knowing it’s odd for a bitch to be alone without her clan, the lone hyena remains steady and still, daring not to move as the leader of the pack pads toward her. This is the first time in her sojourn she has been threatened by her kind. If she shows fear, they’ll attack.
She observes that the matriarch’s head is much larger than normal and that she towers over the other six. Yet when Large Head approaches her, she notices that she’s her equal. Grinding her teeth, she allows the matriarch to move around her in one slow circle and sniff her sex.
Her claws dig into the dirt as she watches Large Head return to her clan, sneezing, grunting, and spitting. Shaking her head, she communicates that something’s wrong with this lone hyena. The clan groans in confusion then a frenzy of rage engulfs them; some stand on their hind legs, cackling.
The seven hyenas begin to gather around her, baring their sharp-razor teeth. The lone hyena remains steady watching them. Breathing slowly and deliberately, she calculates her next move. She never takes her eyes off of Large Head. She’s really too weak with hunger to fight, but she must. Death is the only option, for she is not the only one who’s hungry.
She leaps to rip open Large Head’s throat, but two of Large Head’s underlings foil her attack and pounce on her back. Rebounding quickly, she bares and snaps her teeth, forcing Large Head’s lackeys to retreat.
She launches to rip apart the weakest of the pack, but Large Head barrels into her, throwing her to the ground. They roll and scuffle, each growling at the other, then break apart – the lone hyena quickly scrabbling back up on all fours.
Large Head lunges to bite her neck, but she swiftly squirms out of the way. Then pivoting, the lone hyena clamps her jaws on the alpha bitch’s haunches. The blood tastes bitter yet sweet. Large Head briefly cries out in agony but quickly recovers; it would be death for the matriarch to show weakness to her clan. Her followers whoop and cackle in protest. Turning, the matriarch meets her gaze and they stare at each other for one long moment.
Suddenly the ground rumbles under their paws. Off to the east, a herd of gazelles is stampeding. The lone hyena releases her hold on the old matriarch and the two combatants look to the potential meat and salivate. Abandoning their duel, Large Head breaks into a run, aiming for the slowest and weakest at the back of the herd. The rest of her clan follows her, fanning out to a large hunting V.
The lone hyena watches her in bemusement. She understands that killing an odd hyena is no longer appealing to the clan; gazelles are much juicier. She wonders if she should join them. She could help them rip apart their chosen prey. During their feeding, she could choose a choice body part, thereby asserting her leadership. She notices Large Head has left a trail of blood behind. The clan will eventually kill her as she now appears weak. If she were the one to kill Large Head, she would then lead the rest of the pack.
She hears her own quick shallow breaths, her heart beating in her chest. The warbling of birds, the twittering of insects, even the guttural sounds of vultures circling overhead, clash like cymbals in her ears. A starling alights nearby and suddenly a barrage of sounds and images flood her mind: She is surrounded by smoke, the sound of drumming rings through her ears, cool waves splash against her body, and then a coarse voice whispers: “Go to the One with the message.”
She turns away from the pack, as the voice continues to hiss in her ears. It beckons across the vast plains, urging her to leave the clan of roaming beasts behind. She obeys.
As the sun climbs to its zenith, she catches a whiff of blood, causing her stomach to grumble louder. She looks up and sees vultures circling not far off. Frothing at the mouth, she trots toward the carrion birds and finds a half-eaten antelope – a lion pride’s leftovers. She lunges at the birds, scattering them. She manages to snatch a hind leg with her teeth and rip it from the carcass. They swoop in to peck her back, an attempt to guard their meal, but with the meat dangling from her mouth, she sprints away.
Under an acacia tree, she devours the antelope’s backside in several bites, hacking through its skin to the flesh with her knife-like teeth. She relishes how carrion always tastes better when they are seasoned with a lion’s saliva. Its smell tantalizes her so much that she even eats the bones.
She wallows in the dirt to ease the sting of her scratches from the earlier battle with the hyena clan. A starling alights on a branch of the tree above her. Then as the sky turns orange and magenta with dusk, her eyelids grow heavy, lulling her into sleep.
A slim bare-chested man is waving her in through the open door of his hut. His smiling eyes sparkle as he says: “Come to me!”
She is about to walk in when…
Something awakens her. It is a male hyena, marking his territory. Lying on her belly, she pants, observing him. Unlike females, males always roam alone as they are only good for mating and are useless otherwise. He circles her with caution, for she is twice his size and could crush him easily. Yet when he climbs on her back, she allows him. She is much too drowsy to rouse. Many males have approached her for mating before and she has always rebuffed them, but this time it feels good. It feels right.
He awkwardly pokes his penis above her erect clitoris, which is as big and long as his member. Their sexes rub against each other as he tries to enter her shaft, but he keeps slipping off her sleek fur. Her sex moistens from his continuous tries. She stands up to make it easier for him to climb and poke again. When the tip of his penis finally enters, she whoops and chortles with delight. Yes, this time it’s delicious and welcoming.
A starling lands on her head and she tries to shake it off, when she hears: “Go to the One with the message.” Suddenly she remembers: She is no hyena. She is human. She is Duriya Osa! There is no way she can mate with this animal.
She throws him off her and then swipes at his face with her claws. The male hyena cowers under her strikes until she retreats, then tries to mount her again. This time she springs to bite him, snapping her jaws, but the male instantly moves out of the way. Rising on her hind legs, she yowls. He finally surrenders to her threats and lopes off to a nearby tree to lick his genitals and quench the fire of his excitement.
Under an indigo sky, Duriya begins to run. She runs until she is several miles away from the stud and the night lit with starlight. She finally stops beneath an umbrella tree to rest. This is when she hears the sound of an mbira. Her ears prick, listening to the faint notes, its tinkling sound dancing before her.
The sweet melody vibrates through her body, and with each tink-tink-tink-tink, she shudders as if from an internal storm. She leans against the tree shaking uncontrollably. Sharp pain shoots through her body like bolts of lightning and she jerks her head from side to side in rickety movements. With horror, she sees her paws begin to grow into human hands. Her black spotted fur starts to fade into coffee-brown skin and tight curls of human hair. She can feel her jagged fangs pushing back to human teeth. She has to get to the One before she fully transforms or she will not survive this journey.
But her body is changing beyond her control. She halts as her two front legs shrink to human arms. Her ears shrivel from her wide animal ones and her sharp-night vision fades into human sight. Her sense of smell dulls; her strength wanes. She howls in agony, but her breath is cut short as her spine straightens and her tail melts back into it. Her hind legs lengthen into human ones; she is now crawling on her hands and knees. She was to be there by the fifth night, she remembers, and time is running out. She has to get there. She just has to…
Crawling and changing, changing and crawling, she makes her way towards the sound of the mbira, which grows louder with each step. Then a pungent scent of violets stings her nose. She inhales… Ahh… that smell… She cackles and whoops, recognizing it. The One must be near.
At the tree that marks the entrance to his compound, she stretches her body upright and shakes off what’s left of her reddish-brown fur. She shuffles sluggishly to her lover’s threshold where she collapses, supine. She opens one eye and catches him watching her.
“Ahh … that’s my girl,” she hears him say.
#
Owodunni lifts the young woman, his legs buckling from a weight that is still that of a 200-pound hyena, and carries her into his home. A starling flies through the open door and alights on one of the root jars by the entrance as he places Duriya on a straw mat in the centre of the room. The air around them is as heavy as wet mist.
