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The Bend of Water – Tiah Marie Beautement

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Xiomara glanced over her shoulder at those in her care, while the water folded itself at her command like a length of ribbon, the charged electrons shrinking the distance between hell and freedom. She lost sight of everyone and everything, as they were pressed, compacted, and spun amongst the vibrating fields of particles. Into the liquid void she prayed. Not that she believed anyone was out there who’d care. They were alone––she, perhaps, even more than those she carried through the sea. She was determined not to lose a single life, as she accomplished the time before, and the time before that, and all the times before then. But this was the first time she’d agreed to take a bebé. May the diving reflex not be a myth.

An infant cry was her reply.

Before Xiomara could think, la magia was radiating outwards, a giant force akin to static electricity, bending the water, giving them room to breathe. But her reaction to save her youngest passenger had altered their destination to a place unknown.

#

“We’ve had two breaches of our drone security in two consecutive months,” said Vukile Xaba, Chief of the Amanzi Guards. “For up to an hour, we have a complete blackout, from both in the air and the water.” He paused, giving everyone called into the meeting time to absorb the announcement. “The most likely scenario is drug runners, probably releasing hostile drones to cause a blackout as they bring stock on shore.”

            Heads around the table nodded in agreement. The African Union’s crack down had all but stopped drug runs on land. Yet, somehow, their numbers were now climbing in the southern regions.

But it was Nobutho, the Chief’s daughter, who dared to reply. “How can we know if your theory is right if the equipment can’t record?”

            Her father grinned, a shark spotting its prey. “Thank you for volunteering for the stake out, Private Nobutho Xaba.”

            After the meeting she was issued a wetsuit and diving gear.

            “What about hiding on the beach or a boat?” she’d countered.

            Her father had shaken his head. “They’ll see it.”

            “And backup?”

He gave her a pointed look. “You’re fully capable of performing the reconnaissance alone.”

That look, he used it when referring to her umlingo, her extra sense that picked up the presence of other life nearby. A phenomenon that was cropping up amongst her generation. Many, like her parents, had dealt with it in the same manner as the African Union did: silence. But what was unspoken could still be useful if allowed to thrive.

            Three weeks into the operation, Nobutho was finding her umlingo useless. There was too much interference from the anti-electromagnetic shark repellent tech in her wetsuit, which she wasn’t willing to give up. Frustrating, although the disruption was a pleasant break, akin to white noise, creating a unique peace.

Not that she felt at peace when swimming towards Isiqithi Ukrebe. The water always felt colder near the seal’s beloved island. Which wasn’t logical, Nobutho knew, nonetheless, every time she approached it, a chill would slip into her bones.

            This operation is a waste of time.

            Her scalp itched from the hood. She’d love to rip it off, scratch between her tight rows of braids. The water wasn’t cold enough to warrant it. But her father believed it decreased her visibility.

Like anyone is going to see me on a moonless ––

A shark ghosting to her left leapt into the air, plunging back with a seal clutched in its mighty jaws. The rippling effect sent Nobutho hurdling towards shore. As she attempted to orientate herself, her umlingo picked up a vibration strong enough to penetrate her suit’s electromagnetic field.

She turned towards the force, blinking behind her diver’s mask that was set to night vision.

Nothing.

Even the sharks were gone.

But the soft spot at her temporal lobe was pressing into her skull, screaming otherwise. She blinked again.

            Emptiness.  

Yet.

A few meters away the water was rolling…bending…swirling…a liquid tunnel, beautiful, terrifying––like an astrophysics documentary on wormholes.

Except this thing wasn’t sucking anything in. The swirling tunnel was expanding, shoving, pushing water away. Her suit hummed and crackled, like the air before a thunderstorm.

Her mask blinked out.

She inhaled sharply.

The air tank seized.

Training took over. Turning towards what she thought was shore, she shed equipment while swimming, fast and strong. A moment’s relief when her knees hit the sand, but her umlingo howled. Struggling to her feet, she ran, as fast as her waterlogged legs would allow, as her umlingo acted as eyes in the dark.

#

            There was somebody waiting for them.

Impossible, Xiomara thought. But her body was certain, springing onto the beach as her passengers scattered. The people spread out, darting this way and that. We are the prey, she had told them. And the hunted who run in a straight line are the first to die.

            A woman stumbled, struggling with the burden in her arms. The bebé, the third infant Xiomara had transported to this new drop spot, cried out. With the deadly grace of a jaguar, the shadowy figure veered, bearing down on the pair.

            A hunter…

            The fleeing refugee darted back towards the water and Xiomara. The racing shadow followed, coming within her range, and Xiomara sprang, her body flattening the shadow. Her right arm snaked around the hunter, as her left came to meet her right wrist, creating a lock.

            Before she thought it through, she was dragging the flailing hunter into the sea. She loosened the chokehold a tad, as la magia flared, like static electricity. “Contenga la respiración,” she ordered.

            The hunter did not respond. Xiomara grasped for the few isiXhosa words she’d learned in the past three months. “Hayi! Emoyeni!”

            It was clumsily imprecise, but enough. The hunter took a deep breath before the charged electrons wrapped the water around them, folding like ribbon. 

#

            The water delivered them into a dim cave where a small fire was dying. Nobutho’s captor released her, climbed out of the pool, looking relaxed, unconcerned.

Nobutho gazed about. There was no apparent exit. Yet her curiosity was greater than her fear. A fear her umlingo was not contributing to, oddly satisfied in the company of her captor’s hum.

Nobutho got out, making her way to the fire, where her captor unzipped their wetsuit, revealing a pair of round, full breasts.

“¡Secar!” A thread bare towel smacked Nobutho in the chest.

            “What?”

            “O enfermar, tu elección.”

            Nobutho blinked. She wasn’t an imbecile, fluent in four languages: isiXhosa, the language of her region; isiZulu, the language of her sister-region; Shona, the official language of the Government of the Southern States; and, Swahili, the language of the African Union’s parliament. She was also competent in German, the language of the Europa Empire; Russian, the language of the USSR; and French, the language of the ruling class in Les Amériques. But she had only the most rudimentary knowledge of Spanish, the language of Les Amériques’ enslaved.

Gain control of this situation.

Straightening up, she asked, “Parlez-vous Francias?”

            Her captor snorted, causing her breasts to sway. “Of course,” she said switching, to French, “this is your preference. Outsiders always learn the language of the masters rather than the oppressed.”

            Nobutho sucked her teeth. “Spanish is the language of your original oppressor.”

            Her captor gave a slight incline of her head. “Touché. Although there is a certain poetry that the descendants of the Conquistadors are now forced to speak German.” She grabbed her long, wet locks and wrung them out. “If not for the enslaved, Spanish would be as dead as the language of my ancestors. Amusing, no?”

            Nobutho shrugged.

            The woman pulled out two tatty t-shirts from a plastic tub, tossing one Nobutho’s way. Cotton! An antique, as nobody had produced it since the Great Change, which disrupted rainfall patterns and created an upturn in pests. It felt wrong to wear something of such value, but with nothing else on offer, Nobutho reluctantly pulled it over her head, supressing a sigh at its softness.

            Untangling her braids from the shirt’s collar, Nobutho asked, “Who are you? Where are we?”

“I’m nobody,” she bowed, “but you may call me Xiomara and this is my home. And you, my Hunter, what shall I call you?”

“And I am also nobody, but you may call me Nobutho. Tell me, how far are we from the beach?”

Xiomara tilted her head. “Over ten-thousand kilometres, unless you are counting as the crow flies.”

“Pardon?”

“I couldn’t let you catch them.”

“So you’ve taken me to…?”

“Hell.”

Nobutho frowned. “That can’t be its name.”

“Better than having no name at all.”

#

            “Food,” Xiomara announced.

            Nobutho returned from her exploration of the cave walls, taking a seat on the mat by the fire. Xiomara admired the woman’s cheekbones as she served a mug of fresh water with a bowl of rice and beans.

            “Merci.”

Xiomara nodded, before returning to the pot, using the spatula as a spoon to eat.

Nobutho paused, giving Xiomara a long look, before glancing back at the mat, bowl and mug.

Xiomara brushed aside the pitying gaze. “Do you have family that will worry?”

“Évidemment.”

Xiomara, herself, knew few who could answer “Obviously,” to such a question. “I will be able to return you to the beach in twelve hours.”

Nobutho nodded. “How did you disable my equipment?”

“That is la magia. When the water bends, the charged particles create a great disturbance to the energy around them, including electronics. But they rarely break.”

“If I hadn’t been floating so close to the surface, I could have died.”

“Unfortunate, I agree,” Xiomara said. “But who goes diving on a night with no moon?”

“But––”

“I tried to find a peaceful way to sort out our differences. If you had caught the mother and baby, would you have been so generous?”

“They would have been taken into custody.”

“And, what then?”

Nobutho’s face smoothed, sharpening her elegant cheekbones. “I don’t know. Our northern states typically deal with illegals.”

“Then forgive me for not being willing to risk leaving you on the beach.”

“I would have treated them with dignity!”

Xiomara nodded. “As I’ve treated you, and I will continue to do until I have you home.”

Nobutho’s eyes narrowed. “How do you know I’ll be content to wait?”

Xiomara laughed, the cynical mirth echoing off the stone walls. “And what would you do next, my Hunter? Even if you survived the lacuna and reached land, who would help? This is not the North, where your country’s weight might be enough to save you. Down here in the Southern Hemisphere,” she snorted, “your value would only be in your flesh, and you are even darker than me.”

#

            “What do you mean they just walked out of the water?” Nobutho’s father said thirteen hours later, when she was back on African soil. “Where did they go?”

            “I’m sorry, Tata, but after being in the water all night, my legs were jelly. I could not catch them. I tried to track them, all signs had disappeared.” Her eyebrow lifted. “A pity.”

            Her father’s eyes narrowed. “And you got no other sense,” he waved his hands like ghosts, “because there were two blackouts while you were gone.”

            She shook her head, ignoring the guilt pooling in her belly.

            The African Union had sound reasons for their immigration policies. The global leader was not filled with people dining from golden cutlery and diamond encrusted plates, as the woman implied in the cave. They had people with problems, like anywhere else. Nor was the Union heartless; they had ports of entry and procedures for people seeking amnesty or asylum. However, with Les Amériques so far away, few of the enslaved Spanish could reach these ports.

            But sympathy for the refugees wasn’t the only reason she kept her tongue. Her captor’s umlingo was powerful. If she can do that with water, what could I accomplish with my umlingo?
            A dangerous thought. The wealth and security of the Union was not enough to stop the superstitious fear over the phenomena. Even the names given to it–– uchawi, umlingo, la magiem, la magia–– fed the sweeping paranoia. Witchcraft, whispered many in the Amanzi Guards. It did not matter that scientific explanations were being offered for why some of the younger generation had an increased sensitivity to life’s vibrations – some could even manipulate the body’s natural electricity. Even the Europa Empire, which prided itself on being founded on logic, experienced a high increase of people vanishing for reasons of “national security”.  

            But what if there is more to me?

            For the first time in over a decade, she attempted to focus on her umlingo, to explore beyond what came easily. But her mind immediately wandered: If my father ever caught me doing this, he’d put me on stress-leave.

With a deep breath, she tried again, concentrating on balancing her breathing, while opening herself up to her umlingo. It replied by drawing her in – deeper, wider – until it was her entirety. It felt perfect, as if a missing piece of herself was clicking into place.

The world hummed with the chorus of vibrations from all living beings, causing gooseflesh to erupt across her skin. Only one living soul, however, made her umlingo sing in reply. Nobutho’s consciousness abandoned her body to follow the tune of the pirate. It felt so natural, there was no time to be frightened as the vibration grew louder. Deeper she went, following the unique music, until with a spark, she was in the cave, watching her captor.
            Maybe this is only a dream…

Her umlingo sparked in rebuke.

But if I’m actually here, and she doesn’t know this, then what I am doing is wrong, not consensual––

Because she was captivated, watching Xiomara undress, her long silky hair brushing the top of her breasts. The sight moved Nobutho, but even so, the guilt of her actions pushed her to withdraw. But her inexperience at this new found talent made her clumsy, unable to stir her physical form. Squeezing her virtual eyes shut, she tried to the right thing, and respect the woman’s privacy.

The sounds from the cave stilled, until only the lapping of the pool could be heard. Cautiously, Nobutho opened her eyes, right into the gaze of her former captor.

“I see you, my Hunter,” Xiomara said.

#

            The water opened under the darkness of a new moon, twenty kilometres east of Xiomara’s previous drop. Relief spread across Xiomara’s chest as it became clear there was no one lurking, allowing her latest passengers to scatter into this new world in peace. They had no papers and could not speak the local languages, but the adults were all healthy, able to work and provide for their children. They would do fine here. In that, Xiomara was certain. Perhaps never live a life of great wealth, but they would no longer live in fear of their family being split and sold, while whatever they earned would be their own.

            Xiomara grabbed a handful of damp sand. The moisture in the grains hummed between her fingers, waiting for her command. It would be so easy to stay here, have a life beyond the cave, raise her face to the sunshine whenever she pleased. She could track down Nobutho, whose watchful eyes were even wider than her own. Ask her why, with all her talents, she was wasting time prowling through the water at night, looking for desperate people who only wished to be free.

Which was why Xiomara could not remain. Yes, it was frustrating that the Camino de la Libertad would only allow her one drop during the new moon. Nor did she have any idea who to appeal to, despite being a part of the organisation. No single section knew all the secrets that the network contained.

Seven lives saved, every twenty-eight days. It sounded insignificant.

“You are the only one who has never lost a life,” her contacts say. “Boats sink, carrier crafts are raided, people suffocate in compartments––we need more like you.”

There were probably more, Xiomara thought grimly, culled by the slave owners the moment there were signs.

The African Union, however, appeared to allow their people with la magia to flourish. Take Nobutho, her Hunter, who’d taken to appearing in her cave once a day like a dreamwalker. Xiomara enjoyed the company, even when they argued.

“You can’t just bring people to my country,” Nobutho had said the other night.

“Why not?” she’d replied as she bathed. “You have wealth and resources to spare.”

“It isn’t what you think.” Nobutho had grabbed the ends of her braids. “Take a look at my hair, plastic beads, not even silver or bronze.”

“Do you understand the value of freedom?”

“If you value it, why return to Les Amériques?”