Burning fragrant herbs, Owodunni prays to the deities who helped create Duriya. He gives thanks and offers Ogo, the Dogon deity responsible for the powerful huntress, a boar’s head. He hangs his machete on a hook in the centre of the shrine. As the fresh blood drips from it into a sacred pot, he smokes Duriya’s body from head to toe with a bunch of burning twigs. He notices the deep scratches on her stomach and winces. When he’d cast the spell three years ago he had not thought to arm Duriya; he didn’t think she would confront any danger.
He tucks the shrine’s brown, gold, and ivory cloth around Duriya’s shoulders as she snores. He is careful not to rouse her, for she is still in the twilight of human and animal. It could be hours before her full transition and if he is not careful, she could tear him to pieces. As if to confirm his suspicions, she yawns, revealing sharp fangs. He keeps a safe distance between them and carries a fighting knife in the waist of his trousers: just in case.
He pours libations to Ogo again. He gives praises to his ancestors and to the forces that feed his powers.
#
Duriya’s body writhes in violent convulsions and she wakes up in tears. She struggles to look around. The room is decorated with lion and boar skins and furnished only by a chair with three legs, some wooden shelves against a wall, and an elaborate shrine. A wooden staff decorated with horizontal bands of light mahogany leans on the wall by the door, a starling is perched atop it, watching her intently.
The shelves are filled with glass jars of brilliantly-coloured powders, bottles of ogogoro, feathers, a doll’s head, the swollen carcass of a puffer fish, and three skulls – one of a dog and two human.
She studies the altar, gazing at the skulls and bones on it. The walls on either side of it are draped with gold and silver material. At its centre, there is a platter full of rice, yam, oranges, bananas, pineapples and beans – offerings for the deities and ancestors. This altar has been her home away from home for the past three years. It is where she seeks comfort from a husband she pretends to love.
Groaning, Duriya crawls until she is next to her lover, directly under the shrine. Her muscles pulsating from overexertion, she curls into a foetal position.
“When will be a good day for me to kill my husband?” She asks absently.
Owodunni glances over his shoulder at her, still not quite comfortable with her human form.
“Killing my brother takes patience, my dear,” he says, forcing a light tone.
He stands to fetch a jar of ointment from one of his shelves. Scooping some of the ointment with the fingertips of his right hand, he returns to her. “Turn over. This should take the scarring away.”
While Owodunni smears the ointment on her belly, Duriya thinks of how, in public, she has been humiliated by her husband’s beatings and threats. How, in private, she has had to concede to his desires for threesomes and foursomes. She thinks of how often she has sat in her hut alone at night dreading his return. Her only reprieve has been within Owodunni’s arms.
“I almost didn’t make it.”
“What do you mean?” Owodunni asks.
“They almost killed me.”
“Who almost killed you?”
“A big-headed hyena.”
“I’m glad you’re here,” Owodunni says. He reaches to stroke her shoulder but she flinches away.
“You don’t understand,” she says.
Owodunni remains silent and listens for he does not want to agitate the beast.
“I nearly forgot myself out there.”
“Did you hear me calling you?”
Without answering, Duriya looks up at the starling perched on the head of the mahogany staff. Then she nods.
“Well then, you have nothing to worry about,” he says. “You should eat something,” Owodunni says. He moves over to a round-bellied pot she hasn’t noticed before and stirs the soup inside it. “This will help you transition.”
“You know I can’t eat cooked meat right away.”
“I know, but I want a full woman right now.”
“What’s the matter?” She asks with a smirk. “Are you afraid I might take a bite out of you?”
“You are still part animal.”
“Is that so?” She cackles, crawling to him on her hands and knees. “Do I not look fully human?”
“Yes, but your mind and heart are still transitioning.”
He spoons the meat, yams and vegetables into a wooden bowl.
“Here, taste this.” He thrusts the bowl at her.
She shuts her eyes tight and smells the meal before her. Reaching into the bowl, she grabs a piece of meat and bites it. She lets it stay in her mouth for a moment before she tries to chew it.
“Ugh!” In disgust, she spits the morsel into the palm of her hand and wipes her mouth with her forearm. “This is awful! How could anyone eat cooked meat? It ruins its essence!”
“Taste it again,” he persists. “You will soon remember.”
“Remember what?”
“Remember your true self.”
She remembers how much she enjoyed the taste of fresh warm blood while in her animal state, how sweet carrion bones tasted. Too bad she only transitions when her husband ventures out on blood sports once a month, she thinks. Placing the piece of meat into a cloth, she lays the bowl aside.
“What if I don’t want to remember any more? What if I want to let myself go and mate with a male hyena?”
“Now that would be a problem,” Owodunni said, furrowing his brows. “Besides I would have to kill the hyena.”
Duriya laughs. Then she turns serious and asks, “So, you’re not going to cast a death spell on my husband?”
“No, not yet.”
“Does this mean that your medicine is failing?”
“No, it just means that I have to find another road.”
“Another road?” she asks, shaking her head. “Sometimes you talk in riddles.”
“I have to work around my brother’s protection.”
“Your brother’s talisman?”
“Yes, they were given to both of us at birth. I had to abandon mine when I embraced Dogon medicine.”
“Dogon medicine will serve you better than Yoruba.”
“But it means the Yoruba deities no longer protect me. If I cast such a spell against my brother, I would become his enemy and those deities would turn against me. All of my plans to take over his kingdom would end before they even began.”
“This is much too difficult,” Duriya says. “Why can I not kill him? It would be so easy as a hyena. Besides, I might enjoy eating the king’s meat and bones.”
“You are forbidden to kill humans; it’s against the rules of the spell,” Owodunni says, squatting in front of her. “Otherwise you will remain a hyena forever and you will lose all memory of who you are. Do you want that to happen?”
“I’m getting tired of travelling this way,” Duriya says, sighing. “I might not come back to you the next time.”
“Don’t worry,” he says. “You are protected under my spell.”
“I don’t feel protected when I’m out there.”
“You can hold your own,” he says.
She looks at her lover, this middle-aged man of medium height, and marvels at his mahogany complexion and chiselled body. She might have been staring at her husband, except for the gray streak in the middle of his hair and the way his body seems to dance with the wind. That is why she prefers him.
“So, if we can’t destroy your brother then what’s the other road?”
“The other road is called patience.”
“Patience?” she asks, smirking. “I’m not sure if you’ll last, old man.”
“Ahh … you’re starting to talk like yourself,” his light brown eyes twinkle in the candlelight. He caresses her thigh. “How’s the soup?”
She dips her right index finger into the wooden bowl. It smells of tomatoes, onions, garlic, and peppers. Licking it, Duriya finds she is beginning to like the flavours. “It’s not so bad.”
“I’ve been waiting for you for too long,” Owodunni says. “Don’t make me wait another second.”
Owodunni wraps his arms around her and she clasps her thighs around his waist. They make love until dawn.
Afterwards, while Owodunni is fast asleep, Duriya finds a strand of hyena hair at the edge of the mat. It’s from the male hyena. Closing her eyes, she savours the memory of the wind hitting her fur out there on the plains. Clutching the hair, she thinks: just in case.
Felicity was born unhappy. She was conceived when her parents were young and unmarried. They wedded immediately then proceeded to use religion to punish themselves for as long as she lived with them. There were evening prayers filled with loud supplications to God to forgive them while she knelt there feeling every inch the mistake that they perceived her to be. There was the remittance of fifty percent of their income to the church, so that she never got those new shoes or money to go on the class’ excursion to Olumo Rock.