“Is that what you would do if you were me?” she’d asked. “Abandon your people for your own selfish gain?”

Nobutho had stayed so quiet that Xiomara gave up on her Hunter and finished her ablutions. It wasn’t until she was drying herself, attending to the flesh between her legs, that Nobutho replied. “Next time, go twenty kilometres east from where you dropped me. Operations are spreading west.”

Now, with her precious cargo safely delivered, Xiomara couldn’t decide what surprised her more: that she had followed Nobutho’s warning, or that it hadn’t been a trap.

#

Nobutho secured her mask, with its tracker, to a drifting buoy, under the perplexed gaze of a curious seal.

“Go back to Isiqithi Ukrebe before you become dinner,” she told it.

The seal refused, following her as she swam towards the beach. A drone passed overhead. Nobutho held her breath, keeping her body still and under the water. The seal leapt into the air, nearly brushing the hovering machine, before returning to the sea. The drone moved on, and Nobutho slowly exhaled.

Once on land, she quickly located the bag she’d tucked under an old piling that age had tilted. Snatching it up, she made her way along the beach, heading east, careful to keep her feet on the glossy sand so the sea could lick away her footprints.

The water opened exactly where she anticipated. Seven people scattered onto the beach, while one remained at the water’s edge, hardly visible in the starlight. Nobutho halted, not daring to move until the last of the seven had vanished into the depths of night.

“I see you, my Hunter,” the figure said.

“I see you, Pirate Xiomara,” Nobutho replied.

Xiomara snorted. “Pirates take. I deliver.”

Nobutho approach. “Depends on the perspective. Les Amériques have inquired as to why Spanish-speaking people are appearing in our southern regions.”

“Your Union’s reply?”

“They delicately suggested that Les Amériques should investigate piracy on their own shores.”

Xiomara said nothing until Nobutho’s toes brushed her feet. “What do you want, my Hunter?”

Nobutho handed over the waterproof bag, “I’ve brought you dinner and supplies.”

Xiomara slid the bag over her head without glancing into the contents. “I suppose you are hungry as well.”

“It has been a long night of seals and sharks.”

“Sharks sound dangerous. Perhaps it would be safer to eat at my cave.”

“You make a good suggestion.”

Xiomara took her hand, leading them into the sea.

#

            Nobutho paced the cave like a caged jaguar as Xiomara unpacked the bag. There was a great deal of food, as well as a bottle of wine and two glasses nestled amongst clothing. She flicked a chewed nail against a glass rim. It sang. “Good gifts,” Xiomara said. “I accept, enkosi.”

            Nobutho nodded, coming over to sit. “How much isiXhosa do you know?”

            Xiomara poured the wine. “Maybe a hundred words. But I’ve switched my attention to Swahili.”

            Nobutho accepted the offered glass, murmuring “Gracias,” which Xiomara acknowledged with a small smile.

“Swahili would be more practical,” Nobutho said, “if you’re considering changing drop locations.”

            Xiomara eyed her guest over the lip of the crystal glass. “I believe things would be easier for you, yes, if I altered my course.”

            Nobutho took a sip of the wine. Very little touched her lips, but she took her time, before lowering the glass long and slow.

            Xiomara plucked up a knife, running it down a mango’s leathery hide. “I put you in a difficult position. I understand.” Using the point of the blade, she stabbed a golden slice, raising it to Nobutho’s mouth.

Nobutho held her gaze as she parted her lips.

Xiomara laid the fruit gently on the awaiting tongue.

As Nobutho chewed, Xiomara fed herself a luscious piece. It was as if she were eating sunshine.

Nobutho swallowed. “Do not stray any further north of the equator, and avoid the far east of the continent. The Amanzi Guards are the more relaxed of those that patrol the African coastline.”

Xiomara fed Nobutho another slice, this time, following it with a kiss.

#

            There was a boat waiting by the buoy. Nobutho’s father was on it, lit up by the deck lights, with her mask dangling from his fingertips.

Stupid! Of course the drones on this beach remained online.

She didn’t fight the armed Amanzi Guards who roughly hauled her from the sea’s grip. They kept their hold on deck, while her father approached. The hard look in his eyes told her she was facing her Chief, not the one who called her daughter.

            “Private Nobutho Xaba, you’ve been accused of assisting the pirates plaguing Les Amériques coastline. How do you plead?”

            “Innocent, sir.”

            He raised her mask higher. “And how do you explain the loss of your diving mask, Private Xaba?”

            Nobutho met his unrelenting gaze. “As I’ve reported numerous times, the masks are useless on this mission. Worse, as they impede, because when they are disabled by electrical interference, they leave the wearer blind, with no night vision.”

            “Do you believe me to be a fool, Private Xaba?”

            “No, sir.”

            “Do you believe I would not have made a full patrol before bringing these accusations to you?”

            “No, sir.”

            He grabbed her face, squeezing her cheeks between his thumb and first two fingers. “I believe you have more to say.”

            She lifted her chin higher. “With all due respect, sir, if you have conducted a patrol as thoroughly as you claim, then you, yourself, would have caught the pirates.”

            “Insolence,” he spat, releasing her face.

            She was returned to land. Within hours, she was informed that she had been put on unpaid leave. All of her electronics were confiscated.

            “I am sad for you,” Xiomara told her later.

            “Don’t be. They can prove nothing.”

            “I find,” Xiomara said, “for many, proof is but a minor detail in their flexible notions of justice.”

#

            Xiomara watched as Nobutho’s image faded. Licking her lips, she tasted the memories of their kisses, where they exchanged water from each other’s land. The molecules charged, seeking like for like.

Every being has a unique hum.

            “Don’t worry, my Hunter,” Xiomara whispered, “I’ll find you once you reach the sea.”

#

            It was the Chief of the Amanzi Guards, not Nobutho’s father, who stepped into her modest apartment without knocking. The man looked her up and down before saying, “Are you not going to offer me hospitality?”

“Would you like something to drink, sir?”

“Yes, Private Nobutho Xaba, a cup of coffee, black, no sugar.”

She returned with his drink to find him occupying her best chair. The only remaining seat in the cramped room was beanbag, whose stuffing had compacted after years of use. It left her at eye level with his knees, which were set far apart, in a deceptively casual manner. But she was no fool. In this position, he could take her out with one kick. He wouldn’t even need to rise to his feet.

He took a long, slow, drag of his coffee, smacking his lips as he lowered the mug. “Private Xaba, I have received information that you talk in your sleep.”

Pressure built at the base of her spine at the notion of being spied on as she dreamed. But she kept her features impassive. “I cannot confirm or deny this, sir. As you say, I’m asleep.”

Her father reached into the inside pocket of his uniform, bringing out his Tamko, which—unlike her recently confiscated model—was the latest on the market. He tapped the screen, and there was Nobutho, meditating, while French dripped from her lips.

            She supressed a shiver, as he tapped the screen and returned the Tamko to his pocket.

            “Anything further you’d like to add, Private Xaba?”

            His voice was light, as if he could hardly care less as to her answer. But she’d watched him interrogate far too many people under investigation to be fooled. She blinked at him, guileless. “I was not aware I was being monitored in my own home.”

            “It was a courtesy. The only other option was to place you in confinement.

Tell me, have you long dreamed in French?”

“As stated before, sir, I was not aware I was speaking in my sleep. I can, however, confirm that I’ve been brushing up on my French. It is no secret that my career aspirations have always gone beyond the Amanzi Guard.”

He inclined his head in acknowledgement. “I, too, believed you were bound for greater things. Yet I’d always thought they would be for the good of the African Union.”

“Am I being accused of something, sir?”

He gave her a sad smile that was anything but friendly. “I would like to believe no child of mine would be capable of turning her back on her homeland. But I cannot deny that it is most curious that my most reliable private, with a hundred percent success rate, has failed her current mission.”

“Failure happens to the best of us.  I can only apologise and vow to try harder.”

“See that you do.”

He rose to his feet, and she did the same.

“Report tomorrow night,” he said. “It’s a new moon, which our pirates can’t seem to resist.”

#

            Xiomara was sorting through the latest collection of wetsuits when she felt eyes upon her. She glanced around until she located the woman’s face. “I see you, Nobutho.”

            The woman opened her mouth, then shut it.

            Xiomara frowned, as Nobutho repeated the action two more times, without a sound leaving her lips. “Click three times if you are being watched.”

            Nobutho clicked, clicked, clicked.

            “I hear you. Do not worry, I will not bring anyone to your beaches tomorrow night.”

            Fear flashed across her Hunter’s eyes, and Xiomara’s bones grew cold. But it was too late to say more, for Nobutho was fading away.

#

Nobutho shivered as she sank below the ocean’s crust. A shark darted away, repelled by her suit, though it circled back, as if curious.

            “Private Nobutho Xaba, report,” said the voice in her ear.

            She glanced over to her father who floated beside her. “Nothing, sir.”

Her reached up and pressed the side of his hood. She watched his lips move, clearly speaking to someone else.

Her umlingo flared in warning, but she remained still, as he grabbed her. She kept quiet, waiting, as the shark made another pass.

“There’s been a drop,” he said, “two-hundred kilometres up the west coast. Do you know anything about this?”

She kept her eyes on the shark, who had abruptly darted to the left. “With all due respect, sir, how? I’ve had no communications outside your observations.”

“Are you suggesting it is a convenient coincidence?”

The shark was leaving, with other sea life following its wake. “I am suggesting, sir, that perhaps my intel was correct. That the drops occur on the new moon and my presence in these waters has been noted and the pirates are making logical adjustments.”

“What the––”

The grip on her arm loosened as the water bent and swirled. She twisted away, headed towards the yawing swirl.

Nobutho!”

She felt a yank on her right fin. She kicked with her left, connecting with her father’s mask.

The water expanded, bloomed, as a squeal cut through her ears.

Silence.

She tossed off her now useless mask and shrugged out of her oxygen tank, while reaching, always reaching, towards the swirl.

An arm snaked around her neck. Nobutho began to thrash. The arm held firm, as a hand patted her head.

The water briefly parted, and Nobutho gasped, her burning lungs greedily sucking in air.

“Shhhh, my Hunter, I’ve got you,” a familiar voice said. “One more big breath.”

Nobutho obliged, and as her lips pressed back together, the water curled around them, folding like a ribbon, as the charged particles hummed.

#

            Xiomara released Nobutho once they reached the pool of the cave. She hoisted herself out, then offered her hand. Her Hunter hesitated before grabbing hold. Once on her feet, Nobutho looked bewildered, cold.

            “I’ll make us something warm to drink,” Xiomara said.

            “I can never go back.” The words were flat. Numb.

            Xiomara kept her eyes on her task, poking at the fire, while she scanned for tea leaves. “You can tell him I kidnapped you against your will.”

            “I kicked my father in his face.”

            Xiomara shrugged. “An honest mistake in the chaos. They, too, were there, and what did they do? Not a thing.”

            “No.”

Xiomara glanced up to see Nobutho peeling her wetsuit off, draping it carefully over a rock, before wrapping herself in a towel.

“No, he is suspicious. My umlingo, it is not something we ever spoke about. But he’s noticed how my ability has grown and…”

“Perhaps in time he’ll calm. You can visit him through your dream-walking until it is safe to return.”

Nobutho sank beside her with a sigh. “And until then, what? I’ll be nothing but a burden to you.”

“Nonsense. The world is vast, the water wide.”

Nobutho nodded slowly. “You hardly leave your cave.”

“That is changing. My organisation has finally granted me permission to travel for non-work matters.” She smiled, “Perhaps you’ll consider joining our cause.”

“Hmmm, perhaps.” Nobutho reached out, tracing her rescuer’s lips. “I finally looked up the meaning of your name.”

Xiomara’s smile grew wider, “So you know?”

Now Nobutho grinned. “That our names both mean Warrior?”

“I think this makes us a perfect match,” Xiomara said.

Nobutho replied with a kiss.  

End

Tiah Marie Beautement
Tiah Marie Beautement is the award-winning author of two novels, including This Day (2014, Modjaji), and numerous short stories. She also teaches writing and freelances for a variety of publications, including the Sunday Times and FunDza Literacy Trust. She lives on the South African Garden Route with her family, two dogs, and a small flock of chickens. Diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome and fibromyalgia, she is outspoken about living life with chronic conditions and disability. To stay as mentally and physically healthy as possible, she belly dances, horse rides, and zips along as a pillion on motorcycles.

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Abdulkareem Baba Aminu

Tell us a little bit about your background.

I was born on the 7th of July 1976, in Kaduna, where I mostly grew up and went to school. Growing up, I’ve always wanted to be a bunch of things, all depending on my mood. I guess that’s why I read Science in secondary school, even though my artistic talent was clear earlier than that. In university, I toyed with studying Architecture, considered Fine Art seriously, but went for Business Administration instead. While in school, I drew cartoons for a then-upcoming newspaper, Weekly Trust. From that, I pioneered the entertainment section, and I soon began to report human interest stories as well. Now, it’s a major national paper. Finally, I became a full-time journo, loving every minute of it. I rose through the ranks, and today I’m General Editor at Daily Trust, after a 12-year stint as Editor of the Saturday edition. I’ll be honest: It’s all been a whirlwind.

What comics or characters inspired you to be an artist and illustrator when you were growing up and why?

My ‘comic book journey’ began very early, as all three of my older siblings were heavily into reading them. Each sibling had a different interest, so the comics I was exposed to as a little one, were from such a wide spectrum that I was often spoilt for choice. But it began with the British ones, then the European ‘albums’ like Asterix, Tintin and Iznogoud, then Marvel, then DC (there aren’t that many comic books from the Big Two that I’ve not read, at least casually or at best in great depth). Writing and drawing versions of mine, at a point, was a no-brainer.  

What is the most challenging aspect of being an artist in Nigeria?

In the past, I’d have said exposure, in the days without social media. But now, your masterpiece can be seen by millions at the push of a button. I guess today, I’ll have to say today the challenge remains a fully-formed Nigerian market.

You’re involved in a lot of other projects outside your regular job. Can you tell us which ones you’re currently most excited about?

There’s my first novel, a sci-fi/fantasy story that I’m having so much fun writing. Hopefully, it’ll be released sometime next year. I’m also currently writing a feature for Full Bleed (IDW) based on a super-long interview of Chris Claremont, arguably the most important and influential writer of Marvel’s X-Men comic books. I’m also doing illustrations for a very cool book on the Yoruba pantheon, written by some of my favourite people, three brilliant writers who will be announced at this year’s Ake Festival online. I’m also doing character designs for an exciting new animation project which my lawyers swear I can’t talk about right now.