She grew up unhappy, too; sharing a tiny room with an older cousin who carried out the frustrations of being unemployed in a thriving city on her – slaps and kicks that left marks long after the physical scars had healed. Even when she ran away from home at nineteen – her bag heavy with money she’d stolen from her family – she remained unhappy. She paid for an apprenticeship at a tailor’s shop where she excelled. When she became assistant boss after a few years, she promptly poached all her employer’s good tailors to start her own business. But even then happiness eluded her.
Today, Felicity is a tall woman of forty-five with big feet and round shoulders that hunch forward. Her mouth is downturned and her thin bottom lip juts out, giving her a permanent look of one who has tasted something bitter. She is still unhappy and her tailors sometimes attribute her constant displeasure to her unmarried status.
“If man for dey, shebi im go dey smile?” They whisper among themselves.
She is on her way to buy sewing thread in bulk from Agege Market. She likes to do the shopping herself as she trusts no one. Her footsteps are heavy on the streets of the market, which are cluttered with Gala wrappers, unlucky Lotto tickets and juice from baskets of tomatoes. Her right arm hugs her handbag tight to herself while her left hand further protects it from grasping hands. She has been robbed before; her stern sneer hadn’t prevented them from approaching.
She walks past the men stretching out pairs of jeans, calling out to women younger and prettier than she is. She walks past the shops where the girls selling big Aso-oke and lace cloth look through her, searching for potential customers. But when she meets a crowd, Felicity stops.
It is her birthday today but she has told no one. There is no one to tell. She has no friends and she is not sociable enough with her staff to have them pretend to care. On this day every year, Felicity does something out of character. One year, she made herself a long red dress made of see-through chiffon. She stood in front of her mirror for hours in this dress, turning this way and that – never smiling, just staring. As she studied herself, she mentally tucked in a flab here and trimmed a bulge there, but she wasn’t satisfied. She squinted into the mirror, her mind hacking away at her person, imagining she was nothing but bones and that the red dress fluttered in the air.
Another year, she bought herself a huge bowl of ice-cream from the Big Treat Supermarket down the street and gave her staff the day off. Amongst the immobile sewing machines and headless mannequins, she sat in the silence of her shop and ate her banana-flavoured ice-cream spoon after spoon till the white of the plastic bottom stared back at her, the cold morsels settling in her belly like dead weight.
She moves toward the nucleus of the crowd to investigate its cause. People naturally step aside for the tall unsmiling woman. In the middle of the human circle is a small man selling potions. “Solutions,” he calls them. She hisses and starts to move away, shoving people aside, when she hears someone say to another: “Him say e be magician, o. E go soon show us.”
The mention of the word “magician” has made her pause because she decides right then that this will be her out-of-character thing: stopping to humour a trickster. She looks around at the swelling audience, their eyes wide in anticipation and she shakes her head at their naiveté. Magic. Ha!
She pushes her way back to the front of the crowd and stares at the wiry little magician. He is wearing a badly-tailored white dashiki: thread dangles from the hem of the trousers and the blouse is too short for his torso, making him look even shorter, like a dwarf. He is bald and his ashy lips and the smattering of bumps on his scalp give him an aura of ill health. Despite this, the man is jumpy. He dances from foot to foot as he proffers his potions to cure cancer, erectile dysfunction and bring home runaway husbands. His eyes flit from person to person, matching the excitement of his audience who have left their shops to be entertained, as if he too will be amazed by his own acts. Felicity shuffles in impatience.
And then it is time. Felicity observes that he stows away his proceeds before starting his magic show so that when things go awry he will not be totally disadvantaged. Smart, Felicity thinks. He introduces himself as Ayao and presents a low bow. He starts with a few card tricks and Felicity rolls her eyes at the banal opening.
A member of the crowd picks out a card, a lot of skipping and dancing is done and then he reveals the card picked at random to the exclamation and yelling of the people. They yelp in delight as he does this over and over. Felicity’s eyes follow his moves, trying to uncover the charade.
Then a hush falls. It is time for serious business.
Ayao asks for a volunteer.
“For what o?” someone yells and the people laugh. But she can hear the uneasiness pulsate in the air after their laughter has died down.
Ayao’s eyes are wide and dark as he turns in slow circles to take in his captive audience. “To fly,” he says.
There is a small, almost imperceptible general step back. Felicity almost laughs. Almost. She sees Ayao’s game: If everyone is too frightened to volunteer, the magician can feign disappointment and leave the market with his reputation intact.
And so she steps forward.
She can hear their surprise.
Ayao gestures for her to walk toward him. She does. He raises his left arm to shush the murmurs of the crowd.
“Do you believe?” He asks Felicity, his voice loud enough to carry over the crowd.
Felicity lowers her gaze so that she is staring at Ayao. His eyelashes are long and bushy, emphasizing the size of his eyes.
“No,” Felicity whispers, but in the quiet of the middle of the marketplace, it is just as loud.
“No?” Ayao asks, narrowing his eyes.
“No.”
Ayao moves away from her, stepping back foot by foot so that his eyes do not stray from hers.
“Do you want to drop your bag?” he asks.
“No,” Felicity repeats, her suspicion blatant.
“Okay.” Ayao walks back to her. He walks around her. He dances around her. Then he begins to chant:
“Ase Orisa lenu mi.
Ase Orisa lenu mi.”
On and on, he tries to reinforce the authority of the deities he is invoking.
“Ase Orisa lenu mi.
Ase Orisa lenu mi.”
Felicity stands there – still, waiting for him to tire.
But he goes on, louder and faster:
“Ase Orisa lenu mi!
Ase Orisa lenu mi!”
Felicity has seen a man fly once. He jumped off the Third Mainland Bridge with his arms stretched out in front of him. As the people around her honked and screamed, Felicity had envied his freedom.
Then there is smoke, as there always is in every tacky magician’s show. And then people are screaming.
Why are they screaming? Felicity raises an arm to clear the smoke in front of her eyes. But her arm doesn’t rise. Instead, feathers flap.
Suddenly, she is high above the ground looking down at the market people running away from Ayao. The magician gestures for her to come to him; she can see the panic in his eyes from where she floats. Ayao’s hands rise to his shiny head, then lower, then rise again. He gestures towards her again then turns on his heels and flees. Felicity can see him winding through the streets.
Someone has snatched her bag in the melee but she doesn’t care. She is far away from the chaos. She can now see a pattern to the rowdy market streets and Felicity thinks how tiny the world must look to God.
And then she’s off, because she cannot think of a reason not to go. The air here is so light and she is so buoyant. Felicity feels like she has been relieved of a lifelong burden of being. She is both overwhelmed and enthralled by the things her new body is doing. How is she so weightless but still so strong? She slices through the air as she moves farther and farther from the market scene. She smiles. But there is no one to see it. Nobody to witness what it is for a bird to smile.
Felicity wants to see herself. She wants to stare at her new form the way she did when she wore that long red dress. What type of bird is she? Is she colourful? Is she as black as the unhappiness that now seems so foreign to her? She opens her mouth but she has never heard the warble that escapes. She knows nothing about birds.
Felicity heads towards a high-rise building with a glass exterior.
She starts to descend towards the building. Closer and closer, her reflection comes towards her. She squints to bring the fuzz into focus. And then there is a boom. She has hit the glass, beak-first. Pain jolts through her small frame in reverberations and the world goes black.
Felicity feels herself falling and falling and as she falls she feels the heaviness of her being return.
When she crashes into the ground, she is Felicity again. She is engulfed in pain. It overwhelms her so that she starts to weep. Felicity thinks: do birds cry? When she tries to move, pain shoots out from her joints in waves – her bones are broken.
Someone screams “Amusu!” and another yells “Aje!” then there is a circle of people around her, calling her witch in their various languages. And she feels so weak, so weak and so tired. Blood seeps from unidentified gashes and she twitches with every fresh flood of pain. Now she is the show.
A stone smacks into her back and rolls to the floor, red with her blood. She realises that she is naked. Then other stones follow. The people close in, their fear chokes her – how does something thing fall as a bird and land as a woman? – their horror bites at her shredded skin like sand flies. Her body feels weighed down, more than it has ever been, beneath their stones and their words.
A feather flutters within her view and Felicity is reminded of her temporary weightlessness. She is in pain now, but she flew! She flew!
There are more voices and more stones but Felicity succumbs to the rising within her. Her body sinks further into the ground, but she is leaving it behind and rising and rising…
The two of us gathered about Feria and stared at her wrist with shiny eyes.
“Waow,” Indo said and ran her stubby fingers over the rubber band of the brand-new device on Feria’s wrist. “It’s so cute it could orgasm me.”
“It is,” Feria replied with a casual flick of said wrist. “It’s like, everything I’ll ever need.” She twisted her slender light-skinned arm like this and that, showing off the inscriptions written in reflective black on the thick, pink band: Beat the Habit and Nothing is Impossible.
“Nice,” I said. This wasn’t just something, it was the something. “How much?”
Feria shrugged. “Sammy, he got it for me.”
Uzzi sauntered into class then, the usual over-eager smile plastered on his face. We sat in a corner at the back as usual, away from the light of the Teaching Screen that undergraduate classes in Pan-Atlantic Uni, Lagos, now employed. Uzzi wove between rows of buzzing Biz-Admin students dressed in their Friday jeans and tight everythings. He took the empty seat beside me.
“Hey girls!” Uzzi always smelt of too much perfume and hair gel and today, like every other day, he wore derbies under jeans and a tucked-in shirt.
“Feria bought a HaBeat,” Indo announced.
Uzzi’s eyes widened and Feria gave a modest smile that, because I know Feria, was not really modest at all.
“Nahh! Where–how?”
“Sammy.” She smiled again. “He says I spend too much time online, so he got it to help.”
“Do you spend too much time online?” Indo asked. Indo was that one person amongst your friends who said or asked things no one dared to say or ask.
Feria shrugged. “Never really thought about it. I guess it’s the HaBeat’s job to tell me now.”
Uzzi leaned in across me, excitement written on his face. “Show us.”
To be fair, it resembled nothing more than a plain rubber wearable. Mummy once referred to it as stinky overpriced rubber because, well yes, it did cost close to the latest Keyless Mac. But she was just a school principal, she couldn’t understand.
Feria pointed to a curved bulging rectangle in the middle of the band, about the size of a small flash drive. “I heard the main thing is like a sort of tiny computer here.”
“Chip,” I corrected. I knew more about tech stuff than all of them put together.
“Chip, yes. Right, Yeji.”
We nodded. And when Feria stared at us like: that’s all there is to it, I offered.
“When it touches your skin, the chip tracks everything. Activity, sleep, behavioural triggers –whatnot. It’s paired by wireless to this HaBeat app that syncs around everything, even your car system. With it, you set goals and milestones for breaking or forming particular habits from, let’s say trying not to spend so much time online, to quitting smoking or keeping your bad driving in check.”
“How na?” Indo said. “How will it know?”
“Oh, it knows,” Feria said. “It’ll tell you once you’re doing it wrong.”
“So, with what, like alarms or something?” Uzzi inquired.
“Well…yeah, for some people,” Feria said and lowered her head. “Mine’s a bit different. It, uhm, it deducts a specific amount from my bank account.”
Mild gasps went around. Uzzi threw his head back and laughed.
“That’s some real shit,” he said. “Debit alerts ‘cause you live on the net?”
“Why would you want to do that?” Indo asked. “What if you like, have a relapse and the thing makes you go bankrupt?”
“I didn’t set it. Sammy did. He says it’s the only way to keep me loyal to the cause.”
“That’s… huh,” I said, at a loss for words. The others, too, creased their brows.
Feria shrugged again. “There are other ways, though. Some people get mild electric shocks, some use alarms, though the alarms are really loud and weird and embarrassing. Some others get rotten messages posted to their socialverse accounts.”
“Waow,” Indo said.
“That’s so… draconian,” I said.
“Englisher,” Indo hissed. “Me, I like it. It’s exactly what I need for my weight.”
I did buy the idea of a habit-breaking wearable, though I didn’t dig shocks or debits. But I knew immediately that Indo was right, and I too, needed the damn thing. If only to save me from my one unbreakable habit.
*****
The HaBeat’s half-price offer on DealDey stood at one-ninety-nine-k before it sold out. I lay in my small bed in my small room in the small Island apartment my parents could barely afford (even with just one child) and stared at my old Xperia screen, trying to convince myself I didn’t need this thing that bad. Besides, what yarn was I going to spin to Daddy about getting me that money, anyway? But my fantasies of the device refused to be quenched, fuelled by both stellar reviews I saw on vidblogs and the #MyHaBeatAndI selfies piling up on the socialverse.
And it didn’t help any when Indo buzzed me:
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: Babe
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: I gorrit o
<Yejide>: :-O
<Yejide>: Issalie
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)> has sent you a photo.
<Yejide>: The yellow one! \O/ Balling!
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: Balling ke? It’s my elder bro in UK I obtained sef.
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: He’s been promising me the new Keyless, but I just asked him for a HaBeat instead. :-$
<Yejide>: Nice. 🙂
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: I set mine to electric shock. I think that will work best for me.
<Yejide>: Won’t it be painful?
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: Not really. It has shocked me twice already. It’s not that bad.
<Yejide>: Oh? What did you do?
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: I set Early Rising, Workout and Light Breakfast goals.
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: I woke up late and got shocked
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: Then I paused during workout and got shocked again, until I continued.
<Yejide>: Wow.
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: So, when are you getting one?
<Yejide>: Lmao! Getting one indeed. You go buy?
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: Everyone needs one na. Uzzi got one last week. You know he’s trying to quit his impulse shopping.
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: You’re the only one left.
I paused and stared at that last message, thinking how I did need it, more than anybody in the world knew, but for reasons I couldn’t quite tell her. So I stared at my phone screen some more and typed nothing.
#
Phones quickly lost the perpetual blue-and-white screens of instant messaging and microblogging apps, quietly replaced by the black-and-grey interface of the HaBeat Social. Complete with charts and dials and instant messaging, this was where HaBeat owners could team up with friends and push the zap button when one of them missed a milestone, making achieving goals more likely.
At Pan-At, everyone had one. They giggled to one another and discussed nothing but milestones and goals for hours, with both real friends and virtual ones. They were joyous, like they had this renewed zeal to achieve, like their lives had just kickstarted.
Not me, of course.
If you know my parents, then you’d know it was moot even trying to explain the HaBeat’s importance to them. It had taken three years of convincing just to get Daddy to see that buying me an eBike made more sense than handing down his old 2016 Cerato. I mean, who got held up in Lagos jams any more when you could go a steady 20 mph on the free bike lanes?
Mummy had even shut off the SmartKitchen program and its accompanying appliances that came with our apartment. I usually turned it on while cooking to surf recipes on the projector, or to run the dishwasher and cooker with gestures. One day, I forgot to turn it off and minutes later Mummy was fuming at the SmartAssistant.