Abdulkareem Baba Aminu

What strategies do you use to carve out time for writing?

None. I write when I feel like writing. I’m just lucky it’s usually at a convenient time. The few occasions where the timing is weird, I take notes which I later flesh out. Actually, I love it when notes pile up. It fires me up to sit down and write.

What TV shows would you sneak out to watch right now?

No need to sneak. TV is part of my life, and currently I’m enjoying Ozark a lot. In the recent past, I have dug Little Big Lies (HBO), The Umbrella Academy (Netflix), Game of Thrones (HBO), Dark (Netflix), I May Destroy You (BBC One/HBO), ‘Little Fires Everywhere’ (Hulu), and many more. Believe me when I say many more. There is so much great TV out there right now, and I’m glad to be alive to enjoy them.

What are the most exciting writers and artists on the Nigerian market right now?

Wow. Do we have space? For writers, I’d say Abubakar Adam Ibrahim, Nnedi Okorafor, Richard Ali, Safiya Ismaila Yero, Hadiza El-Rufai, Leye Adenle, Toni Kan, Suyi Davies Okungbowa, TJ Benson, Ekpeki Oghenechovwe Donald, Michael Afenfia, and more. The artists, varied in their art, are legion.

What was the most discouraging time in your career and how did you overcome it?

You’d have to check back on that. I began working professionally aged 14, so you can imagine that I’d been fortunate enough to have had many motivating factors. Discouragement, honestly, is something I can’t really say I’ve gone through.

Looking back, is there anything in your career that you would do differently? Any major decisions you regret?

I’d probably make the same mistakes.

What is it you would most want to be remembered for when you’re gone?

For having been here, told the stories I’ve told, created the images I have, and occupied the hearts I’ve been privileged to. That’s all.

Omenana Anthology is part of the African Speculative Fiction Bundle

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All african speculative fiction story bundle covers

Omenana’s first anthology is part of the African Speculative Fiction Bundle!

It is a dream come true for us and it was a difficult task selecting from the exciting stories we’ve had the honour of publishing over the years.

We don’t want to take up much space, so see what the curator of this story bundle, Ivor Hartmann, has to say about it.

THE AFRICAN SPECULATIVE FICTION BUNDLE

The African Speculative Fiction StoryBundle curated by Ivor W. Hartmann

Welcome to the African Speculative Fiction Bundle!

This is the most comprehensive collection of African speculative fiction authors ever assembled. With the complete bundle containing nearly 100 authors and over 145 works it stands both as an excellent introduction to the rapidly evolving canon of African SF and a unique one-time collection of their works. From established stars you might know such as Nnedi Okorafor, Tade Thompson, and Sarah Lotz, to upcomers like Wole Talabi, Chinelo Onwualu, Nerine Dorman, Dilman Dila, and so many more.

The bundle starts in 2012 with the first AfroSF and goes right through to 2020 with the first special edition anthology from Omenana magazine, providing a healthy cross-section of African SF over eight years and in some cases the development of individual authors from their first publication onwards. And it is precisely for these reasons I have selected anthologies over novels in this inaugural bundle so as to better represent the full scale of African SF, though you will find too the bonus individual collections Kabu Kabu by Nnedi Okorafor and A Killing in the Sun by Dilman Dila.

The road to this bundle has been paved by the work of countless African writers, editors, publishers, and most importantly readers. For too long was the African experience, imagination, and insight, held captive and until relatively recently only glimpsed through the thick lens of other cultures and their inherent biases. In a big way this is what the new wave of African Speculative Fiction is about: telling our own stories, revealing our vibrant cultures from within, sharing our unique perspectives, and writing ourselves into futures that for so long seemed to spell our doom by virtue of our absence.

Indeed, our progress over just the last eight years has been phenomenal. We have not only won international awards like Arthur C. Clarke, World Fantasy, and Nebula, etc., but gone on to create our own like the Nommos now in its fourth year, the SSDA Award now in its eight year. African publishers such as Jalada Africa, Seven Hills Media, StoryTime, Short Story Day Africa, DADA books, Pan African Publishers, and Black Letter Media, all of whom contributed to make this bundle, have actively encouraged and published more speculative fiction than ever before, and we have only just begun.

In this vein, the charity giving chosen for this bundle is the African Speculative Fiction Society, to help with the tireless unpaid work of this collective NPO. The ASFS was formed in 2016 and primarily at present is focused on the Nommo awards. The awards are nominated and voted upon by ASFS members for excellence in four Speculative Fiction categories. The importance of these independent awards and the ASFS as a part of building a robust and diverse homegrown African SF canon cannot be overstated nor underestimated.

Cover of Omenana to Infinity Anthology
Cover of Omenana to Infinity Anthology

Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I trust you will enjoy all the works in this bundle as much as we did in writing and publishing them for you. I hope you will be introduced to new authors to look out for, new ideas about the world from our perspectives, and see an inclusive future that proves we are so much stronger together than we can ever be apart, especially in these trying times and the times still ahead.

A massive big thanks goes out to all the authors, editors, and publishers, who made this possible, and especially Jason Chen of Storybundle for giving us this chance to present our works to you. Ivor W. Hartmann

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For StoryBundle, you decide what price you want to pay. For $5 (or more, if you’re feeling generous), you’ll get the basic bundle of four books in any ebook format—WORLDWIDE.

  • AfroSFv1 edited by Ivor W. Hartmann
  • Lagos_2060 edited by Ayodele Arigbabu
  • Terra Incognita by Nerine Dorman
  • Jalada 2: AfroFuture(s) by Jalada Africa

If you pay at least the bonus price of just $15, you get all four of the regular books, plus six more more books, for a total of ten! That’s a total of five StoryBundle exclusives!

  • A Killing in the Sun by Dilman Dila
  • Kabu-Kabu Stories by Nnedi Okorafor
  • AfroSFv2 edited by Ivor W. Hartmann
  • AfroSFv3 edited by Ivor W. Hartmann
  • Omenana to Infinity by Omenana
  • Imagine Africa 500 edited by Billy Kahora

This bundle is available only for a limited time via http://www.storybundle.com. It allows easy reading on computers, smartphones, and tablets as well as Kindle and other ereaders via file transfer, email, and other methods. You get multiple DRM-free formats (.epub, .mobi) for all books!

It’s also super easy to give the gift of reading with StoryBundle, thanks to our gift cards – which allow you to send someone a code that they can redeem for any future StoryBundle bundle – and timed delivery, which allows you to control exactly when your recipient will get the gift of StoryBundle.

Why StoryBundle? Here are just a few benefits StoryBundle provides.

  • Get quality reads: We’ve chosen works from excellent authors to bundle together in one convenient package.
  • Pay what you want (minimum $5): You decide how much these fantastic books are worth. If you can only spare a little, that’s fine! You’ll still get access to a batch of exceptional titles.
  • Support authors who support DRM-free books: StoryBundle is a platform for authors to get exposure for their works, both for the titles featured in the bundle and for the rest of their catalog. Supporting authors who let you read their books on any device you want—restriction free—will show everyone there’s nothing wrong with ditching DRM.
  • Give to worthy causes: Bundle buyers have a chance to donate a portion of their proceeds to the African Speculative Fiction Society!
  • Receive extra books: If you beat the bonus price, you’ll get the bonus books!

StoryBundle was created to give a platform for independent authors to showcase their work, and a source of quality titles for thirsty readers. StoryBundle works with authors to create bundles of ebooks that can be purchased by readers at their desired price. Before starting StoryBundle, Founder Jason Chen covered technology and software as an editor for Gizmodo.com and Lifehacker.com.

For more information, visit our website at storybundle.com, tweet us at @storybundle and like us on Facebook. For press inquiries, please email press@storybundle.com.

AfroSFv4 now open for submissions

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The Climate Crisis is the biggest challenge humanity has ever faced. Never has the impact of our modern civilisations on the Earth been so clearly evident. There is no single person on the planet who is not directly affected. Even if somehow, we all banded together today and did everything within our global collective power to mitigate the effects, we would still feel the impact of the changes we have wrought on the biosphere for centuries to come.

As temperatures rise, as the seas rises, as weather patterns change, as biodiversity shrinks, as large-scale catastrophes become common place; like zoonotic outbreaks of Ebola and Corona virus from humans moving into, consuming, and drastically reducing wild areas; storm surge flooding; wild fires; etc., so too do we change. The relative ecological and climatological calm that has persisted for tens of thousands of years, that has allowed us as a species to thrive, is no more. In response to this instability many once leading countries have instead of reaching out turned inward, looked to isolation as a solution, encouraged the rise of fear-based extremist attitudes, policies, and practices. But is this who we are, are we as a species driven only by fear, no, it is historically evident that it is co-operation which has best served us. Just as we are rapidly approaching a climate tipping point, a thermal runaway that could irreparably imperil the entire biosphere, so to must we as a species reach a tipping point in common consensus and action to change how we live, and hopefully the latter comes before the former.

Given this specific theme of Climate Crisis, AfroSFv4 is asking you to look forward a single decade into the near future of 2031. How have we responded, how has the Earth? Do you see a continuing apocalypse, or have we risen to the challenge, and if so how? We are looking for well-researched, carefully extrapolated, deeply character driven narratives that explore this most imperative theme. 

Works submitted may be: Science Fiction short stories only as per the theme and guidelines:

1) Only African writers are eligible (writers born in Africa, or having domiciled in for over 10 years, and/or holding citizenship in an African country).

2) The submitted work must be an original work, nothing that infringes the copyright of, or is derived from, another author’s work of fiction, is overly lewd, hate speech, etc.

3) Must be unpublished (not previously published in print or online).

4) No simultaneous submissions (only submitted to AfroSFv4 and no other publications).

5) No multiple submissions (submit only one work).

6) Single works with multiple authors will be considered as long as they all meet our African writer criteria.

7) Submission format:  UK English, double spaced, font Times New Roman 12pt.

8) Word Count: Minimum: 1500 Words, Maximum: 10k Words.

9) Deadline for submissions is 30th June 2020.

10) All works to be submitted through Submittable: https://afrosf.submittable.com/submit/137149/afrosfv4

11) To be edited by Ivor W. Hartmann and published by StoryTime, for any problems or queries please contact: storytime.publishing@gmail.com

Omenana Issue 14

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In this edition of Omenana:

Editorial – Mazi Nwonwu

Abeokuta52 – Wole Talabi

Refugia – Caldon Mull

Story of How I died – Simbiat Haroun

The Silent God – Haku Jackson

Tiny Bravery – Ada Nnadi

The Return – Muuka Gwaba

Above the Beach – VK Thipa

All illustrations in the edition by Sunny Efemena.

Cover art by Sunny Efemena, design by Godson ChukwuEmeka Okeiyi.

You might have heard, we are seeking donations, go here to support us.

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Posted on November 16, 2026 by Abk52_Warrior

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*Hey Nairalanders, I’m reposting this copy of Bidemi Akindele’s opinion piece in the guardian from two days ago. https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2026/Nov/14/second-deaths-nigeria-acknowledge-alien-blessing-came-price

THE SECOND DEATH: WHY NIGERIA NEEDS TO ACKNOWLEDGE THAT ITS ALIEN BLESSING CAME AT A PRICE

By Bidemi Akindele

I was fourteen when the alien disease killed my mother. They took a risk, she and all the others who first investigated the impact site. I understand that, believe me, I understand how different the country was back then but it’s not the loss that keeps me up at night, weeping into my girlfriend’s hair. It’s the silence. After all these years, no one wants to talk about it. There are no erected memorials. There is no day of remembrance. There are still no published studies on the disease that killed them. No one wants to acknowledge the early price we paid for all this rapid wealth and development. Every time we petition or protest, the government tells us to move on, to look how far we’ve come, to forget the past and embrace the future in silence.

Why is it so hard for people in power or at privilege to admit and acknowledge that their success came at someone else’s expense? America, Japan, Europe, South Africa, Nigeria… I could go on.

They say you die twice. Once, when you stop breathing and a second time, later, when somebody says your name for the last time. I will not be let myself become complicit in my mother’s second death at the hands of this government. I will not be silent. I will not speak of politics or offer opinions. I will simply tell her story.

My mother’s cough started three days after she returned from the impact site in Abeokuta. At first it came in random spurts only once a day or so. She said it was nothing, always with a smile. After a while, we stopped asking if she was alright. Father said not to worry, the investigation at the site was stressful because of the strange things they found there. But then after almost a month, the cough began to worsen, until it became an endless dry, hacking that echoed through our house day and night.

My father finally convinced her to see a doctor. When he saw her, the doctor had her admitted and put her through dozens of tests. It took a week and we visited her in the private ward of the Federal Hospital every day after school, staying till about four p.m. Then one day my father told us that we needed to stay a bit longer.

Doctor Shina met with all of us late in the evening. I remember that the sun was a low orange ball in the window behind him and that he was unshaven and looked exhausted. He walked into my mother’s room, a little bit surprised to find the entire family there, including my seven-year-old sister Teniola, sitting on the leather chair beside my mother – his patient. He glanced at my father with a look that made me think he expected my father to ask my sister and I to go and play outside while they had a grown-up talk, but my father said nothing. He became more direct and said, “Mr. and Mrs. Akindele, I’d like to speak with you privately, if I could.”

“Doctor, please, anything you want to say to me you can say in front of my family,” My mother croaked from her bed. “My whole family.”

My father smiled and waved his hand. “Please, go ahead.”

Doctor Shina cleared his throat and said, “Madam, I examined your lung biopsy sample yesterday and then again today. There is a unique and very worrying pattern of extensive scar tissue and some residue of cadmium, polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons and another material we have been unable to identify so far.”

He paused, adjusted his glasses and looked at me and my sister before turning back to my mother and saying, “I’m sorry Ma, but it seems you have some kind of severe pulmonary fibrosis. It’s quite bad.”

I saw my father squeeze my mother’s hand on the hospital bed. She squeezed back and the veins on her forehead strained against her skin. She said nothing. He said nothing.

Then Doctor Shina said, “That’s not the only problem, I’m afraid,” and my young heart sank in my chest like an anchor would, at the bottom of the sea.

I think my father almost asked me to take my sister out of the room then because when he glanced at me, he  looked like something was stuck in his throat. But he didn’t send us out.

Doctor Shina said, “I also found some abnormal cell growths so I requested an analysis. I’ve checked and checked again but it seems conclusive now. It’s cancer. Lung cancer.”

My mother started to cry. I don’t think she wanted to but she did anyway, and it seemed to make her angry because her lips quivered, and her palms curled into fists. She probably already suspected it was the thing they’d found at the site. She probably knew but she couldn’t say because it was all secret. I was in shock, unable to think about anything except the fact that my mother was going to die.

“What do we do next?” she said, her tone belying the fear that her body was broadcasting. “Is it treatable?”

I looked first to my mother, and then at Doctor Shina.

“We still don’t know what the particles in your lungs are so I cannot say much about the fibrosis. But it looks like the cancerous cells have metastasized since they are already in your bloodstream. Still, we have several treatment options available, and they may work for you by the special grace of God. We just need to start treatment early.”

I wondered then how many times he had said those words to other patients, perhaps in that same room and in that same tone. And how many of those patients had died shortly after hearing them. 

“Good,” my mother said flatly.

“Thank you, Doctor,” my father said with a diluted smile. “Please make all the necessary arrangements. Whatever you need. She works at the ministry, so the government will pay for everything, don’t worry about cost.”

“Yes sir. I’ll come back soon.” Then he turned and exited the private ward. My father’s gaze followed him all the way to the door and when the door closed behind him, so did my father’s eyes.

Four weeks later, fifty-one of my mother’s colleagues were also diagnosed with the accelerated fibrosis and cancer combination. That was when the government had them all moved to the Central hospital in Abuja. My father enrolled me in a boarding school and sent Teni to live with my aunt Folake in Gbagada. I don’t know what happened in Abuja because the medical records were sealed. Neither does my father. He had to watch the woman he loved waste away while doctors did things to her without consulting him. He was still struggling in the courts to have the records unsealed years later, when he died of a heart attack.

In the years since their deaths, the government has profited from the reverse-engineered alien technology recovered at the Abeokuta site. Nigeria is now the world’s largest provider of macroscale gene-alteration services and Lagos is becoming the genodynamic technology capital of the world, thanks to its proximity to the impact site, but I hope you understand that these are all fruits of the poisoned alien tree. A tree that was watered by the blood of my mother and her colleagues. A tree whose branches are trellised by the misery that came with diagnoses families like mine received in stark hospital rooms from well-meaning men like Dr. Shina. A tree sustained by persistent government erasure and silence.

It has been six years. We are not asking for much, we are just asking for an acknowledgement of our pain. Our truth. Acknowledgement that the present prosperity of this nation was purchased at the cost of fifty-two lives – no matter how inconvenient that narrative is. Acknowledgement that those lives mattered.

We are all made of stories and in the end, there is no greater injury that can be done to a person who has suffered their first death than to change their story, to deny their narrative. It makes their second death more tragic. I will continue to tell my mother’s story everywhere, online, during interviews, on panel discussions, during protests, everywhere, and I will not stop until it has a new ending, one that does not bring me to tears whenever I tell it.

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Bidemi Akindele is a musician and artist whose provocative work has been exhibited in 23 countries. He is the son of the late #Abeokuta52 campaigner, Professor Jude Akindele and the current Vice President of the Abeokuta Truth Alliance (ATA).

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Ahmed-Turiki: Powerful Story! God Bless Bidemi for not giving up on the truth about his mother and all those who died. There is an ATA protest planned at the site in 3 days. Everyone come out and join us, let the government know that we will not be silenced! Aluta continua! Victoria ascerta!

November 16 10:34

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November 16 10:41

SoyinkaStan1: Sorry for your loss. No wonder there were so many questions the minister of science and technology didn’t respond to when they announced that they have awarded the Abeokuta exploitation contract to Dangote. Hmmm.

November 16 10:54

Abk52_Warrior: Please share this link on all your social media accounts since it’s no longer accessible on the Guardian News website. Even proxies and backchannel servers aren’t working. I will keep testing and update you. But please share. Its personal stories like this that will eventually force the government to tell the truth.

November 16 11:17

QueenEzinne: I am sorry for this boy’s loss and I am sure his mother was a good person but trying to blame her death on Nigeria’s blessing is just wrong. Why can’t he accept that she was just sick? Why must he now put sand-sand in our garri? This ‘alien thing’ as you people are calling it is nothing more than the hand of God appearing in Nigeria’s life and God’s hand is always pure.

November 16 12:09

MaziNwosuThe3rd: Hmmm. This is a powerful post. I know say that site get K-leg from day 1. Make government talk true o!

November 16 13:52

GBR: God bless Bidemi for not giving up. For those of you wondering why the government would try to cover up the deaths: it looks like they are using some of that technology to develop weapons. There is something fishy going on. Just go to TheTruthAboutTheAbeokuta52.com and read all the posts, especially the ones by the account called ‘Mister52’.

November 16 23:09

PastorPaul_HRH: @SoyinkaStan1 Hmmm. Your head is correct.

November 16 10:34

EngineerK32: This is nothing but slander by foreign powers to discredit us because we didn’t sell exploitation rights to them. ATA is trash. I wonder how much they paid this traitor to lie.

November 16 15:22

ShineShineDoctor: This is Doctor Shina. The same one from Bidemi’s story. I am currently in London. If anyone knows how to contact Bidemi, please inbox me, I need to warn him.

November 16 15:54

Abk52_Warrior: @ShineShineDoctor Warn him about what?

November 16 15:57

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November 16 16:01

LadiDadi999: @OmoOba1991 Whats wrong with you? Don’t you know how to have a sensible discussion? Lack of home training.

November 16 16:39

GdlckJnthn311: Look, I understand how this boy must feel but it’s just not true. I have been working at Dangote Technologies since 2023 and the alien technology has never once caused harm to anyone in my team. I have personally touched some of those materials myself. I will direct anyone interested in facts and not fiction to read the paper: “Technical Report No. 93: A Targeted Risk Assessment of the Abeokuta Exploitation Site” which is available for free download on the Ministry of science and technology website. 

November 16 17:05

ShineShineDoctor: @Abk52_Warrior I was attacked on my way to Knightsbridge to discuss my recollection of his mother’s case with Dr. Maduako at UCL. There were two men with knives. Thank God for the group of Croatian tourists who intervened to save my life. They took my wallet, my phone and all my notes on his mother’s case. This morning I heard Dr. Maduako was in an accident. I don’t know what is going on but I think Bidemi is in danger.

November 16 17:26

Abk52_Warrior: @ShineShineDoctor OMG. OK. Can’t say much here but let me contact my network and see what we can find. For now, please make sure you only login in using a proxy. Stay safe.

November 16 17:28

LekanSkywalker: @Abk52_Warrior @ShineShineDoctor Ghen Gheun! Una don start fake action film. Hahaha! Gerarahere mehn!

November 16 18:46

PeterIkeji_Jos: What is all this nonsense about a cover-up? I swear some people turn everything into conspiracy. Next thing you people will say Sgt Rogers killed his mother with the cooperation of the CIA and wiliwili. Mumu nonsense.

November 16 20:15

GBR: Seriously you people that think this is some conspiracy theory bullshit need to pay attention. Don’t be blinded because naira-to-dollar exchange rate is good now and you have constant power supply. 27 employees at Dangote Technologies have disappeared in the last 4 years. Read the posts on TheTruthAboutAbeokuta52.com. Go to the LifeCast and Twitter feeds of @TheAbeokuta52Lie. Read Doctor Shina’s comment above. There is a sensible, realistic and pertinent case for the government to answer and the evidence is only growing. Open your eyes.

November 16 21:09

SoyinkaStan1: @ShineShineDoctor You are lucky you are in Britain. If it were Nigeria they’d have killed you for sure. The silver lining is that London has CCTV cameras everywhere so they will probably catch the attempted murderers, and when they do, the investigation will finally expose this whole thing! The truth is coming.

November 16 23:24

Abk52_Warrior: @ShineShineDoctor My ATA contacts tell me that Bidemi was trying to sneak into Nigeria through Benin republic to attend a planned protest. No one has heard from him since. I can connect you to the protest organisers. Inbox me a private email address. Don’t use anything public. Set up a new account on encrypted LegbaMail. Stay safe.

November 16 23:58

GBR: Did you guys see this yet? https://cnn.com/2026/11/17/politics/ nigeria-britain-sign-long-term—genodynamic-technology-exchange-contract/index.html

Be careful @ShineShineDoctor

November 17 11:09

Abk52_Warrior: @ShineShineDoctor Did you get my last message?

November 17 11:43

Abk52_Warrior: @ShineShineDoctor Please respond if you can see this.

November 17 16:11

Abk52_Warrior: @ShineShineDoctor Doctor Shina?

November 18 09:11

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WOLE TALABI is a full-time engineer, part-time writer and some-time editor from Nigeria. His stories have appeared in F&SF, Lightspeed, Omenana, Terraform, AfroSFv3, and a few other places. He edited the anthologies These Words Expose Us and Lights Out: Resurrection and co-wrote the play Color Me Man. His fiction has been nominated for several awards including the Nommo Awards and the Caine Prize and his first book Incomplete Solutions, has been published by Luna Press. He likes scuba diving, elegant equations and oddly-shaped things. He currently lives and works in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

Refugia – Caldon Mull

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     Wami threw her legs over the low wall, then reached for the sack and dragged it over to her. That was the last of the things she could find that could be useful to her. She ignored the ache in her joints and the sore spots in her soles as she scuffed the dust on the cement, half-dragging, half-walking the sack of provisions to her fort.

     She sat for a few minutes, sipping water from a ships’ sachet as she looked down on the silent colony. She was the last one, all the others were lying cold and still in their homes or in the church where some had gathered in their last days.

She didn’t know why she was still alive; perhaps the blessings the Deacon had so fervently dispensed while they had huddled in the church had clung to Wami, had insulated her from the fear and the dying. The prayers didn’t help her parents though, or anyone else for that matter. She had woken up this morning, and none of the others had; not even the Deacon.

     Wami had thought about what to do while she had smoothed her mother’s hair and draped a fine cloth over where her father lay still holding her mother’s hand, on the floor of the church. She knew she didn’t want to stay here with them. They might have looked like they were sleeping; but she was a mindful girl at her ten years and she already knew what death looked like. They were never coming back; they had joined the Sky-spirit and now they could only watch her from above.

     The time for sadness would be later, now was the only time that was important; her last promise to her mother that she would watch for the ship when it came. Their last days were spent talking about what to do, and who would come to help them. The Deacon was on the channel to the Sky-spirit almost constantly as the remaining villagers trickled in at the last day; but Wami didn’t know how to use the uplink machine or what codes to use.

     When it was obvious that she needed to, all the adults were too sick to show her. She did know that if help came, it would arrive at the Star-Port. If she moved there and waited for them it would be better than waiting at the church. Besides which, the church building was starting to feel like dust and silence, and loneliness… and Wami didn’t like that at all.

     This morning she had checked in at the infirmary, the Mess Hall and the Library – they were either deserted, or packed with the still forms of the people who used to be vital members of the Colony. She had not wanted to linger in those places, either. Wami was old enough to take care of herself; Mother had already taught her how to boil water and make porridge, cut fruit and cook meat.

     Wami was unique her whole life, so far the only child on the planet, the only infant at planet fall. Mother had said she had been made on the ancestor home and she had been carried with her in the long sleep between the Old World and this new one. The Ship-spirit had woken mother up five years early from her deep sleep so she could birth Wami in the safety of the ship’s artificial gravity and radiation shields, rather than take any chances so close to her term on their new home.

     Naturally conceived children were precious to the Sol Senate no matter where they were, over the whole reach of humanities’ struggling grasp. Since their arrival here, everyone else had been too busy setting up domes and water plants, selecting tasks from a roster the Sky-spirit presented; to properly court and marry. Wami’s mother and father were the only couple when they had landed, and five years after planet-fall, they still were, more or less. One of the Deacon’s persistent sermons was that the young men and women should stop playing with themselves and start playing with each other.

     Wami didn’t know what that meant, and when she asked mother what that meant she only smiled and said “We’re building something here, Wami. There will be plenty of time to please the Deacon later. Other children will come when we are ready.”

     Wami checked her screen-reader, it was full from her library downloads. She could sit here and read while she waited out the rescue ship, and she had at least four weeks of the last of the old supplies before she needed to go down to the well and fetch water, or forage from hydroponics for fresh leaves. She had just opened the animal pens and loosed the creatures to the wild.

     The water pool and feed troughs were mostly automated and there was nothing else on the dusty Planet that could harm them. It seemed kinder that way, considering there was no-one to tend them. They could roam and forage wherever they wanted, whatever was affecting the people wasn’t affecting them. They knew what they needed better than Wami did.

     Wami settled down for the night, watching the stars wink on as the sun set. The brightest star was the Sky-spirit, where mother and father most probably were. She waved at them to show she was doing what they told her to do. It should be enough for them to know she was all right and had enough to eat and drink – she actually preferred the left-over ship concentrates, anyway.

     No one else liked the concentrates – once they landed they pushed them to the back of the granary, but Wami had been eating them since her back gums got sore; she found them more convenient as they didn’t require chewing, and she didn’t mind the taste. She was a frugal girl, a single sachet was enough for a meal, and the sticky paste would not irritate her mouth in the long weeks until the scheduled med-ship would dock with the dentist aboard. They also didn’t go bad; their shelf life was hundreds of years.

      Wami’s mouth had begun to ache only after the med-ship’s last visit, but she bore this inconvenient irony with a stoic stubbornness. She didn’t want to visit the settlement again unless she had to, what with all the bodies in the Infirmary and the Church. The concentrates and water were pre-packaged in a sack and loaded on a dolly, and presented the opportunity to avoid the village as long as they lasted.

     Wami had simply dragged the dolly over the still dusty roads to set her bunker on the roof of the control tower to keep the Sky-spirit company. It could look down and see her, and know she kept her faith.  Mother and father could also watch over her and know she was doing as best she could.

     She had brought her toys with her, so she wouldn’t be any lonelier while she waited for help to come.