“I said I’ll boil the potatoes as long as I want!”
I giggled, and she turned on me.
“I’ve told you, Yejide: If machines wash your rice, peel your yam and tell you how much pepper to add, what is your role in the cooking? Why not just allow them to also think for you?”
I laughed. “Mummy, it’s not that serious now.”
“Quiet! When you get your own house, let technology do everything there – that’s your business. But if you touch my kitchen again, I’ll slice your fingers.”
How did they say it: you can’t put new wine in old skins? I had to use Plan B.
I had to. I didn’t want to hurt anybody anymore.
#
The only corridor in our house runs from the living down to the back door. The master bedroom takes up one whole side of the wall and its door is at the end of the corridor – a long way off from my room, which is near the beginning. At night, it gets quite dark down here, as there are no windows and the lights are kept turned off, because they’d filter into everyone’s rooms.
It was in this darkness that I tiptoed, wearing stockings to muffle my footfalls, past the kitchen, past the living, to door of the master bedroom. Soundless. Nothing new. I had done this so many times, it was second nature now. Besides, Daddy was the light sleeper in the house and he was away for work. I knew not to come here when he was around.
The door was open a crack, and I nudged it further and went past the king bed to the wardrobe. The wardrobe door used to creak, until I finally stuffed the hinges with tissue paper. It didn’t creak now as I opened it.
Ancient soul that he was, Daddy still stored cash at home, in a fanny pack on the third-level shelf. Disarranged, so I knew he didn’t count it. I pulled out two five-thousand-naira notes, stuffed the remaining back, and completed my exit as I had entered.
Just a little at a time, I told myself as I walked back to my room. He won’t notice. Just a few more times, then it’ll all be over for good.
#
My father is a smallish man, all thick and hairy arms weathered by the many different breezes in the many different countries he has visited on business. Some days he reminds me of a small grizzly. When I was little, I used to rub my face in his bushy arms, shrieking in delight when he would chase me about the house and threaten to get me lost in them.
On a hot Saturday afternoon a few days after his return, we went out for the family time out we took whenever he came back from a long trip. It was usually us three but Mummy was absent this time. Only after we parked outside a Yellow Chilli outlet in Victoria Island did I realize this was by design.
I could tell he was distracted, even though he smiled all through the banter on the way over. Daddy always smiled, so that meant nothing. It was his eyes; they were weighed down by a certain kind of sadness.
Our order was delivered, and halfway through my baked yams and grilled fish, he blurted it out.
“I know you’ve been taking my money.”
The fish on my fork jumped back to the plate, splattering onion sauce on my pastel blue blouse. I looked down at it and kept my eyes there, too ashamed to bring them back up to face him.
“I’ve known for a while that pinches go missing every then and now. There’re only three of us in the house, and of course it wasn’t your mother. I just didn’t want to believe it was you.”
I opened my mouth to say something, but only the smell of onions and shame came out. A ball formed in my throat and a lone tear jiggled down my left cheek.
Daddy saw it and reached across the table for my hand. I flinched, then slowly withdrew it and folded my arms. I didn’t want him to touch me; I was too dirty.
“I don’t love you any less, Yeji. You’re still my one cherished thing in this life. I’ll not stop loving you because of a few thousand naira.” He shook his head. “But this kind of habit, it can get you in big trouble. If you get caught by someone else…”
He dropped off, leaving me to imagine the consequences. As if I hadn’t imagined them a million times over myself. I had never stolen from anyone else besides him, but I couldn’t even find the voice to tell him that. I just stared down at the circles of oil widening on my blouse and let the lone tear run.
My father came around the table to my side and wrapped his small grizzly arms about my neck. I couldn’t say a word, fighting back tears. He held me the way he had when I was little, his prickly arm hair tickling my cheeks and the insides of my neck, so that I felt like his little girl once again.
“Just ask me for anything,” he said, rubbing my shoulder. “Anything. If you really need it, I’ll give you. But please, please, I beg you. Please don’t steal from me – or anyone – again. Ever.”
It was too much. I began to cry.
I cried for a long time and he held me, rocking me gently and giving reassuring smiles to onlookers in the restaurant. When I had exhausted all my tears, he took me by the hand and we went home.
I had never felt lighter than I did leaving Yellow Chilli that Saturday evening, and with that came the understanding that I never needed a HaBeat for anything in the first place.
#
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: Where’re you?
<Yejide>: Parking my bike. The others?
<:-* Indo-Nesia B-)>: Yuhp. They here.
Feria and Uzzi were seated with Indo at an outdoor Johnny Rockets stand when I got into Royals, the little mall on the only major intersection in our neighbourhood, far east off Lekki-Epe. They chatted in quick speech, and as I came closer, I realized they were talking about milestones and goals – as usual. They all had their HaBeats on: Indo’s yellow, Feria’s pink and Uzzi’s ankara all standing out on their African skin. Funny how it made them blend in more than stand out, seeing as almost everyone else in the mall was wearing one. It was I, whose wrist was adorned by a locally-made Asante bracelet, who stood out like a rose in a desert.
Uzzi saw me first and shrieked as usual. I smiled and shrugged as I sat at the table. Indo stared at my wrist with a quizzical look, then leaned in towards me. The diner chair creaked as she did. She seemed to have gotten bigger since the last time I saw her.
“Thought you said you were going to, ehm, ‘buy’ it somehow?” She whispered.
I smiled. “Nah.”
She lifted her eyebrows, and Uzzi saw.
“What?” he asked, looking from Indo to me and back.
“Yeji says she doesn’t need a HaBeat,” Indo said.
Remind me to kill Indo one day for her leaking mouth?
Uzzi adopted the same quizzical look. “How na? It’s like WiFi. Everybody needs it.”
I shook my head. “It’s my problem. I’ll fix it.”
“What d’you mean?” This was one of the rare times Uzzi grew serious. “Babe, the days of relying on our human selves to fix things are gone. This is a computer. It’s a hundred percent assurance that you’re becoming a better person.”
I smiled and said nothing.
Uzzi tapped Feria like: Look, you’re missing loads of crazy. Feria, who hadn’t so much as glanced up from the phone she was furiously tap-tap-tapping on, didn’t even flinch. There might as well have been a hurricane and at she wouldn’t have looked up.
“But don’t you feel…odd?” Indo asked.
I shrugged. “Why?”
Uzzi and Indo glanced at one another, then looked back at me the way you would look at someone who didn’t know they were stupid.
“Okay o,” Uzzi said and rose. “Na you know. Me, I’m hungry. Let’s do KFC. Feria’s paying.”
He bent and picked up – I counted two, three, four – Paul Smith bags stuffed with shirts, shoes and collectibles, and he went in the direction of the swing doors. Indo rose and went too, huffing and puffing with each step, beckoning to me to come along. Feria followed, her head downward, eyes fixed on her phone and fingers doing spider combos on its screen.
I lingered for a beat, watching the three of them go into the crowd of HaBeats. Then I stood and followed, smiling to myself all over again.
The street is quiet. Mosquitoes sing an octave higher than the hum of electricity, often absent. My bed feels like a pallet of lead but I don’t thrash; I lie still as death. I am sweating from wearing three shirts and a sweater over two jeans and a pair of shorts. I click the heels of my boots against each other to keep myself awake.
I hear her in the other room, a drunken bee dancing around our things singing something I can’t piece together in a droning voice. She has been drinking, slowly, but with a determination I almost admire, since seven. It’s nearly three am. That’s nearly eight hours if you discredit the fact that she was hung over even then. I don’t grudge her drinking; if I had as much courage as she did, I’d do the same.