     She dusted the concrete in front of her shade-cloth and set her friends down on the ground. They were from her mother’s-mother back in the time they had all lived around the Ancestor-star, on old Earth. Grandmother had lived in the Kenyan highlands as a girl at the time the rains had stopped coming. Wami loved to hear her mother tell her stories about how they had moved with the toys over the cold distances to their new home, here, where their new life would begin.

     The memory of meeting the toys for the first time comforted her now. Mother had brought the toys in a little carry-case from ship storage as the beige marble in the ship’s viewer became fixed and grew bigger and bigger, then she introduced them to Wami. She was delighted from the moment Mother switched them on.

     Mother had said: “This is Waja with the lights and the dancing-stick and the speaker and this is his friend Kimi with lights and the cymbals. They shine at each other while Kimi plays. This is Wami with the wheels and she dances between them, while Biti here is the drummer and keeps time for her. I’m too old for them now, but I wanted you to have them before you were born, before I even knew you were coming.”

     Her five-year old self had asked: “My name is Wami too, did you name me after her?”

     Mother had answered: “Wami means ‘pretty’ in our old language. You’re both very pretty, so you’re both called Wami. One day when you’re old enough I’ll teach you more of how we used to talk before we began to speak only Panglish. There are so few of us now who remember the old tongue, but this is why everyone is coming here; to start again and fix that.

Now listen very carefully to what Waja asks you, and then answer with all your heart.”

     And Waja had blinked his lights and said: “[I Love you] [Do you love me?]” Perhaps it wasn’t just the words that crackled from the tiny speaker above his heart, or the flash of the different colored light that seeped from points in his face or along his uniform or the way he tilted his head when he spoke; Wami understood him clearly with the special wonder that any child has for her world.

     Wami had answered immediately: “I Love you!” and she knew she did from that moment on, with all her heart…

     Wami suddenly felt very sad as her toy friends lined up on the concrete before her. Now that she was settled and safe, all the things that she had seen began to weigh on her.

     Waja cocked his little head, “[Is anything wrong Wami?]”

     “I’m all alone now, Waja.” Wami dabbed at the tears rolling down her cheeks. “Play for me.”

     Waja waved his stick at the others, “[Don’t be sad Wami. We’ll play for you until you’re not lonely anymore.]”

     “I’m very lonely now, Waja.” Wami sobbed, “Play for me with all your heart.”

     “[We will, Wami],” Waja said, and Kami and Biti and little Wami agreed, “[We will dance while you are awake; and we will play while you are asleep. We will play will all our hearts until you are not alone.]”

     And so they began…

***

     Captain Sancha Cortosa held the steering steady as she swung the jets onto the baffles. “Locked and loaded guys!” she announced over the intercoms, “You know what to do, spread out and report back to me every half-hour. Call me immediately if you find something.”

     “Aye-aye” and “Roger-roger” and “Ten-four” fed over her coms-bead as the various teams set their call-signs and scooted out of the opening bay.

     “Nothing looks wrong, Captain.” Gunnery Sergeant Diego Baptista looked up from his feeds, “I don’t get it. The Satellite AI Star-mind is traumatized, sure… but nothing is wrong with it. No stellar radiation or cosmic waves, no physical damage to the colony to speak of.”

     “We’ll know when we get reports in, Diego,” Sancha snapped the buckles to lift out of the command chair, “In the meantime let’s just get used to this gravity, and search for survivors. We have trained our Multi-National Colony Response Team for years; that is us and this is not a drill.”

     “I’ll suit up.” Diego nodded, “Although I’m not sure there’s anything to target.”

     “Just run through our roles, Diego. I need my munitions marine ready for anything,” Sancha rubbed her shins, aching against the extra weight, “This is the first colony distress we’ve ever had, and we’ll go by the book on this run. We don’t know what we’ll find. Aside from the slightly heavier gravity, this place is supposed to be quite tame. Everyone has their job. Just do yours and I’ll do mine.”

                                  *

     Hours later Diego found her on top of the Star-Port staring at a makeshift shelter. He thought he heard a ting-ting-ting-tat-tat-tat sound as he rounded the roof-door, but it stopped as he approached the crouching woman.

     “Report.” She stood as her marine neared.

     “Negative human life-signs, all six hundred and four lost,” Diego sighed, “They’re taking them for autopsy now. We’ll know in a few hours. What’s this?”

     “She is the missing girl. Star-mind managed to track her life-sign until a week ago. She was the last of them. I think the Star-mind only stayed sane because of her toys.”

     “What… Oh meu Deus!” Diego gasped in surprise as he saw the little form huddled in the back of her play-fort.

     “You have children of your own, I recall.” Sancha stepped away from the pathetic sight. All the empty ship-rations and sachet packets had been carefully rolled and stacked in a neat pile. A bucket half-full with well-water rested under shade-cloth in the back of the shelter.

     “Two; a boy and a girl, they’re both still very young – ten years and eight. About the same age as this little girl.”

     “Children are always the hardest to find like this.” Sancha pressed her bead, “Ten-Four: Containment on Star-Port roof, it’s the missing girl; acknowledge.”

     “Ten-four, Star-Port roof.” the medic team buzzed back. “On our way.”

     “What are those?” Diego pointed as he dialed down his suit-alert to stand-by.

     “They’re Out-System designer toys.” Sancha looked down at the line of mechanical dolls watching her. “Solar-powered and built to last. They’re educational. They blend light, sound and motion, and are capable of an emotional connection with children. No real computational power to speak of, not even Type 1 intelligence… more like a 0.7… They’re just toys based on universal human tropes.”

     “But you said they were communicating with the Star-mind …?” Diego slipped off his face-plate to better see beyond his AR screens.

     “The LED’s of the ringmaster toy and the percussion toy are an ancient Morse-code communication; Star-mind has been eavesdropping on the instruction between these two. These toys have prevented the Star-mind from looping into a catatonic state, kept it in the present with minor variations of rhythm; and they’ve entertained it. They’re the actual heroes in this tragedy, go figure.”

     “Sancha…” Diego’s voice trembled. “She looks asleep, poor little thing all alone for those five weeks. How did we help her? What have we changed? We arrived a week too late.”

     “Don’t …!” Sancha snapped, “We keep to our jobs, Sergeant! Yours is the protection against physical threat and mine is the protection of the Senate Intelligent and Robotic assets. Just because we fuck between flights doesn’t mean you know me! I don’t care as much for these people as you do! That’s not my job, save all your compassion for someone who needs it!”

     Diego didn’t pay attention to her outburst; he just closed the distance between them, then folded her into his arms and held her as she resolved to stay steady. “Just because you work with machines doesn’t mean you are one.” He whispered into her ear as he held her.

     She was rescued from his comforting as a burst from the infrastructure team to her micro-bead allowed her the opportunity to gently push Diego away. “Engineering has something.” Sancha smiled gratefully at the big man. “Roger-roger: Report please, Poul.”

     “Roger-roger.Captain, we’ve found something on the potable water supply ducts in the settlement font.”

     “Explain, please. This is your specialty.”

     “The deep-drill water filters trap the minerals that the colonists reuse in the hydroponics and on the fallow fields, typically sodium and brine salts. They take the filtered powder-residue and just spread it in hydroponics if it’s from the Sulphur trap; or dump it on the salt-lick if it is from the brine filters.

     “The other water from the surface aquifers and other drill-sites they just drain into grey-water pools without ever drinking it. It’s naturally brackish so it’s fine for the plants and farm-stock animals. This is a desert-type planet for the most part, so there’s no fresh rainwater.”

     “So?” Sancha shrugged, she wasn’t making any connection.

     “The drinking water filters, Captain, specifically for the humans.” Poul’s voice sounded tense. “This starlight is slightly darker than Solar, with more orange light. Things look the same color under this light, but they’re not the same. Even on Earth they look very similar… Somewhere in the last three months, they’ve hit another mineral in the deep drill that looks like pure Sulphur; but isn’t.”

     “Well, what?” Sancha lost her patience with the young geologist.

     “I don’t think I should speculate…” Poul sounded flustered.

     “Just you fucking guess!” Sancha snapped, “That’s why you’re here.”

     “Orpiment, Captain.” Poul sighed, “Not just Sulphur. It’s an arsenic mineral. I’ll have to check with medical for the autopsy results when they’re ready, but I’m sure about one thing. If it is what I think it is in these quantities; then these guys were dead months ago and didn’t know it. The stuff builds up in human tissue until it reaches a critical mass, then it’s all over. Organ failure; typically, while one is asleep. Medical will have to confirm this.”

     “Thank you.” Sancha groaned quietly; the tension that had been building all morning started to ebb from her. “I’m sorry…” She accessed her toxicology archive and watched the entry for ‘arsenic’ stream in.

     “Captain, I understand.” Poul interrupted in his heavily accented Panglish, “There is very little pain. It is not the worst way you could go.”

     “She looks like she’s sleeping.” Diego stood up from the body, “You can hardly tell she’s dead.”

     “Apparently Arsenic is something that can do that. There is very little decomposition; medical is confirming this from the first autopsy results.” Sancha looked over the colony, “They confirm ‘heavy metal’ poisoning. This settlement is still viable; we can make sure this never happens again with a few adjustments to the process tech. We can fix this…” Sancha looked back at the little bundle “… but we can’t fix them…”

     “We should bury them properly.” Diego crouched to look at the little line of toys staring back at him, “Up on the hill, these dead should always be part of what we’re building here.” Diego must have triggered a proximity sensor on the line of toys, because the troop leader squeaked “[Ninakupenda], [Unanipenda]” from the tiny speaker in its chest.

     “What’s that mean?” he squinted up at Sancha. “Why did they stop playing when we got here?”

     “That’s their imprinting command. They’ve lost the connection with the girl, and then her last instruction ran its course. Whatever she told them to do, it’s done now.” She stepped to the edge of the tower, below her the bodies were being arranged in rows on the Starport’s geocrete slabs, “It usually only works for children. You and I can’t imprint; we’re past puberty. That’s when adult sex hormones re-wire the brain, and the toys can’t track the complex human emotions after that. I don’t know what condition she placed on them, but you should put them in their sleep-box to hibernate them.”

     “How does it work?” Diego carefully picked up the leader; he was convinced the toy was waiting for him to say something.

     “The child repeats the first word or phrase and then the toys will settle into the child’s language pattern, whatever it is. The toys learn to love that child and will teach them all sorts of advantageous developmental behavior. In return… they get a child’s unconditional love as feedback.” Sancha sighed, and waved absently near the little corpse, “You have young enough children, and you should take those with you when we leave here. Just use the case over there and take them. They shouldn’t be abandoned here; they are not useful to anybody but a small child. They’re just toys. They will reset and recalibrate language settings when another child is presented to them.”

     “Thank you, Sancha.” He stooped and opened the small carry case. Lining the niches for the toys, a nanite repair-gel shimmered in the sun’s light.

     “They just need to be loved…” Sancha shrugged. “If I can save nothing else on this planet, at least I can save them. I must put the Star-mind into hibernation and transport it next. The Type 5 is too emotional for this kind of work, I see that now. Losing this colony nearly drove it insane. It had even learned to speak Swahili to better interface with the colonists. Now, the Star-mind is the only thing left that can communicate in that language besides these toys, and it is having an existential crisis. At least his systems logs are still in Panglish. It pains me to consider this, but for the last week the only things speaking Swahili have been a Star-mind and a troupe of toys. The toys will automatically switch language when presented with a new opportunity, unfortunately I will have to expunge the Star-mind and recalibrate it.” She inhaled long, before she spoke again.

 “Think of it, the Refugia of an ancient language will end – and by my hand. Here I mean end as in gone from Old Earth, from this world and from the Universe. We can’t have this happen again. My report will insist on Type 3 for future colony Star-minds.” She sighed and stared over the bustle of her team in the buildings below and the shrouded forms lining up on the Star-Port pavement. “They were nearly ready; they were only weeks away from a sustainable, agrarian settlement; so close. Diego when you’re done here, respectfully process the bodies. Bury them on high ground above the water table as they fall out of autopsy. Identify and match them from the colony records by name. More than a people died here; a language, an entire culture… all their hope for a different future. I’ll be in the ship with the clean-up and Transport reports.”

     “Captain, nobody ever suspects the water of harm. This could have happened anywhere in human space, even back on Old Earth. We Humans die very easily when we’re isolated, there is always this risk when we set out. You simply can’t take this on yourself.”

     “I’m not, Diego.”  Sancha headed off the roof. “My lesson from this tragedy is that my machines require contact with more people. I can work on that.”

     Diego nodded as he put the toys into their slots, first the drummer then the little dancer, then the percussionist.

     “[Ninakupenda], [Unanipenda]” insisted the ring-leader as he placed the others into the case.

     “There you go; brinquedinho inteligente.” Diego smiled at the toy and placed him in his slot, “I know another little girl who will love you again.” As Diego followed his Captain back to the ship, he convinced himself that the lost look on the little toy’s face couldn’t have been there; that it was incapable of comprehending what had happened here.

The End

Caldon Mull has had a long publishing career in Technology, and various Game publications under different nom de plumes, and in his own name. He has traveled extensively throughout Africa and Central Asia, and has worked in Antarctica. When he is not currently working in a Technology field, he is usually writing Science Fiction and Fantasy, and looking to expand his Genre work into new directions.

The Story of How You Died – Simbiat Haroun

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Cover art for Omenana issue 14
Art by Sunny Efemena

We had just settled into bed when we heard you climbing up the wall.

Our beds were soft, and the covers, pulled up to our chins. Grandma, after telling us a bedtime story – the one about the time Ijapa went up to heaven and ate all the food – had gone to her room, eager to retire. We smelled the death approaching her body, and sadness crept onto us as we watched her limp her way to the door. Grandma was always convinced that we could not see her in the darkness.

You were struggling to pull yourself over the fence when we saw you. Taiye went first, to stand by the large window in the room we all share, then the rest of us (Kehinde and Idowu) followed. We stood together by the window, pulled the heavy blue drapes apart and watched as you struggled to cross over.

The fence that surrounds our small house is high, but the part that you managed to scale is lower, brought low by others like you who had tried to do the same thing, but failed, quite painfully. Did you not know? We are treasured, cherished. So treasured that our parents, just last month, gave their lives so that we would not be caught by another, who, like you, had been in search of our golden mat. We were born with it, this mat made of shimmering links of gold and worth a small country’s decade-long budget. Our mother pushed it out with our placenta, and without it, we will cease to exist.

Grandma did not bother to fix the fence because she thought the wall on that part of the house was high enough, coupled with the extra security. So, we let her believe we were safe. What she did not know would not hurt her.

While we watched you eventually climb down the fence, sticking your feet into the grooves left by your compatriots, we smiled because we knew what was to come. You made it into the compound as we knew you would. Several others had. We watched as you made your way closer to the house.

The small pink house, with its large windows, which looked like a cottage home, must have been the least of your worries when you thought of all the ways you could take what you came for. Tales of our mat have travelled across seas and deserts, and we have seen many others such as you who have tried to steal it. Others like us, who lacked protection like ours, have had their mats stolen. We dreamt of their deaths when it happened, watched them writhing in pain, burning in a fire that no one else could see.

We watched as you picked your way through the tall grasses and navigated the grave markers. We watched as you stepped on the homes of our relatives – including the long dead and recently buried. We felt nothing for them.

Our eyes must have called you when you were close enough, our purple eyes that we have been told make people feel like they are looking into purple glass. Our eyes which unsettle people, sending them as far away from us as they can get. Our eyes must have called you because you looked up. It was sudden; you raised your right leg, trying to avoid the barbed wires scattered around the grave markers, and you met our eyes. We looked at you too, all three of us, our hands linked, and we saw into your mind.

We saw that you really didn’t want our mat. Under the light of the sun, you were a civil servant, slaving away for long hours and receiving a paltry salary in return. We saw your mother, lying in bed from an illness she would never recover from, and we felt pity for you. We saw the fear in your eyes, raw, naked, unfettered. We could see that you didn’t really want to do this, but what could we do? We were merely threads in fate’s spool.

You stepped on the barbed wire anyway – it was inevitable, you would have stepped on something. You really shouldn’t have shouted, as that’s what wakes them up, every time.

Grandpa stood first, dug out of the earth like an earthworm in search of water. He shook the sand from his body and looked in the direction of the sound; your direction. Others followed slowly – they were not quite as hungry as Grandpa. We have a lot of dead relatives and it had been a while for him. They all unearthed themselves, some of them stuffing eyes back in their sockets, others fixing joints that had come loose. Through it all, we watched.

We knew Idowu thought you were quite handsome. We could see why she would think so. You were dark-skinned, the kind of man we liked, and you had a strong jaw. It was easy to think you were handsome, but we were only twelve and grandma would not approve of such thoughts, so Idowu banished them. She held her breath instead, and allowed the grief of your impending end to settle beneath her collarbones while we continued to watch.

The look on your face as you registered what was happening hollowed out our bellies. Usually, we would be amused at what was to come, but this time, we were not. We wished we could go down and help you, but we could not. We could never leave the house, ever. So, we watched as grandpa towered over you and looked you over – you were still crumpled on the floor and your leg was bleeding, poor you. Without saying anything, he grabbed you under your arms, and he raised you from the ground. His joints creaked as he did this. You shouted, begged, and did everything you could, we could do nothing but watch, and listen. You looked at us as you begged, and then we saw, you did not regret this. For your mother, you would have done it over and over again. We turned away and wiped our tears, and we were surprised – we did not cry for people like you.

We could not continue to watch after this. We heard you struggle against grandpa’s hold, begging, with the other dead relatives witnessing – there to make sure grandpa got his turn, that you did not escape.

When grandpa squeezed you to his chest and entered into the ground again, we did not watch. We were too busy sobbing into our palms, collecting our tears, and wishing we could destroy the mat, and ourselves along with it.

END

Simbiat Haroun is a certified foodie. She lives in Nigeria but barely goes anywhere, preferring to spend her time at home reading and writing. She writes both literary and speculative fiction, but the latter is her first love. She enjoys writing stories about strong women doing amazing things. She is a graduate of the Purple Hibiscus Creative Writing Workshop.

The Silent God – Haku Jackson

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I’m no god. Not by a long shot. But I suppose I’m not exactly human either. At least, not anymore. It isn’t everyday one chooses to dissociate and sever all ties with their own kind, is it? Some would think me the worst kind of traitor, others, a mad scientist of sorts. But they all speak because they are ignorant. They’ve not seen the monsters that I’ve seen; that I still see. People don’t know that if monsters are only found in hell, then the earth is hell. But I have enough experience to know that monsters don’t have horns on their heads or dribble fire and brimstone from their mouths.

Devils walk amongst us, live inside of each of us. They wear clothes like us and talk like us. Maybe even love like us. Look in the mirror and tell me truly.

What do you see?

*

The place reeks of trauma, sorrow and despondency. The internally displaced persons’ camp is less of a camp and more of an open air gathering and this particular one boasts of more than two thousand people. I see only a handful of men here; most of them are probably dead from the insurgence that forced their wives and children here in the first place. I walk among them; unseen, unheard, unfelt. As you know, the things you see exist in three dimensions which by Cartesian coordinates are in the x, y and z directions. What you don’t know however and probably never will for decades, is that things can also exist in the negatives of these directions. In other words, there are actually six dimensions of existence: three positive and three negative. I now exist in the negative dimensions or as some people have termed it in ignorance, the astral plane. Have you never heard people of science talk about matter popping out of nothing in deep space? Where do you think that matter comes from or rather, crosses over from?

I exist in the true negatives, not the flawed gibberish you were taught in Cartesian algebra, and so I am unable to interact directly with the normal plane anymore. You think this is sad? No. I think it is a blessing.

I drift through the camp, a ghost in the machine of physical existence. Some of the people seem to shamble about aimlessly, others are talking in hushed tones. But the majority simply sit and stare at nothing, into nothing. These are the ones who realize the extent of their situation. The ones who know that their lives are changed forever. For the worst. They are the ones who know fate has shattered the pane of their lives with a sledgehammer and left them to try and reassemble the shards of the remnants.

Few of the children play, though even the manner in which they do so speaks of something hampered and possibly mangled within. Most of them don’t bother anymore, though. You can see them huddled with their mothers, trying to cover their eyes and faces from the dark, dark spectrum of life that fate has chosen to show them a bit too early.

My eyes rest on one child in particular. Bushy hair speckled with sand, he runs up and down, chasing his plastic ball with all the vigour and innocence of childhood. Maybe he’s one of those children who choose to stubbornly hold on to their youth, regardless of circumstance. Or maybe this child didn’t have to see gunmen butcher his father with a machete or watch them restrain his mother and take turns desecrating her womanhood with their twice-cursed manhoods. Maybe the child didn’t have his raped and battered mother pick herself up after, and, taking his hands, run through kilometres of shrubbery and grasslands to one of the many IDP camps in the state while their village lit up the night in flames.

Or just maybe the boy is as oblivious as stone.

Scrawny and bare-chested in tattered khaki shorts, I watch him play with his little ball. He smiles as he runs and for a moment, I feel the stirrings of something akin to brotherly affection for this child. The relief trucks haven’t arrived yet and I wonder what will happen to these people when their hope is finally trampled like dry leaves underfoot. I suppose it is hope that fills the boy’s belly, not food and for now, I guess that should provide him enough energy to play.

Silly little boy. Save your hopes for the coming days. It will be all you have.

I see it in many faces here too; that tiny glow called hope. These people hope their government stands by them, the light in their darkness.

They hope because they do not know that someone has already been contracted to send the relief trucks to the camp. Eleven trucks of relief items are supposed to be headed their way at that very moment. They hope because they do not know that the contractor has diverted all the trucks, to sell the goods off and make eight figures, just like that.

They hope because they do not know that no one cares about what they do not see.

Evening descends and the people lay mats and spread wrappers across the red earth Thick forests frame the horizon and the moon begins to crawl up in what promises to be a cloudless night. The beauty of nature isn’t selective of place or circumstance at all, apparently. At times like this I wish I could light a pipe, take a nice drag, and blow smoke into the ether. I would fancy the smoke going up and up, long after it dissipates, to kiss the surface of the moon. I do miss some things.

I used to be a physicist. I suppose I still am, though obviously I don’t practice anymore. What is the point in helping humanity if we are just destined to be a scourge to ourselves? I don’t regret denouncing my humanity, not one bit, but sometimes I wonder if I could have at least tried to change something about the world rather than cut myself off. I don’t know. Maybe I am at fault too.

I suppose you’re still wondering how I got here. Pay close attention. The human body vibrates at a certain frequency and I’d long hypothesized the existence of the astral plane as a negative region of current space, long before I got disillusioned with human beings and their ills. So, when I invented the machine that could reset my natural frequency to safely vibrate in its negative, there was no hesitation, no second thoughts. That’s how I ended here.

The downside: I can’t crossover to the normal plane anymore. It’s impossible to operate the machine from here. I do not really mind being stuck here. It’s worth it, I guess

I survey the IDP camp; a community brought together and unified by chaos. Some people are quietly sobbing now as the reality of sleeping without a roof hits them hard. Now, they’re convinced it’s all real. No warm bed to sleep in. No warm bed to make love in. No warm bed to tuck your children in. It’s just red earth and your mat or wrapper. Those with mats have been here much longer than those with wrappers. Quite a number are still getting intimate with the hardness of the bare, red earth. These are the ones who fled when the trouble had already fallen.

The playing child I saw earlier is with his mother now and fortunately for them, her wrapper is long enough to comfortably cover them both as they make a bed of the bare ground.

An MRI scan, or any brain scan basically, will not show you the presence of thoughts or dreams. That’s because these two things manifest here in the astral plane and not the usual physical dimension. Well, technically, thoughts manifest in the abstract plane, but that is another thing for another day. If I walk close to a person, I can make out the swirling smoke-like mass of their dreams as it radiates outwards from their brains. Having practiced enough, I can call dreams to me, alter them if I so wish and send them back or I can simply dissipate them if inclined to do so. But I can do this for dreams only. It’s one of the few queer abilities I’ve come to discover here in this plane.

The boy isn’t smiling anymore now, the pangs of hunger beginning to set in. For a moment, I think to give him and the other children good dreams of plenty; of food, exquisite merriment and happiness to last a lifetime. I decide against that, however. I figure it would be most inhumane of me if I let them experience all of that and then return to their current world of strife, anguish and wretchedness. I couldn’t do that to anyone, much less children.

 When night falls proper and the half moon is at its apex, I take away the dreams of all the sleeping children. And I give them nothing. For come morning, instead of food, blankets and other things, all these people would have…

Is nothing.

*

 “Your daughter is beautiful, wallahi.”

“Can’t you see my face? Why wouldn’t she be beautiful?” the father of the girl laughs. He and his guest are in his garden, seated on a tasselled, indigo rug under the mango tree in the backyard. It is a windy evening and I imagine the place to be filled with the heady scent of the vividly colourful wildflowers speckled at the edges of the surrounding hedges, with some dotting the grounds here and there. Everywhere must smell wonderful, I suppose, since I am unable to perceive it anymore. I can’t actually hear them; their thoughts precede their mouths and sync with it as they form words and thus, I can get completely accurate conversations without actually relying on my now defunct sense of physical hearing. I’m still unable to fathom why I retained my physical sight. Perhaps it’s one of those mysteries I am unable to solve now.

I float toward the sitting pair. The mango fruits hanging overhead are still small, green. I think it odd, how I had seen numerous mango trees during my time on the physical plane and yet I never saw one bearing ripe fruit before. I saw ripe ones only at the market or roadside makeshift fruit stalls. I drift over their heads and follow their eyes to the object of their discussion.

A few metres away picking at one of the wildflowers, a young girl, no more than thirteen years old, in an amethyst-purple full-length hijab is faced away from both men. On pulling out the flower; a lovely thing with petals of a soft orange hue, she turns towards them and approaches with her face all smiles, highlighting the dainty gap between her upper incisors.

“Baba, I brought it for you,” she says, holding it out to her father like an offering.

“Thank you, Amina.” The girl’s father takes it, lifts it to his nose to inhale its scent .“The flower is as fine and sweet as you.”

The girl’s grin threatens to split her face in two. She bows her head slightly at her father, then at her father’s guest. I see a light form in the other man’s eyes: a twinkle a girl that young should not be able to spark in one so old.

“Amina, you didn’t bring one for me,” the man speaks.

“Hmm, sorry Alhaji,” Amina replies, her little brows furrowed. “I didn’t know you like flowers.”

“Who doesn’t like flowers? Especially beautiful ones?” the Alhaji laughs and his full greying beard quivers with the force of his mirth.

“Amina, go and get one for Alhaji,” her father says, laughing softly. The girl flashes a smile and runs to a corner of the backyard, apparently seeking a flower that would render her father’s guest speechless.

“Your daughter would make a fine woman, Yusuf. A very fine woman.” The Alhaji runs a finger through his thick beard, his eyes never leaving the little figure in purple.

The girl’s father nods his head as he looks at the flower his daughter gave him. I see his thoughts swirl around his head, a maelstrom of dull and vibrant colours and I imagine him likening his daughter to the quaint flower between his fingers. “She will be, Ibrahim.”

“Yusuf.” The man leans in closer to his companion. “I want to ask for your daughter’s hand in marriage.”

What? I sharply turn my head to stare at the Alhaji. I’d heard that marriages like this happen in the northern part of the country and I had heard it was quite common with adherents of their religion around the world. The girl’s father does not share my look of complete shock nor register my growing revulsion. His eyebrows are merely lifted in mild surprise. “You, Ibrahim?”

“Yes. Me,” the Alhaji continues. “I’m willing to wed your daughter. A girl this young should be protected from the wolves in the form of young boys who are only there to dim the light of someone so bright.”

In this moment, I wish I had retained my sense of touch. I want to slap the teeth off the crazy man, the fire of whose loins could be stoked by a child who has barely attained puberty. I want to slap the girl’s father for not slapping the man himself. But all I can do is fume and watch in silence.

Yusuf exhales deeply and turns his face in his daughter’s direction. The men are silent for several moments still and the wind picks up, blowing through the yard and once again I think of how pleasant it would be to sit in this place, surrounded by the tangy scent of unripe mangoes and the blissful smell of wildflowers. Amina is still metres away, searching for the perfect flower to present to the one apparently intent on deflowering her.

“Ibrahim,” Yusuf speaks up now, eyes still on his daughter. “You have two lovely wives already. Why would you still want my daughter?”