A loud crash comes from the passageway and then the muffled thud of her body hitting concrete, like the sound you make when you punch a pillow. I don’t move immediately; I wait ten, then twenty minutes. Just to make sure. Then I crawl off the mattress, feeling my way in the darkness towards the door that joins the halves of our two-room apartment. I freeze when in the near dark I spot a lump. She is splayed out in the doorway, half of her body in ‘my’ room. If I had stretched out my hand any further, I would have touched her, my mother.
I skirt around her body, it takes some contorting but I manage it without touching her. Even dead with drink, I can feel it; the pull of our telepathic connection. Being this close to her it is almost physical, like someone tugging on your arm, but I hold my breath and press my fingernails hard into my palm to distract myself. The front door takes some savvy to pry open but once I slip out into the dark, I feel free. Alive in a way that I had never felt before. I start to run and I haven’t stopped running since.
Applause rings from the circle around the fire. She stares at the flames, her cheeks flushed. They all look at her with pride, with such hope and she hates that she can read each one of them like an augury. They want to make her a leader, but she doesn’t want any of it.
“You’re so lucky, Maki. You never went to reform school. It’s horrible,” they chorus.
Almost all the girls on the street were there because they had been kicked out of the reform schools for being unable to learn the ‘dainty’ crafts. They have never seen anyone who has voluntarily escaped from a parent, a family unit. Even a dysfunctional one. It amazes Maki how excited they get each time she tells the story, how eager they are.
She looks around the circle at the other girls, the youngest is thirteen and only a few weeks old in her new life as a street feral. Liesl is the name she has been given because, like the girl in The Sound of Music, she loves to whistle. The day they found her, she was sprawled on a rubbish heap, cigarette scabs on her inner thighs and a festering burn on her back. They brought her to Maki to clean her wounds. While she had daubed the blistered flesh clean, she’d found pieces of singed polyester cloth in the sores. She hasn’t been able to get the image out of her head since.
Someone else begins to enrapture the audience with a story of her own, but Liesl keeps staring at her long after everyone has turned away. When the fire settles into bright orange embers and the circle breaks for the night, Liesl follows her, puppy-like, and sits beside her as she transforms a disused table into a cove. At first, Maki ignores Liesl; it is the only way to discourage fawning. She hears Liesl’s heart speed up each time a strange sound pierces the silence of the night, feels the fear that keeps her awake. She is only half sure of her decision when she raises her ratty blanket and says:
“Just for tonight.”
#
A shriek sends a tremor through everyone. She is up on her feet and running before she is even fully awake, her hand a tight fist around Liesl’s wrist. Liesl stumbles and slows them down but she holds on and keeps running. More shrieks erupt behind her and Liesl seizes up. The police officers are shouting commands, interspersed by the meaty crack of their batons breaking bone through skin.
A number of street ferals run past her towards the complicated maze of decrepit buildings that is the slum they all escaped once, but she keeps the course, braving the exposure of the open field. She knows if they can make it to the swamps around the lagoon, they will be safe; the police would never bother chasing her there. Everyone knows dangerous, dark things happen in the swamps, that batons and guns are useless there. Liesl screams behind her and falls. Maki releases her hand just in time to see her convulse as five hundred volts of electricity pumps into her body through the taser barb in her thigh.
“Maki!” Liesl screams.
It surges up from her belly, the magic that lives inside her, spreading to her arms and pooling in her voice box, begging to be used. It is like liquid fire in her body – supercharged. She stretches her hand in the direction of the wire connected to the barb, at the policeman cradling the taser gun on its other end. Just a thought, a single command would the power inside hurtling through space to devour him.
To stop is to be caught.
To live on the street is to live alone.
She remembers the words, repeated by every street feral from the day they slip the leash and become ‘free’. Her hand falls to her side and she averts her eyes from Liesl, who is already foaming at the lips. She’s been juiced for too long, possible brain damage. Maki ignores the magic howling in anguish in her head and turns away, making for the marsh.
#
The swamps aren’t as deadly as everyone makes them out to be, not for someone like Maki. Every sentient thing is lit up like a small beacon of life, so she knows where to step and where to duck. She slowly wades through the brackish water, chasing away water snakes with a stick. The bigger ones know to stay away from her; they can sense the thing living inside her. That was why their house never had rodents, why as a girl dogs gave her wide berth. She feels like she’s been walking for days though she knows it’s only been hours. Still she pushes on without rest. Her thoughts return constantly to Liesl.
I let them take her. I’m worse than my mother.
She wonders how long it will take them to identify the young girl and return her to her parents. She wonders if Liesl’s parents were one of the ones who went to the State for help with handling their ‘difficult’ children. Whether she knew that her mother had been one of the 942 women in her generation born with magic. The magic that the State harnessed into the drone army that revolutionized their world. She regrets never asking Liesl if she knew what she was, regrets not telling her she wasn’t alone.
She starts to cry, knee deep in swamp water, wet, shaking and alone. This moment of weakness is all the magic inside her needs. She doesn’t notice the warmth spreading up and through her until her cheeks start to warm. By then it is too late to will it back down.
She feels her spine stiffen; her legs grow immobile underneath her. Like light, it suffuses her cells, until she feels herself rise out of the water, and hover in the air. Slowly it reaches her brain and subsumes it and she feels her awareness widen, growing wider, till all of her skin is a giant eye. She sees through the trees of the swamp, past thousands of miles, through the shanties of the slum and the concrete of the city, past the bulletproof glass of the New Lagos’s hovering buildings, to a spacious corner office where a coal-skinned woman in a black dress, sleek greying hair fringing her nape is poring over blueprints. Like an involuntarily sigh, the words escape her:
“Mother.”
The woman’s head snaps up like a hound’s, as though she can hear Maki from hundreds of miles away. She abandons the blueprints, moves towards the window and presses her face against the glass. Her mother feels so close in that moment that Maki is tempted to reach out and touch her.
The woman’s eyes widen.
“Maki.”
The wave of longing that hits Maki leaves her gasping. It’s all she needs to reclaim control of her body. She forces the magic to retract itself into a tiny ball of consciousness. Free of its control, gravity returns swiftly, plunging her into the brackish water. She rises, her afro drenched and speckled with slime.
She starts to wade quickly through the water, making for cover but it is of no use. She cannot shake the feeling of being watched. She can no longer ignore the magic inside her, now rebelliously asserting its presence with a queasiness that makes her want to bend over and vomit. Despite the nausea, she needs to find a hiding place before sundown. Her mother will tell the police where she is, and they will come for her.
#
The streets are empty of ferals. The silence is haunting; nights in the slums are usually filled with chatter and the crackling of furniture repurposed as firewood. Her steps are coltish, wobbly from the strain of wading through the muddy swamp for hours. She doesn’t dare return to any of her haunts; the police would have already found them. Ferals might be great at hiding but they turn easily once they are caught. There is only one thing to do: find a hiding place in New Lagos.
She slinks in the shadows, tense as a power line. The magic in her pulses, barely restrained. The temptation is always there: to give a little and allow the magic suffuse her. She could then levitate herself several feet through an open window and find dry clothes and a warm bed for the night. But she resists. Instead it is 30 minutes of lurking and backpedalling and then a tight squeeze through a hole dug under the separating fence and she is in New Lagos.
The slums are relics of a time when grounding buildings was the only way to ensure structural integrity but now, with people of her kind, levitation is the new craze. Plexiglas squares hover in clusters above the ground, their ultramodern, LCD-lit angles casting knife-edged shadows. She scuttles underneath the first one, checking to see if anything moves in the darkness.