“Your daughter, Amina, is special, unique.” The Alhaji turns to Yusuf. “We have been friends for more than twenty years, Yusuf. Someone as precious as your daughter should be protected from the avoidable tragedies of life, while also still being able to enjoy its pleasure and fullness. I can offer her all that and more. You know so.”

Yusuf is silent for a few more moments before he speaks. “I know.” He exhales again. A few minutes pass before he turns to look at his friend. “You have my blessings, Ibrahim.”

And just like that, the flame of a young girl is dimmed by a pair of elderly men, one of who is her own father. I watch, appalled, as the decision is made to thrust a child into the forays of womanhood while the child, in perfect blissful ignorance, unknowingly seeks out a floral gift for her impending husband.

Ϫ

Two of them hold down the thrashing woman on the grassy earth while a third undoes his belt buckle and a fourth stands a few feet away, a smartphone in his hands recording the proceedings on video. We are in the hours of deep night, behind an uncompleted building, the borders of each individual cement block starkly visible. This far behind the building, we’re into deep bushes that run for kilometres behind the building in this godforsaken fringe of the urban settlement.

I am a few feet from the group, an incipient witness to a horrifying wrong. One of the two holding her down has a hand clamped over her mouth. It isn’t her muted screams or the wild way she struggles against the men that chills my bones and roots me to the spot; it is the laughter and jeers from her attackers as they nonchalantly pry her legs apart, ripping parts of her short skirt in the process.

The choked screams of the young woman increase in pitch and intensity as the first one begins defiling her. I stand through it all, unmoving; I can’t bring myself to stir. The hirsute man currently on her, thrusting away like an epileptic animal, is smiling and speaking words at her that my stunned mind is unable to understand. He ends, then getting up, he spits on the woman and takes the place of one of the men holding her down. Like this they take turns, the fourth man recording faithfully. When the lady can scream no more and resignation bleeds from her eyes, she lets her head roll to the side as the men have their way.

Then her eyes come to rest on me.

At least, that is what I think. I gaze into her eyes, into that vast sea of brown, while my heart hammers, and I feel corresponding throbs near my ears, accentuating a sense of guilt slowly bringing its tendrils around me. Why do I feel like that?

When the last man is through, he gets up, lightly kicks the woman on the leg once and laughs. The fourth man stops recording; he didn’t participate as his companions did, yet in my revulsion, I am assailed by an inexplicable curiosity as to why he did not. They laugh and talk about how ‘nice’ the woman was for a short while before they turn and jog in the direction of the far-off street lights, leaving behind a damaged woman and a ghost.

Her eyes are still on me, seeing or not seeing me. I float rooted to my position, riveted by the enigmatic essence radiating from her staring, brown eyes. I suddenly feel utterly soiled; tainted in a way so profound I can’t help the feelings and dark thoughts that crawl into my mind. In that moment, I feel like an accomplice to the crime those men had just committed and I try to work my mouth, if only to convey how sorry I am for her; how I would have stopped it if I could. But my thoughts and mouth are not in sync this time and my maw keeps opening and closing in soundless stutters.

“I… I am… I am so sorry.” My own voice sounds like a light breeze to me; weak and muted. The woman’s eyes don’t leave me and the feeling of guilt within me augments so drastically that I can’t take it anymore. I turn and rapidly drift away from the scene, as fast as I can.

I told you I was no god. Gods do not shed tears.

I flee deeper into bushes until I come upon a large hill. I hover here and cry like a child. Do I have anything to be ashamed of? Can you hear a crying shadow? No. You can’t. I let myself weep until even my eyes tire of me. Who knows, maybe my guilt will run with my tears and leave me.

I look to the moon as the tears run silently down. It is full tonight. And bright. It sits there, high in the sky, above humanity; above all the darkness beneath and suddenly I long for that. I long to be up there with that moon, far from all the pain; far from all the guilt.

I move over the hill slowly, until it drops away and I am hovering hundreds of feet above the land. The sight of the kilometres of bush and grasslands below is majestic, more so with the gray light of the planetary sentry above washing over the land. I turn my eyes up to it, that majestic orb of light. It looks back down at me like a god, a real god. I spread out my arms and tilt my entire body back at an angle, reclining on empty air. Then I close my eyes and force myself to drift upward.

Do you believe in ghosts, I wonder? I don’t.

I feel myself slowly rise further above the land, above the tallest trees and above the highest hills and mountains. I feel the moon call out to me and embrace me with its light. I rise above the men and women living down below, rising also above the monsters. I feel myself rising above the murky emotions that come with being human and the ills and joys of life. I feel myself rise.

Rising above it all.

END.

Haku Jackson is the pseudonym of a young man that writes in the dead of night (maybe), sleeps all day and eats at ungodly hours. His literary and speculative fiction works have appeared on African Writer, Arts & Africa. He is an alumnus of both Chimamanda Adichie’s Purple Hibiscus Trust Workshop and Goethe-Institut’s AfroYoungAdult Workshop. He is a sucker for alternative music bands with abstract-sounding names.

Tiny Bravery – Ada Nnadi

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Illustration for Tiny Bravery Omenana 14
Art by Sunny Efemena

If the girl sitting across from me had my powers, she’d do what I do every day: be invisible. But she doesn’t, and she compensates for it by sinking lower into her seat. Her wings stretch around her to form a dome that shields her face from view. She’s trying to avoid the attention from the kids at the table behind her.

Their leader, Grace – detained here because she kept teleporting people she didn’t like to the Sahara Desert – had commanded one of the assistabots to play the “Egnevaing Angle” video. The bot had complied, hovering above their heads so those at the table and whoever was curious enough to look over could see.

I turn away from the hologram being projected by the bot and begin to cut my akara into precise shapes. I’ve seen the video before, and although I do feel bad, it is impossible to watch with a straight face.

It starts with the winged girl in a bus-stop, waiting for a hanfo. She’s wingless and scratching furiously at her back. Working herself into a frenzy, oblivious to the crowd she’s beginning to draw. Her hand slips into her uniform. She pulls out a feather. The camera captures her expression of dismay as she looks at the feather, mouthing one word repeatedly, “No.”

There’s a snapping sound and she doubles over, body juddering. She mewls loudly. Two humps start to grow out of her back.

“Someone help her!” a voice says.

The person recording abruptly turns to a woman as she pulls out from the crowd. There are wrinkles between her brows and at the sides of her mouth, which tighten as she approaches the girl. When they’re close enough to touch, the woman pauses in her advance, wheezing. It’s hard not to notice the white in her afro or the way she appears drawn into herself, shoulders close to her body.

Under the attention of the RERD chip/contacts – you never know with these things – her wrinkles seem like something carved into her face.

The woman looks to be in her mid-twenties – young enough to be part of the Second Generation consisting of preteens and young adults like me. The Geanomic-2: progenies of the children who survived the effects of the Green Harmattan forty-three years ago, mutations that reengineered the genes of foetuses three-months old and below. The alterations for the rest of the country – adults, mostly – hadn’t been as kind.

Despite how young she looks, the woman carries herself as if she were older, like the years were a burden, one for the stoop in her shoulders, a few more for the wrinkles on her face, the rest trailing behind her like a tail humans haven’t had the need for in a few thousand years.

“No touch am o!” someone in the crowd shouts. “I hear of one woman wey when her pikin dey change, she do mistake touch the boy, na so serious electric just shock am. Na laik dat she take die.”

The air ripples with murmurs from the crowd. Someone spits out the word “demonic.” The woman’s spine straightens and she takes a step forward, reaching out a hand to an exposed skin on the girl’s leg. She takes a deep breath. Her eyes turn a bright yellow. The girl’s shuddering stops, the tension in her body dissipating. The woman whimpers, and as if run through by a hand covered in ash, her hair turns gray and then back to brown, the white in it more plenty than before.

It’s baffling why anyone would find this funny, I know, but as soon as the girl stops shaking, great wings burst from her back in a bloom of black feathers, rending her shirt. They’re not bloody, but there’s a slimy sheen to them.

The girl slinks away from the lady, who has ducked to avoid the onslaught of feathers. Her wings flutter, perhaps trying to shake off the greasy coating or responding to her unease, it’s hard to tell. They spread out from her back, and people stoop or move away to avoid them. She looks over her shoulder and gasps, her lips moving with the familiar refrain, “No!”

Her hands reach behind her as if to pull the wings from their stumps. The wings give one great beat and as quick as a shot, the girl is up in the air, screaming her head off.

Her refrain changes to something else: “Jesus! Jesus!”

Her wings stretch beyond her arms, taking her higher. She knocks askew a surveillance drone whose beacon has begun to flash red for the unfolding disturbance. She loops over a train overpass, and in a breathtaking moment, with the sun as a backdrop, she looks like the representation of an avenging angel – even if this one was awkward and screaming like her head was on fire.

When she flies past a com tower, her hands clamp onto the bars for dear life as her wings beat, pulling her in the other direction. However, she hangs onto it like a long-lost friend.

“Mummie o,” she screams. “Mummie o.”

It takes four flight-aptitude authorities – one of them a geanom with dragonfly wings – to get her to come down. And even then, she refuses to fly herself down. They give her a numbing shot and one of them carries her down instead. I would have thought the story would end well for all the parties involved but she’s here, at geanomic rehab, which means there’s either something wrong with her powers or something goes wrong when she uses her powers.

I study her openly – one of the good things about being invisible. Her wings are no longer shielding her face but she has created a pile of feathers on the table from pulling them out. Maybe that’s why she’s here, because she has geanomic trichotillomania.

She pauses in her feather-pulling and cocks her head in my direction, her gaze narrowing. I don’t look away. Some geanoms can sense me, but I’ve never met one who can see me.

She’s tall, lanky even. It appears that her body is covered in scales – reticula – making it a glossy brown. They’re only obvious when the light hits her skin a certain way, but I’m not surprised. Her geanomaly appears to be of the animalia kind.

Laughter comes from the other table. Someone has replayed the video, and it has gotten the attention of a handful of people in the lunchroom. The girl winces. A few of her feathers flail. She resumes plucking them out, one at a time, faster than before. I wonder if they hurt like it does when you pull a hair strand from your body. Her face gives no indication to support my theory.

I dip my akara in my custard and take a bite. The people on our table don’t bat a lid at the spectacle I create. My not being present but still affecting things around me is nothing compared to Adeyemi, who refuses to sleep because he always wakes up in someone else’s body, or Ibrahim, whose susceptibility to misfortune is higher than average and can be transferred to anyone he touches. He wears a hazmat suit with an automatic call button in case he starts to asphyxiate in it like he did yesterday.

There’s Cee, who affects reality any time they say the words “I wish,” and who was remanded here because they tried to make a potato the Nigerian president. They had been caught because there are people who watch for these things, especially when someone with a similar ability had tried to remake the world in her own image.

We work with parapsychologists to “achieve a balance between our abilities and our places as human beings.” For some people like Ibrahim, parapsychologists clear them for power dampening chips or even a cure. Adeyemi signed the consent forms for his chip a week ago, and Ibrahim is awaiting feedback for a customised cure, engineered with his geanomaly in mind.

I’m actually fine with being invisible. But my psychologist told my parents I’m using my powers to deal with past trauma. With only a few minutes needed each day to recharge and reacclimatise my atoms with this reality, I’ve been invisible for eighteen months.

The girl’s screaming of “Jesus” gets a bigger reaction from her audience the second time around. There’s raucous laughter and she grabs a handful of her feathers and pulls.  This time, pain flashes on her face and before I know what I’m doing, I’m reaching for her hand.

“Stop,” I say. She looks at where my hand should be and rips out another feather. “Stop it!” I hiss. I let the hand atop hers appear – gloved. It gets cold the longer I stay invisible.

“Doesn’t it hurt?” I ask.

“Doesn’t it hurt?” she echoes.

“What?”

“Doesn’t it hurt, being invisible?”

I contemplate my answer. “As long as I don’t stay invisible for more than thirteen hours at a time, I’m usually fine.”

“What are you hiding from?” she asks.

“Why are you plucking your feathers?” I shoot back.

She smiles. “I hate them. I hate the attention,” she pauses. “You hate the attention too. Maybe not the kind of attention I get, but it’s definitely why you’re hiding.”

“Small-small sha. If you add trauma in there somewhere, you just might sound like my therapist.”

She laughs. “I’m Isoken, by the way,” I say.

“Chinwe,” she replies, and stops pulling out her feathers long enough to give me a smile.

Because she can’t see the smile I offer her in return, I give the hand still atop hers a squeeze before withdrawing it. I’m about to have it disappear again, when I notice her watching it, hand trailing over her wings, but not doing any ripping. I let the hand remain visible. I give her a thumbs up.

Her smile widens, and until an orderly takes her away, her wings don’t lose any more feathers.

*

The therapy room is my least favourite place in geanomic rehab. It’s an average-sized room that the facilitating therapist makes even smaller by having us sit in a close circle. There are no windows, and the bio-flo lights are turned on low.

They used to play “soothing” music until a technopath took out the speakers and the facility’s power grid because he heard wraiths speaking to him through the song.

“Isoken, would you like to be present with us today?” the facilitator asks me.

I shrug and give her my usual response. “I’m present enough.”

Someone snorts, but I refuse to pay her any attention. The therapist continues staring at me. An empty chair in a circle of six people makes me very conspicuous. She’s trying to pinpoint my face, my eyes probably, with her pensive stare, but she’s going to have to go a little lower than that. She looks at the tablet in her hands and I know she’s cognitively writing notes about me.

Someone stumbles in and we turn.

“Chinwe,” the therapist says. “Nice of you to join us. How about you grab a chair and join the circle?”

“Or she could sit here?” Grace points to the chair a seat away from her. The chair I’m on. “There’s no one there,” she says innocently.

The therapist gives her a disapproving look. “Grace, you know Isoken is in that seat.”

“She’s not o. She just left. I sensed her leaving.”

Uncertainty smoothens away the disapproving line of the therapist’s mouth, and before she can ask, I say in a jaded tone, “I’m still here.”

Grace does this every time. She pretends I’m not there because I’m invisible and then tries to trick others into doing the same. It’s a tiring joke. Even if I don’t want to be seen, I refuse to be ignored – a conundrum, I know. I may not look like the Isoken from eighteen months ago, but I still sound like her – something I hope never changes.

Chinwe looks from Grace to the therapist and then to the chair I’m in. I want to wave, but what good is that? She walks over to the side of the room, takes out a chair from a stack and carries it to the circle. The action takes longer than it should because her wings keep trying to lift her off the floor while she insists on doing the opposite.

The six of us watch the scene. Adeyemi has pity turned up to the highest. Cee’s expression best matches what I’m feeling – a little pity, a little confusion and a lot of curiosity. The girl sitting between Grace and I is cringing and clutching her hijab, feet bouncing. A few weeks ago, she had been a blur, stuck in a loop from constant alterations of her time stream, trying to redo conversations, events and anything at all that fell short of what she held as ideal.

She looks like she’d really like to give Chinwe a do-over or even a bump in time in order to avoid the scene playing out in front of her. Chinwe’s wings get the upper hand, dragging her a few steps backward. Grace snickers and I swallow the urge to lean over and just wrap my hands around her neck for a few minutes.

“Chinwe,” the therapist calls, her expression kind, “how about you try not to fight it?”

Although Chinwe looks like she’d rather do the opposite, she gives it a go, letting her wings take the lead. They stretch, but not to their full length and give a small flutter, lifting her an inch or two off the floor. Chinwe’s visage is grim, her approach unsteady, but she covers the short distance with no problem and shoves her chair between Cee and me.

Cee gives her a smile and I adjust my seat to make room for her.

“See?” the therapist says, eyes glowing with triumph. “That wasn’t so hard, was it? Good job, Chinwe.”

Adjusting to get into a comfortable position with her wings tucked behind her chair, Chinwe gives the therapist a dubious look, but she’s writing more notes into her tablet. I use the distraction to whisper, “Give her a big smile. She might give you a gold star.”

“Really?”

“You get a gold star, you get a gold star. Gold stars for everybody.”

Chinwe laughs. Her eyes travel lower. “Where is your hand? You showed it the last time.”

“Ah.” I fidget. “I don’t usually let other people see me. I’m invisible most of the time.”

“Why?”

This is the second time she’s asking this question, but the directness of this attempt throws me off so that I’m stunned for a few seconds. My personal therapist tries to prod the answer out of me by asking subtle questions that get me to talk and perhaps put things into perspective. He doesn’t push, but Chinwe’s question jolts, requiring me to think about the reason I keep hiding and I don’t like it.

“Maybe if you share why you’re so afraid of using your powers, I just might tell you why I choose to remain unseen,” I bite out. When I turn away from her, I find the therapist watching me with that pensive expression. This time, she manages to catch my eye, and my anger flares, prickling my skin through the coldness that comes with being invisible.

I force myself to relax. She can’t see me. I’m safe here. My voice is still Isoken’s. The therapist finally looks away.

“Chinwe,” she begins. “I heard about your episode in the dining area. Would you like to talk about it?”

Chinwe shifts in her seat. Her eyes leap to me and then back to the therapist. “I hate these things,” she says gesturing to her wings. “I don’t want them.”

The therapist sports a thoughtful expression. She writes in her tablet. “And why is that?”

“Do you know who my mother is?”

“I know of her. But no one would know her better than you, so why don’t you tell us?”

“I’m different.”

The therapist nods. “Yes, I know. These abilities—”

“Not that kind of different.” Chinwe shakes her head. “I’m erm… I’m different, sexuality-wise.”

Grace snorts. The therapist gives her a quelling look while I debate how to get away with strangling her in the presence of six witnesses.

Chinwe doesn’t let that stop her. “They say the Green Harmattan killed one-fourth of Nigerians, right? One-fourth of four hundred million people gone, just like that. My mother’s family, most of them died. Only her twin sister – they’re fraternal twins – got powers, but it didn’t end up well for her either. So my mother bought into the idea of the apocalypse, the end-time mania. My uncle says it’s her way of getting closure. But her way of getting closure is erm… very…”

“Fundamentalist,” I offer.

She nods. “Yes, that word. She was very dedicated to the cause. It didn’t take long for her to be made a reverend and then she married the founder of the church. After his death, she became the new GO. They had me some time before he died.”

A chair scrapes, Halima, the hijabi girl changing positions. Adeyemi rubs at his neck. Grace lets out a loud yawn and Cee shoots her a glare that suggests they’re seriously considering altering her reality.

“My mom knows I…” She flails her hands. “That I am—”

“A homosexual,” Grace deadpans.

“Grace.” The therapist’s voice carries a warning.

“What? She didn’t want to say it. I was just helping her out.”

“Dem send you message?” Cee says. “Stop helping.”

“Now, everybody, calm down,” the therapist says. “This is a safe place, a support group. Let’s allow Chinwe her chance to be open with us. Please continue, Chinwe.”

“We agreed, my mom and I, we agreed that we’d keep it a secret. Her acceptance of what I am was enough.”

“That’s not acceptance,” Adeyemi interrupts. The therapist stays silent.

Chinwe lifts her chin. “It was enough for me. It’s better than being thrown out or subjected to prayers.”

“What about now? Is it still enough?” the therapist asks.

A beat passes. Chinwe’s feathers fidget. “I can hide being a homosexual,” she finally says. “But not this.” She gestures to her back.

*

Chinwe doesn’t say anymore after that. The session ends with Halima sharing her progress with not using her powers when things don’t go her way. The therapist gives Chinwe a pat and congratulates her for sharing before leaving. Soon, it’s just me, Chinwe, and Grace in the room.

Grace is playing teleporter tag, appearing at random places, shoving and hitting the assistabot as it cleans up the space. I’m still in my chair, disbelief keeps me rooted. Chinwe hasn’t left her seat either. She really took me up on my challenge. Does that mean she’s expecting me to share my reasons for constant invisibility? I study her. Her head is lowered. She is picking at her nails.

“You’re still here, right?” she asks.

I almost don’t answer. I throw Grace a cautious glance. “Yes. Still here.”

“So…”

“You never said why you’re afraid of using your powers. Not explicitly.”

She shoots me an exasperated look. “Using it feels like an acknowledgement. Maybe if I don’t use them—”

 “They will not go away,” I cut in. “And unless you choose to be cured of them, they’ll still be there. Always. Is that what you want?” She squirms in her seat. “Have you even tried flying?”

“The facility provided a teacher. She has butterfly wings.”

“You’re not answering my question.”

She squirms again. “No.” I scoff. “The thing is… I’m afraid of heights. The teacher tried to make me feel better by telling me ‘the ground is not your enemy.’ And I thought, hantie, as long as there’s gravity, the ground will always be my enemy.”

A laugh bursts out of me, more anything else, I am amused at her portrayal of a Yoruba accent. Soon we’re both laughing.

“Oya, your turn,” she says when we’re done. “Why are you always invisible?”

I open my mouth, about to speak but not sure of what I want to say or how I’m going to say it, when Grace suddenly appears in front of us.

“You’re wasting your time with this one,” she tells Chinwe. “She wants to disappear so much that she refuses to use her real name. Ask her na. Ask her if Isoken is her real name? Our madam is pining over her dead sister.”

I bristle. “You looked in my file?”

“Before nko? Why won’t I? When you are forming brooding, invisible teenager. Your sister is dead, Itohan, you don’t look like her anymore, deal with it.”

I grit my teeth and let her see the hand coming before I punch her. We grapple with each other. She teleports me to the desert, and then the roof of a building in god knows where. In one of the rooms, we startle a kid trying to hack into his mother’s botpot. But I have a firm grip on Grace’s blouse and I’m punching her, my hand visible the whole time.

When we return to the therapy room, the attendants are there and ready for us. They give Grace an anti-geanomic shot. She starts to convulse. I pull away from her and let my hand disappear just in time, but the assistabots are prepared. They spray a gaseous form of the serum in my general direction and the last thing I see as my body goes into a fit is Chinwe shoving one of the attendants in a bid to get to me.

*

They can’t give us dampening chips or a cure without our consent, so they make us think through the consequences of our actions by giving us chores we have to do manually. Grace gets cleaning the girls’ toilets, and Chinwe and I get weeding the facility’s field. The arrangement doesn’t please me.

I’d been visible when I got sprayed with anti-geanom. She saw me. Anti-geanom takes away your powers by attacking the genes that carry the geanomic trait. It’s not fatal, but one of the side effects is seizures. Where the cure reengineers the cells by coaxing the anomaly out of the gene’s encoding, absorbing it to be discarded as waste, the serum treats the gene like a thing to be annihilated.

It’s been two days since then, and I’ve been avoiding Chinwe, but I can’t put off my chores any longer. She keeps glancing at me as I uproot weeds with a fervour that matches my agitation.

She shuffles over. “Hey.”

“What?”

She fidgets. “What do you want? Is it my sob story? Is that why you won’t leave me alone? What Grace told you, is it not enough for you?”

Hurt crosses her expression. “Sorry. I just wanted to—” She shakes her head and turns away.

I don’t want to feel bad, but I do. I pull out another weed with so much force that its momentum sends me tumbling. Chinwe hears me yelp and rushes over, the plant in my hand telling her where I am.

“Are you okay?”

My chest heaves and I start to sob. “Grace had no right. Nobody was supposed to know. You weren’t supposed to see. It’s how I keep her alive.”

“Who?”

“Isoken. It’s how I keep Isoken alive.” I wipe my eyes. “She’s my twin.” She doesn’t push. Just stands over me and waits. “There was a fire. A geanomic child suddenly got his abilities on the train. He couldn’t keep it under control. We tried to help. I couldn’t get my force-field to work. Isoken though, Isoken was good at everything. But things got out of hand – an explosion. And then—” I cough, but the clog in my throat stays in place. My heart twists painfully. “When I woke up. I looked like somebody else and I didn’t have a sister anymore.

“We were identical. Even our parents couldn’t tell us apart, and now, I look at my face and I can’t see her. I don’t feel like my parents’ daughter. The only thing I have that’s still mine and hers is our voice.”

There’s silence for a while. Chinwe settles down on the grass. “Your sister won’t be forgotten. You’ll always be your parents’ daughter.”

I laugh. “You’re not related to my therapist are you?”

She shrugs. “My uncle. I read his books. He’s a psychologist. I think some of his psychologist-ness rubbed off on me.”

I chuckle. My breath catches with my next question. “He’s not my therapist, is he?”

“I don’t think so.” She cocks her head so I can see the earnestness on her face.

Her answer quietens my flurry of anxiety. “How do you know my sister won’t be forgotten?”

“You told me about her, didn’t you? So I know her now and since I know her, I’ll remember her. Her friends? They’ll remember her. Your parents? They’ll also remember her. Just as you told me about her, you’ll tell other people about her, and some of them will remember her.”

I start to protest. She shakes her head at me.

“There’s more to you, Itohan, more to your sister than your faces. But if you’re busy trying to keep her alive, hiding away from the world, who’ll remember you then? I know you want to disappear, but do you want to be forgotten?”

We spend the rest of our time in silence. Her question keeps echoing in my mind. Do I want to be forgotten?

*

I tell my therapist about the conversation I had with Chinwe, and he thinks she’s on to something. He convinces me to meet with my parents for the first time in four months. I don’t have to be visible, the only thing I’m required to do is watch.

That’s what I’m doing right now as friends and family mill about the common room. The inpatients are distinguishable in their grey slacks, hugging, talking, some of them crying. The facility only allows one open day each month, and a lot of people are making the most of it.

My parents stand in the middle of the room, my mother’s eyes combing the crowd. She’s looking for me; I realise with a jolt. My dad stands beside her. He doesn’t search for me, but his eyes are fixed to the door. I begin a slow walk towards them.

“Mummie, Daddie.”

I catch my dad’s disappointment before it vanishes. My mother’s eyes stay fixed on the empty space I’m standing in. When I’m around most people, their eyes move over to something else with substance to latch on to. My mother’s eyes, however, never budge.

A beat passes. She asks. “Itohan, you’re still here, abi?”

“I’m still here.”

“I’m so glad you called us.” Her eyes are shining with tears. “We thought you didn’t want to see us anymore.”

“I—” A familiar laugh catches my attention. Chinwe is standing ways away with a man and two children. She’s holding one of the kids and her wings are beating. She’s two feet above the ground.

“So you can fly now.” The man is grinning.

She laughs again. “It’s not really flying, but I’m trying.”

She’s trying. I turn back to my parents. My mum’s expression is expectant. Her eyes are now locked in the wrong direction. My dad doesn’t even try. His gaze is lowered to the floor.

I look down at my hands. There’s more to me than my face. I don’t want to be forgotten. My courage has never been anything impressive, not since I chose to go invisible. But for this, I take a tiny bit from my reserves. I don’t think. I step away from the coldness of being unseen, into the heat of sight.

Gasps follow my reveal. My mother is caught between joy and shock. She starts to sob my name. “Itohan, Itohan.”

When my dad finally looks at me, he doesn’t tear his eyes away, almost as if he’s afraid I’ll disappear again, and I try not to. I can’t stay still, uneasiness churns in my stomach, but I stay visible till the end of their visit.

As soon as they leave – my dad squeezing my hand and my mum almost smothering me with a hug – I fade away again, turning to find Chinwe standing in front of me.

“I saw you,” she says.

I roll my eyes. “Yes, you and everybody else.”

“No.” She shakes her head. “Iz naw laik dat.” She smiles. “I mean, I saw you. I saw what laughter does to your face. How you look when you’re embarrassed. When you’re trying to suppress a smile, the mirth jumps to your eyes. You do a weird thing with your mouth when you’re nervous. I saw all of that.”

“And?”

“You’re a world, all on your own.”

I scoff, but pleasure sits in my stomach like the burn from a spicy food, slowly spreading to the rest of me. “For a girl afraid of heights, how do you manage to sound so deep all the time? Do you lay awake thinking about different ways to be profound?” I tease, but I can’t stop grinning. “That day at the field, what did you want to tell me?”

“I tried flying.”

“How was it?”

“I still hate it. But I don’t think I hate myself for it, not anymore. I was scared, you know? But it took—”

“Tiny bravery.”

“Yes, that. Tiny bravery. One day at a time, nothing grand, nothing impressive. Just living.”

I take another wisp of courage from my reserve and kiss her on the cheek. Her surprise is so comical that I burst into laughter. She grins, doesn’t say anything, and I appear for a bit, just to show her that we’re both grinning like idiots.

Ada Nnadi is a law school dropout, studying psychology at the University of Lagos because she thinks it’ll help her write better characters. She was longlisted for the 2018 Writivism Short Story Prize, and will one day be the mother of many cats. And maybe a dog.