Cast in silhouette in one of the windows of the nearest high rise is a family, their short-haired sons whipping around the legs of subdued parents. Across the lush landscape this scene is repeated, over and over in each lit window. There are barely any girls, anywhere. They are all gone. The darkness remains inky, foreboding. The next tenement building is floating towards her; bigger than the stationary one she is under, more likely to give cover. But the space she has to cross to get to it will leave her exposed. There isn’t much of a choice, she has barely a minute before it passes. She springs into the space between them and shrieks as the world explodes in light.
“Stop! We have you cornered!”
The magic inside her starts to flex, pushing inquisitive tentacles. Let me help you. The light is too bright, and it traps her in place like amber. There is no other option. For the second time in one day, she relinquishes control, this time voluntarily, and lets the magic spread. It rushes like heat, expanding, betraying its presence through the sheen of sweat that suddenly coats her exposed skin.
Voluntarily acknowledging the magic is very different from being forcefully possessed. Because it isn’t siphoning energy into wresting control, all of its power is at her disposal; it is giddying. She splays her hands and the floodlights trained on her explode in a shower of sparks, plunging everything into darkness, but it still hurts too much to open her eyes. She feels the lightness again, the laws of physics bending to her whims.
Then pain, sharp as a lance, pierces her right shoulder blade. A tidal wave of electricity pours into her from that point. She convulses, shaking like a leaf. She tries to hold on to consciousness but it is too hard, too painful. The magic is a coward; she feels it flee, retreating from her fried nerve endings, squeezing into itself till it is a tiny pinprick of usurping life in her gut. She hates it in that moment. That revulsion is the last emotion to bloom as the taser peaks and the world collapses around her.
#
The world is like a sepia photograph when she awakes, bathed in tepid brown light. Her jaw aches, her throat is dry. She looks down instinctively and sees her arms and feet are shackled to a metal chair welded to the floor. The design of the chair is archaic. There is a butterfly syringe head taped to her forearm; the IV package it is attached to is empty. She cannot tell how long she has been in this room, but because the magic doesn’t sleep when she does, she knows that it’s been four days since they took her.
She is sure someone is watching her through the mirrored wall. She tries to reach the magic inside her but now that she needs it, it won’t come. It is barely a sliver and she is half afraid that she might be imagining it is still there. She waits, hoping that someone will come and talk to her, an external force to move the stationary object. She waits and waits, but no one comes. She thrashes against her restraints in frustration, chafing her wrists and ankles. Droplets of blood dripping off her mark time and still no one comes. Exhausted, she settles in for the long haul.
#
The door creaks open, alerting her. It has been hours at least. How many, she can’t say. She raises her head and sucks in a deep breath.
Dressed in a lilac jacket dress that perfectly complements her coal-black skin, with black pumps and pantyhose, her mother looks like something out of a noir film. There is no security detail with her. With the kind of power radiating off her, she doesn’t need security. Beneath her sleek grey hair, her mother’s pupils are ashen. Maki recognises the symptoms of end stage cataracts. It is disconcerting to watch these near-sightless eyes track her every move, even in the weird light. Her mother notices her staring and chuckles.
“My eyes? They’ll go white eventually. By then I’ll have already lost my sight. The price we pay for using the Sentience. But I’m one of the luckier ones. I doubt I’ll need it.”
Maki stays silent. Her magic is reacting to the presence of another user, ballooning to assert its presence. ‘Preening’ is the word that comes to mind. Her mother paces the room, her heels clicking on the ribbed Plexiglas floor. The sound is grating. Watching her gives Maki a chill, this woman is nothing like the person she ran away from. Her back is too straight, her gaze is too focused, her clothes too put together. Her mother’s movements are measured but graceful, as though she is moving underwater. But there is a lapse in her gait, a split second glitch that precedes everything she does. It’s almost gyroscopic, as though the world is slightly tilting to accommodate her. It takes a minute of watching for Maki to realise it is not her mother but the room that’s glitching, shifting to centre her – like everything else in her life.
“What happened to you?” Maki asks.
The knowing chuckle resurfaces. “After you left, I had no reason to pretend. No reason to fight what was inside me.”
Maki sighs. “You know why I ran away: You told me to.”
“Yes, I did.” Her mother says, idly scrutinizing her nails. “But I was a drunk, depressed woman; you didn’t have to listen to me.”
“I was eight years old.”
Maki realises why her mother keeps pacing the room. The moment she stops moving, she starts to levitate, only slightly. It is almost beautiful to see the magic fully symbiotic with its host.
“Do you know what that did to me, when you told me to go?”
“Oh, that,” her mother scoffs. “I was only trying to be a better mother to you than mine was to me. You know she never told me about the Sentience? Pretended not to notice when I levitated stuff, when I started to read minds, even as her own Sentience turned her into a bowed old hag. The day I killed her, she was still denying.”
“Magic.” Maki murmurs.
“What?”
Maki raises her voice. “It’s a magic, the thing inside us.”
Her mother gives her a strange look then shakes her head. “No honey bee, it’s not that simple. The thing living inside us is not magic; it’s an advanced parasite we call the Sentience. One not hundreds. It found a way to separate its component cells and transplant itself into the First Generation: the women who started the industrial revolution.”
She gestures with her finger and the room expands, groaning from the stress of reconstituting itself. Maki’s chair shrinks, immobilizing her even more. Maki struggles not to howl.
“What you call magic is its framework. All its cells are still connected by telepathic links. We the hosts strengthen that link with our bodies, and in return we get to use that telepathic highway to manipulate the things and people trapped within its matrix. With each generation, our bodies get stronger, better at supporting its power.”
Maki can feel her Sentience vibrate inside her. Every inch of her roils and her core burns so brightly she is afraid she’ll belch fire if she opens her mouth. She fights the Sentience silently with the techniques she learned from years as a runaway: breathe slow, focus on a single point, breathe some more. She understands now why sometimes her Sentience tries to possess her for no reason; this proximity to another cell is driving it crazy.
“You could have gone anywhere! Why did you stay even though you knew what this thing is?”
“Awwww,” her mother crows, “you know nothing about what is inside you. Do you know why this place is named New Lagos? The Sentience won’t leave the lagoon. My guess is there is something in its filthy depths that makes us able to host its cells. Your grandmother dared to leave, but then again she was always a fool.”
Maki hesitates. “My grandmother?”
Her mother’s façade slips, but for a second. “My mother… She only lived to be thirty four. I killed her myself when I was fifteen. She welcomed it. There is nothing worse than having a Sentience but refusing to manipulate it. Using the Sentience has a price, but so does fighting it. She was idealistic, like you. What I did to her was a mercy. A mercy I now regret never extending to you.”
White hot rage erupts inside Maki and she tries to lunge for her mother. The restraints catch at the last minute, halting her mid-lunge. The shackles have broken her skin again and a single rivulet of blood travels down the arm of her chair.
Her mother’s filmy eyes slant into a murderous glare. She flicks her wrist and the room tilts sharply, throwing Maki against her restraints. She twists her hands and the chair mimics her movement like a marionette, its metal limbs contorting around Maki’s body into a grotesque wireframe cocoon. Her mother gestures again and the cocoon sails across the room until the tines protruding from the frame trap her against the far wall.
“I should have never had a child,” she says. “I never wanted one. I wanted to end the generational cycle. But I was naïve and the Sentience had turned me into a raving sex freak, denying me its power until you were born. That is how it works. But history won’t repeat itself – not if I have anything to do with it.”
Alien energy surges through Maki. Finally, she acknowledges it and lets go of the reins. The result is orgasmic. Her body flushes with delight and every inch of her feels alive. She can see hundreds of shimmering bands of energy, a lattice that engulfs her and her mother.
Maki’s Sentience reaches for the nearest band and drains energy from it. She spasms violently, her body pries the metal cage she’s trapped in out of the wall and hurtles it into the air. It shatters into bits of twisted metal.
Her mother’s eyes widen and the room is suddenly flooded with white light. A part of the wall has slid open and men in misshapen green uniforms and tasers swarm the room. A single thought is enough to divert a band of energy that hardens like taffy and pins them to the wall. She commands the band to tighten and it constricts; the men scream in terror.
“If you let me go, I promise not to kill them.”
Her mother cackles, and flicks her wrists. The band Maki has manipulated around the policemen thins into a rope with the consistency of a fishing line. Her mother closes her hand into a fist and the rope tightens, threading their necks like an iridescent necklace. None even has time to gasp before the rope slices clean through their necks. Heads roll grotesquely across the floor between them and the band returns its original form.
Her mother cleans blood from her cheeks with mild disgust. “Don’t underestimate me.”
Maki reaches telepathically for the biggest energy band and pulls it to herself. She can hear the distant murmurs of the lives of other hosts through sift through it. It is disconcerting.
When her mother’s wrist starts to move, she is ready. She drapes herself in the energy, willing it to coat her. Her Sentience is all too eager to oblige. She fans the energy out, repelling it from her Sentience with all her strength. It floods the room like a giant wave. Her temples start to ache and her vision blurs momentarily. The force of the sonic wave sends her mother spiralling. The room starts to tilt and the older woman flails, skidding in the drying blood.
Maki sees it as an opening. She lets the Sentience lift her into an energy band and shoot her forward, towards the sliding door which starts to yawn at her approach. Just a few feet left, she thinks and she pushes herself harder. The Plexiglas room veers sharply to the right and she slams into the side wall. She tries to manipulate the room but the energy doesn’t seem to respond to her anymore.
Her mother is now on her feet, bloodied and fuming. She makes a series of deft swats with her hands and the energy dances, swaddling Maki and constricting her until she sees spots dance before her eyes. She heaves violently for air but she is too tightly wound. The Sentience is a drum beating in her skull, nagging for control. She cannot concentrate long enough to silence it, she’s dying.
She feels her Sentience spread its consciousness and a sharp jolt of energy whips through her, splicing the cocoon. It dissipates instantly and she keels forward, gasping for air. She manages to lift her head up. The horror of what she sees makes her blanch. Her mother is nailed to the wall by the interrogation chair, its aluminium legs mangled into tines. Her head lolls lifelessly to the side, her hazel eyes obscured by cataracts. Maki starts to cry.
Then her mother’s body begins to thrash expanding her wounds. Her neck straightens mechanically and her mouth opens wider than any human should be capable of. What pours out is a foot-long worm with moist, fetid skin streaked with blood. Tiny pockmarked holes across its length hold inverted eyestalks. Maki tries to scream but her larynx seizes up. The thing starts to crawl to her. She tries to stand but her joints have also locked. She feels her Sentience exerting control and dread fills her. The thing crawls into her lap, leaving a trail of slime. She struggles harder, but it’s futile, nothing moves.
It slugs over her shirt, between her breasts and then coils around her neck, lengthening till it is three feet long. Her jaws unhinge at the behest of her own Sentience and the new Sentience slips its amorphous head down her throat. The sensation is one of the worst things she’s ever felt; nausea without of the relief of vomiting. With a tiny flick against her palate, the new Sentience finishes its journey into her. Feeling returns, first to her face, then her limbs. She manages to stand, struggles to make sense of what happened. She can feel the nauseating sensation of her Sentience making space for this new thing, expanding in ways she never thought possible. She knows now that her Sentience is not on her side and that her body, just a shell, is ready to betray her.
With two inside her, the bands of energy seems stronger, corporeal even. There is no time to dally, not now. Surviving the moment is her only concern. She runs into the hallway and her senses expand. She can feel the girls abducted in the raid, like flickers of light. She senses Liesl, three floors down, restrained. And others. Hundreds more, sparkling like lights at the corners of her eyes. Their pain is tangible.
She knows they are coming for her but she cannot leave all those girls in the hands of these people. She sinks her fingers into an energy band, connecting to it. She forces it to thicken, not just the one but all the bands that encompass the building. They join at the edges and grow into sheets that traverse each floor. There are thirty-four floors, two hundred and seventy-six girls, two thousand people in total. The amount of information that the bands can collect astounds her.
She sends a command and the sheets increase in density. Beads of sweat pop up on her forehead from the effort of what she is doing. The building starts to plummet. The force finds the mechanism that keeps the doors shut and fries them. Doors start to open, popping out of place with a mechanical shlick. Restraints twist and spring open. The building finally slams into the earth with a sickening thud, bringing everyone to their knees. Shrieks of joy as the girls realise they are free confirm that her mother was telling the truth: the neural pathway works.
Through the plexiglass door she can see the vague shapes of policemen as they appear at the end of the hallway holding tasers, she can hear their muffled screaming. Shots ring and the door fractures. A few kicks bring it down. She waits as long as she can to give the other girls time, then she flees, turning the first corner. She hears a taser barb sing past her ear, a few inches shy. She calls to the Sentience but it doesn’t respond. She is on her own.
“Stop!”
Running seems futile so she obeys, turns to the sound.
“Help me!” She whispers to the Sentience under her breath.
At the other end of the corridor is a phalanx of kevlar suits and muscled bodies, arms outstretched, weapons pointed. She senses her Sentience awaken but only slightly.
Then she feels it, the first pang. A rawness in her throat, a hunger lower down.
It wafts in the air, pheromones. Her body responds to it, shuddering. She can smell them from across the hallway. The policemen. Sweat on each of the male officers, distinct like perfume notes, separating them, picking out the most virile, the most likely to impregnate her.
How easily you could get any one of them to sleep with you. Just a thought, one energy band.
Her thighs grow slick at the thought of it.
NO!
She digs her fingers into her fist, presses her legs together.
“What the hell is wrong with me?!” She screams, startling the policemen.
The epiphany is as subtle as a brick to the face. The parasite needs to be transferred from one generation to the next. Through parturition. From to mother to daughter. Her Sentience wants this. It has slowly orchestrated everything to bring her to this point. Even now, it is subtly manipulating her, trying to override her logic with hormones. It is growing stronger; she is losing control of her body. She remembers her mother’s words, realises they were earnest, not vicious.
I didn’t want a child… I tried to break the generational cycle. The Sentience forced me…
“How did I miss this? How?” She whispers in disbelief.
Looking through the window beside her, she can see the girls, nearly a hundred and twenty feet below her, pouring out onto the street like a swarm of brightly coloured insects. They are oblivious to what she now knows: Each one of them is destined to be forced into a standoff with their mothers, doomed to matricide for the survival of creature within them. Saving them might not have changed anything. Grief engulfs her.
There is a corridor to the right but she knows she won’t make it that far without getting caught. She cannot concern herself now with the future; all that matters is now, escaping those men, breaking the cycle. The window, three paces away, is her only chance. She strafes hard, then throws herself at the pane, a hail of taser barbs pouring in her wake.
The glass breaks on impact and she sails, momentarily weightless.